Jenny Magical™

In the past year i've found love, in more ways than one. I've felt amazing. felt hurt. confused and lost. Somedays i've felt like i had all i ever needed and will need. And some i felt i had nothing. I found myself trying to convince myself i was happy at times so i would feel good. Life has thrown so many ups and downs at me and i will always miss the old days. I have grown up and matured so much this past year. I have learned that it is okay to regret, because it only makes you stronger in the long run. Things do happen for a reason. But you are the one who makes the decision for things to happen. i also learned you have to hurt for things to only get better for the future. I never let anyone take away the feeling that i can't do anything on my own. I love to here compliments, even though i will never believe you. i knock on wood wayy to much because i always think im jynxing myself. I don't drive. I don't even have my permit. I'm almost 18. and one day i'll have a cute little orange ford focus, and probably still won't drive because i'm terrified of the road. I'm the girl who got slammed in the head with Anberlin's guitarist at a show. I got a trip to the hospital, guitar chunks taken out and and 17 stitches to go along with it. I get jealous very easy and try to act like it doesn't bother me but it does. bad. If you truly want something, it can work out. If you don't try. You never really wanted it. The feeling of being wanted and needed is probably the best feeling ever. Someone making you feel that way but not mean it sucks alot and hurts so much more. Most of the time i think to far into things and make them seem worse than they are. My friends are the ones who keep the smile on my face. They keep the happiness in my life. I wish i could stay this age forever. I'm excited everyday to see what the future will bring and im just living life day by day.