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B.O.I

About Me


BLAH. How can I describe myself? Yipes. Lol. Well, I am definitely someone who lives for the truth of things. I try not to see the world through my eyes too much, I try to see it through everyone else’s so I have a better understanding of the energies around me. I love to play outside.
Nature is def my thing.
I was the kid sneaking out to the back yard on school nights to be able to fall asleep starring at the stars.
I absolutely LOOOVE the rain. The right amount of rain is good for the soul.
I do have to say though, most of all I love looking at the ocean, when I see those waves I feel like I can breathe.
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The ocean definitely reminds me of what’s most important in my life, what’s real. It filters out all the material preoccupations.
I think there are always material preoccupations,constant distractions if u will, existing externally around all of us but I love that core feeling you get from a person, you can’t put a word on it & there could be many great things about this person but what I am talking about is the over all true essence of them, without all the rest.
I definitely am a strong girl, strong heart, strong mind BUT I feel like I have a good judge of character so if I let you in I can definitely get caught off guard and stung in the ass. Lol
Honestly I just FEEL, A LOT, about EVERYTHING, there is so much energy in this world and I try so hard to understand it, soak in it, feel the good, the bad & the ugly, while learning from it every time.
This heart took a pretty hard beating a couple years ago, considering how hard it is I really think I’m learning my biggest lesson.

It's like your with someone..... Aaand your cores connect, then all of the sudden the other person gets lost in the material preoccupations. Makes me really think about what I want.
Everyone has a beautiful core, some people are really lost, and some prefer the surface, but you are ALL there, and I am here with ya! Not to be Debbie Downer, I just know that there are a ton of people out there who know the feeling I am talking about and if we could all just appreciate that in people a little more instead of the wallet, the car, or who’s wearing what, we’d be more aligned with the truth. I think that is why people feel comfortable with me...because there is an imediate feeling of acceptence & non-judgement. It's hard for me not to appreciate someone unconditionally because I look beyond the outside, I look pretty...damn...deep. I guess with people I'm more looking at the intention somone would have if they didn't need to protect themselves physically and emotionally. Remember, everyone was a child without fear at one point, with a fresh look at the world.
To jump for a moment : I have constantly been searching for something MORE in this life. For me it has nothing to do with a better career. Hmmm. It is bigger than that. & I cant explain it.
Its like everyone is trying to make their blueprint. And alot of it is routine. THey destroy, build, fear & self-indulge while advertising themselves at the same time. Are they just doing these things for the sake of doing something?


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Do they they really feel like thats all life is just building on the OUTSIDE? Its like the more things they have on their plate

the more complex they think they are. WHEN there is a whole other side to people a whole other unexplored world based soley off of feeling, exploration, desire, loyalty, questions and certainties; I call that inner-world."

And to me it is endless. The levels that can be reached & the way it can fill a person is amazing in ways there are no words to describe. Foooor example, the feeling of being in love, or having so much heart in something, makes us feel like the missing "something" is not missing anymore. Almost like it fills a void.
Even having a realization or opiphany creates this feeling. Sometimes it's short lived and sometimes it's long lived. It makes you feel like now that i have this, I am closer to the ultimate truth. This truth enables me to openly experience all the other things that this world has to offer.....HAVING THE WORLD MAKE THAT MUCH MORE SENSE, MAKING ME FEEL THAT MUCH MORE FREE.
& this great feeling, this void filler I am talking about has nothing to do with money.

There are people "set for life" that understand what this searching is like & are still on the "search." Wanna know what I'm into, THIS is what i'm into. What's THIS, I DUNNO---> its whatever u felt while reading that.
I will say this to the girls though, cause I know we all like to go out and look good for eachother. We ARE human so its only natural, even for the people with depth and understanding to care about appearances. Just hear me out though> I am SOO over people’s fakeness that when I see a girl lookin all f*ckin gorgeous I go through the whole thing in my head: the date & the sex, then I think about what she’ll look like the next morning make-up off and hair a mess it’s like, awe, THERE SHE IS! Dress up all ya want girls, lol, it looks hott & even hotter in bed, but appreciate who u are in your rawest form. Lol. Cause u want someone to love that part of you ;u) On a serious note to end: Life has been tough and confusing but we all know everything isn't "Rainbows and Butterflies." I just live it out, feel as much as I can and try to see things as THEY ARE not as I AM. Grow, connect, >LIVE<, experience, THINK, learn, explore, >LOVE<, try, express.
p.s. Your NEVER too old to climb a tree

My Blog

So close no matter how far

U know whats great about today for me. lol. it's like while the front my mind is working and creating the back of my mind has this constant slideshow of things that inspire me. Sometimes the su...
Posted by on Wed, 02 Jun 2010 12:33:00 GMT

Insight

.............. I have felt something since I was young. This feeling could be best paired up with a broken heart. This deep feeling in my core has always told me that something very real exis...
Posted by on Thu, 20 May 2010 15:14:00 GMT

Bitter Sweet

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Posted by on Mon, 29 Mar 2010 16:39:00 GMT

Today

There is a place I used to sit.  I would go there whenever I heard the rain hit the roof or the first crack of thunder.   I would make my way out of my room and head to the front door. I could smell t...
Posted by on Thu, 01 May 2008 14:46:00 GMT

Intoxicating

The way she kisses me is full of passion Its the best dance I have ever danced The softest bed I've layed in The roughest sport Iv'e played The hottest weather I have experienced Its the  mo...
Posted by on Thu, 10 Jan 2008 13:26:00 GMT

Just in case she is wondering why ;)

Her skin Her Eyes Her smile Her laugh* Her touch Her heart Her personality Her kiss Her words Her warmth Her passion Her expression & Every little breath she takes Is precious to me. I miss her. ...
Posted by on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 00:52:00 GMT

Im IN LIKE with someone

--> --> ..> Finally there's a girl thats been able to get my full attention. Grab the kids and call the neighbors!!! Ah hem, u know who u are. For the first time in a long time, I held back for som...
Posted by on Thu, 01 Nov 2007 14:38:00 GMT

Ahhh! Get away from me. HAHA!!! ahhhhh!

Haha, funny story.   I  was just thinking about the time when I got set up with this girl cause my buddy was dating her friend, dont get me wrong, she was fuckin cute as hell, BUT I remember...
Posted by on Thu, 25 Oct 2007 19:52:00 GMT

Its 1 a.m.

Right now I can't distinguish which voice I'm listening to. Is this a phase...or  am I just another lost soul?? Going bad? Or just been bad and getting worse?
Posted by on Tue, 23 Oct 2007 01:40:00 GMT

Status spew

If u have experienced true love how do u settle for less?    I will never again be tied down unless I have something that surpasses what I had.  I have an obsession with love and w...
Posted by on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 14:08:00 GMT