About Me
I am in awe of beautiful sunrises and sunsets, I find a sense of hope when I look up and see an airplane flying overhead. A feeling that we, you and me, are so small compared to the world, that alot of the time things are out of our control, that if God can handle ALL of this, surely he can handle what I'm going through, surely I don't need to worry, all I need to do is Trust. I enjoy late night talks, talking so loud that the waiter can hear that "maybe..maybe..you're READY to order," waving at people in passing cars as if you know them, running in the rain, singing in stairwells, singing in the shower, playing an awesome game of soccer during a sun-shower, doing slide-tackles and headers in the rain, doing an intense resistance training session with lots of squats and ab exercises, making my grandma laugh, dancing how-ever I want...whenever I want, being around kids so I too can act like a kid, laughing uncontrollable that you start to cry, watching the same funny part of a movie over and over and over again..until i'd finally try to convince my brother that maybe the movie had some other funny parts we could watch..listening to my brother sing around the house, "What you gonna do...What you gonna do when they come for..BAD BOYS...BAD BOYS..teasing my brother to the point that I'd have to run and hide or else expect to get sat on, sneaking M and M's when I should have been in bed and accidently dropped half of the container on the floor, and cringed as my mom yelled, "Who's in the M&M's?!! Taking the car out without a license all by myself, and actually realized that NO driving was not as scary as I had thought, and yes Mom I do know how to stop at stop signs when I can see them...is it really my fault if I couldn't see it when you were in the car...and NO I wasn't about to hit the mailbox...your side is just closer to the side of the road that's all...the car itself wasn't that close...Geez! I love adventures, the excitment of something new, and lasting friendships. I don't want to look back on this part of my life and wonder how I could have done things differently, but rather see this part of my life as a time that I OVERCAME I was able to use the setbacks that are in front of me to actual strengthen, encourage, and change the person I am becoming. I believe that it is in the fear of not becoming someone worth knowing that I continue to seek God in my life and all I know he is wanting to do through me. It is this fear that causes me to look at my life in perspective and see all the ways he is calling me, all the ways he is loving me, all the ways he is just trying to show me his plan for me will BE all a combination of my desires and SOOO SOO Much more...than I can imagine."God gave us eyes so that we might see; he gave us ears that we might hear; he gave us hearts that we might LIVE. "I have come that they may have life," Jesus said, "and that they may have it more abundantly" (John 10:10). Some of us have never, ever heard that promise.
If you are ever to find yourself, you must find what God has set in your heart. INSTEAD of asking what you OUGHT to do to become a better man or women, ask WHAT MAKES you come ALIVE? What stirs your heart? When God created the masculine and the feminine hearts and set them within us, he offered us an invitation: COME and LIVE out what I meant YOU to be." (John Eldredge)
