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About Me

I'm deeper than you think. I speak in riddles and scream in contradictions, making it difficult to be understood, unless you really know me, which not many do. Only a select few know what makes me tick, and I would like to keep it that way. My personal life is just that... PERSONAL. I will not tell you how many guys I've had sex with, or anything I don't think you'd deserve to know.
I've been through a lot of shit, and I like to think I've handled most of it with grace. I've taken all of my bad experiences and turned them into positive energy. No one can break me. I have a respect for things I don't understand. I think that if you have a respect for the things you don't understand, it makes those things easier to deal with, whatever they may be. The only thing you do have to realize is whatever your hardship may be, it will make you stronger, even if you're not sure why you're suffering in the first place.
I'm full of contradictions, but I'm pretty sure I have my head on straight. Let's see if you can keep up.
I'm not perfect... far from it. I smoke, drink way too much, and I burp and fart in public. I'm tempermental yet extremly calm. I'm one of the most sincere people ever until you piss me off, which takes a lot to do. I trust with everything I have until I am betrayed, which seems to happen too much. I have loved and lost, and found that love is one of the greatest things to experience when you're in the moment, yet more blinding than ever imaginable, and one of the hardest things to lose. I've been hurt too many times to count, but blessed by more people than I ever thought possible. I tend to go crazy when I get excited and laugh when I get embarassed. I'm a big softie at heart, although some people seem to think I'm a bitch. The only approval I need is my own, and I'm more than satisfied.
I'm not here to impress anyone. I try to be as real as I can be, and I don't make excuses for myself or the mistakes I make. You only live once, so live life to the fullest every moment you can... no regrets.
I have a few different groups of friends. I only surround myself with people I can admire, and look up to. In my opinion it's unhealthy to surround yourself with anything less.
I admire everyone who has been in my life, including the ones who have done me wrong, and have appreciation for the strength they have given me by hurting me. I am who I am because of you all.
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I'm always down for meeting new people.
I have to be stimulated by you to be able to stand you.

Dating is unconventional for me. I don't like it. I'm very picky, and have high expectations. I'm not easily impressed. And very often unsatisfied.

I love honesty in people. I'd rather you'd be mean and honest, than sugarcoat it. No lying.

GUYS... I don't have applications, so you'll just have to be able stand me in person. haha GOOD LUCK. I want someone who'll keep me on my toes, keep me guessing. Someone who wants to relax one day then go out and party like a rockstar the next. Someone who can keep up with me and my ever changing attitude. Someone with a screaming personality, who doesn't conform and likes to stand out. Someone with a middle finger attitude and an open mind. Intelligence is hot. If you have the knowledge, speak up. If not, don't waste my time by feeding me complete bullshit . I'm all about emotion. The way you look at me, the way you touch me, the way you make me feel. If you make me cry, then you're not worth it. If you make me feel like less of a person because of a mistake I make, then you can fuck off for good. Someone who will love me for me. Someone who can put up with my shit. Emotionally stable, yet able to show emotion. I won't settle, so if you don't meet my standards...I'm over it. The eyes are the window to the soul. I can tell by the way you look at me, how you feel about me and what you're thinking... remember that...All i need to know lies within your hug ... If the hug isn't good, chances are there will be no connection...

I want someone who has enough fucking sense and maturity to realize that I shouldn't be let go.

Confidence is not cockiness... there is a difference and a fine line between the two... The way you carry yourself is EVERYTHING.

GIRLS... Be yourself. You'll get hated on no matter what you do, so you might as well do it with grace and style. Be smarter than them. Don't let IGNORANT guys get to you...They're never worth the time or energy... you're better off alone.
NO GUY IS EVER WORTH LOSING YOURSELF OR YOUR HAPPINESS.
Every moment can be nothing more than the moment in which it is, it cannot be changed, altered or wished away, it simply is the moment, and perfect it is, and you are in it's perfection, part of it, you make it what it is completing its perfection. Congratulations...you allow perfection, compliment it and complete

If you can't carry on a conversation about something more important than how cute your shoes are, or how much weight you can bench at the gym, then don't bother even looking at me. I will simply brush you off, or make fun of you, depending on how stupid you sound. If you make yourself an easy target then I can't help making an example out of you by making fun of you, without you directly knowing it. I'm too smart for those people to understand anyway. I'm not a bitch, I promise. I just happen to know what bothers me, what makes me happy, and what pisses me the fuck off. I speak my mind, and if I offend you, oh well. I have my opinions and I make no apologies for them. If you choose to stick around and listen, that's up to you. If you want to challenge my views and opinions, I'm game to debate with you. I'm an intelligent person, and I use it. I have no patience for ignorance. Ignorant people bother me.

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My Blog

You ask, so here it is

All you people ask "so what kind of guys do you go for?" I really don't know what to tell all of you but to show you "the list". The list that my close friends made me write out. Tha...
Posted by on Fri, 02 Dec 2005 18:01:00 GMT

The One Who Got Away

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something.There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one y...
Posted by on Thu, 29 Sep 2005 17:07:00 GMT

Annoyed Like HELL!!!

Ok, so people around here are really getting on my fucking nerves. I guess everything's been building up to this and I usually am a very tolerant person but FUCK IT!!! I can't take this anymore and ...
Posted by on Mon, 16 May 2005 23:46:00 GMT

DO THIS NOW

1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do yo...
Posted by on Wed, 23 Feb 2005 00:18:00 GMT