B-Ritt**

I'm probably the most outgoing person you'll ever meet, I'll do anything for a laugh. I love to be the center of attention and I'll do anything to get it. Some people say that I'm mean... its all honesty(working on it). I push people away but I'm learning acceptance. Being honest is one of my faults - My vocabulary doesn't consist of anything intelligent. I hate to be a disappointment, letting people down is something hard for me to accept. Its the worst feeling in the world, I just plain can't have it! I'm scared of change , I like routine. I am an absolute clean fanatic and can't stand touching door-knobs, its gross. I take life one day at a time not knowing the next thing I'm gonna do till I'm ready to. I really don't think I would be alive with out my mom and my microwave , who ever invented this machine, thank you!! I hate to cook - in the kitchen I live by two rules ..1 heat and ..2 eat. Its fast, its easy and its some good eatin all in one. when I'm mad , I throw things , if theirs nothing for me to throw I take off my shoes and throw them anywhere they could possibly be thrown. I do some pretty gross things like drink sour milk - I was really thirsty and cereals not cereal with out milk so what the hay? When theres no milk for cereal I use water. Do you have a better alternative for this morning delema? When I eat I think its funny to show everyone else what I'm having for breakfast, lunch or dinner. I drool when I laugh and cry when I laugh too. Its really one big mess. I wish I could make the world a better place being one person is sometimes a disappointment with all the bad thats happening. I'm a huge pervert and mostly get along with guys... we just have a lot in common. I'm a negative NED but I'm working on it, slowly but surely. U got to have progress before perfection, it just doesn't come naturally to some people. I use the number 80 a lot expressing minutes, time and speed. its a bad habit! I exaggerate everything I say so sounds more exciting! I hate pain emotional and physical because it hurts.I don't do very good without showers, I HAVE to take one everyday and if I don't there has to be a DAMN good excuse why I didn't. This is who I am take it or leave it, the good, the bad and the ugly because everybody has all three. I'm scared of people figuring out who I might be because I don't like who I am. I don't talk about my feelings because I don't want people to know how week I really am, deep down. Though its a lot, its not something I like to talk about. Get me on any other subject and I'm ready. Oh and if anybody has ever noticed I don't talk in long, full sentences. I'm good at is push ups, coloring and cutting firewood.