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I'm going through a divorce after living for 18 yrs in utter depression and self-denial. I'm finding myself slowly but surely. It's not an easy road but "the truth shall set you free" or so someone said. I live in a very, very strange living situation, have lost my best friend to the system and am struggling to accept certain things in my life. I'm not depressed per say, although I do have bad days but I am certainly scared of what is going on within me. BUT changes of any kind are sometimes hard to digest, right?

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I enjoy spending time with my family, children and friends. I am an avid book reader...My taste in books varies with my mood but I read an average of four books a week. I love to cuddle and to feel flesh under my fingertips. I like museums, listening to tunes (My taste in music is very versatile), and having long conversations. I love to meet new people and learn something new every day.



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I am a very open minded person and I need to be surrounded by people who are the same. I don't give a flying fuck what you look like, it's the personality that counts with me. I have spent the last 18 yrs of my life living in utter despair and depression...so I need to be around people who like to smile, laugh and have good conversation.

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Movies:

The whole series of Harry Potter, Silence of the lambs, Hannibal, Red Dragon, Saving Private Ryan, The Perfect Storm, Reality Bites, Amadeus, What About Last Night, The Stand, Fried Green Tomatoes, Zodiac, Schindler's List, American History X, 300, Fracture, Creepshow and more. My favorite though..guess??? You'll never get it...LOL Ok, ready?? THE SHINING



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Television:

CSI Miami, CSI Las Vegas, CSI New York, Big Brother, Real World, The Simpson, The Sapranos, Six Feet Under, South Park and more.



Books:

Stephen King, Peter Straub, Ann Rice, Ann Rule, John Douglas, Dean Koontz, Adolf Hitler, Patty Cornwell, Thomas Harris, Jack Abbott, James Patterson, Robert Graysmith, Stephen Michaud, Hugh Aynesworth, Tami Hoag, etc.



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Some of my favorite books include The Shining, Salem's Lot, Needful Things, Cujo, KoKo, Mindhunter, Green River Running Red, Garden of Eden, The Drowning People, Ted Bundy-Conversations with a Serial Killer, Insominia, In The Belly Of The Beast, Mein Kampf, and Jack The Ripper, Mr. X, Zodiac Unmasked, Zodiac, Night Sins, Along Came A Spider.



Heroes:



Jas, Tina, Kendra, Carrie, Susan, Marko, Doug, Matt, Mom, Gma, etc. I am very blessed to have a LOT of heroes in my life but the one that counts the most hasn't been given due credit....that would be ME. Someday though, I shall be able to say "Whoa Mary, you go girl!"



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My Blog

Jaded ~ Soil

My life is complicatedI tried but it's too late anJust when i think that it's okThis place has overtakenMore and more than I'm hereIt's all fake, I can't tellI think i finally understandHow i got this...
Posted by Mary on Fri, 31 Oct 2008 04:00:00 PST

The Otherside ~ Red Hot Chili Peppers

How long how long will I slide Separate my side I don?t I don?t believe it?s bad Slit my throat It?s all I ever I heard your voice through a photograph I thought it up it brought up the past Once you ...
Posted by Mary on Thu, 30 Oct 2008 03:20:00 PST

Universe ~ Scars On Broadway

A line is drawn up in the sandIs this the way to no where landYou've never seen the sky like thisYou never want die like thisComets falling for the earthIs this the end or a rebirthYou never seen the ...
Posted by Mary on Thu, 30 Oct 2008 03:06:00 PST

Plans...Plans

Ok, I've had time to think about my situation and talk with those that it would involve and I have come up with a plan.  I can't really go into specifics right now because they are still just pla...
Posted by Mary on Fri, 25 Jul 2008 03:53:00 PST

Life Is A Prison

..TR> ..TR> Life Is A Prison Life is a prison,Oh God let me out.No one to listen,To hear when you shout.Climb the walls of insanity,Ride the waves of despair.If you fall it don't matter,There's n...
Posted by Mary on Thu, 24 Jul 2008 02:49:00 PST

Suicide

Life is never good for me and this is what I wish you'd see.Just let me end it all for I'll be happy in the end, I'll finally be free.Free from all the pain and torment and the never ending battle.No ...
Posted by Mary on Thu, 24 Jul 2008 02:53:00 PST

Chaos Reigns

So Roy calls three times this morning and I finally answer.  He says that him and the boys have till tonight to be out because Anthony wants his space and my mom can't handle taking care of the k...
Posted by Mary on Thu, 24 Jul 2008 02:31:00 PST

OMFG...Whats Next

So I called the triage nurse yesterday and she put me through to the doc who told me I should go to the ER, which I did.  They elminated a few possibilities and then told me that I have cysts on ...
Posted by Mary on Tue, 22 Jul 2008 03:40:00 PST

Burn

So....I talked to Roy today....he is leaving in two weeks for WA and wants me to keep the boys for a couple of months.  Now where he thinks I can keep them at is beyond me but it's not like I hav...
Posted by Mary on Sun, 20 Jul 2008 07:46:00 PST

Shallow

Main Entry: 1shal·low Pronunciation: ..Èsha-(Ì)lM.. Function: adjective Etymology: Middle English schalowe; probably akin to Old English sceald shallow  more at skeleton Date: 14th century  ...
Posted by Mary on Fri, 18 Jul 2008 03:12:00 PST