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perpetual purgatory

hello?

About Me

seeking, singing, wide eyed wonderment of chaos, three-dimensional, missing god like fairies, unicorns and santa clause, the easter bunny stole my slippers. tremendous desire to NOT feel so much, to NOT hate the haters and to NOT be dragged into the abyss of feculence that which we call "the establishment." afraid of becoming too close so i move a lot, still trying to decipher who i am and whether or not i like her. sick of being aloof and not meaning to... frustrated with almost everything and not satisfied with my own mediocrity- or am i? love to love and fear to fall but trip into relationships here and there. i have the dubious distinction to love forever no matter the failed attempt... i act and sing and dance and have yet to make it to the real mecca- new york- but i have traveled; i slept in jackson square, new orleans, attempting to be close to an old friend who once lived there. i have sailed across the atlantic blue and traveled abroad... i have seen the Mona Lisa and The Kiss and walked the mirrored halls of the great palace Versailles, the Eifel Tower is actually brown... alas, i am wherever i go....LIVING IN AUSTRIA 2005-2006.....
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My Interests

travel- duh............ music,theatre,literature,poetry, art, lying in leaves, blobbing on the sofa and watching a good movie for the 100th time, eating good food, sharing space with amazing people i.e. friends, dancing, singing, feeling and experiencing....connecting....

Music:

Mozart to Marilyn Manson... Johnny Cash to John Corigliano... Dylan to Dixie Chicks... Frank Sinatra to Frank Zappa...love underground and under appreciated music.......

My Blog

Update

Hiiiii deeeeeee hooooooooo! well, for those of you who have yet to hear.... i am a teacher! yay! finally... very near the loss of hope that i would ever find a gig, a job landed in my lap! it all happ...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Sat, 06 Sep 2008 03:22:00 PST

felix

we met ten years ago this summer. he was a scruffy mess and i didn't want much to do with him. i would see him moping around and quickly avoid eye contact. he was living next door with a family that d...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Fri, 20 Jun 2008 03:17:00 PST

what now...

i'm tired yet have done nothing. lost... sick of disappointment; seeing true colors but still long to find the bright prisms life has to offer; to feel the hues and heat, to k...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 05:29:00 PST

a good memory...

after reading my sister's blog regarding a mouse in her house, i was reminded of a good moment in a not so good relationship in my distant past...  he and i were living in a shabby apartment buil...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 10:31:00 PST

here i am!

i am having a moment... a temporary crisis... i hope... ok... so, here i am again, at the bitter brink of chaos and loss of sanity and i need to take a breath, cleanse the rancid air in my lungs and p...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Mon, 20 Nov 2006 08:53:00 PST

hollow

single again but my heart is still tied up, tangled.... mangled....my love should be banned. it's toxic for both parties. i'm hollowed...what should be inside has been smothered by tainted ooze.....
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 04:02:00 PST

thanx

living abroad has been an amazing experience and i am beyond happy that i came here...austria.... i would like to send my sincere salutations to the beautiful people who i have met here. aja...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Fri, 23 Jun 2006 01:19:00 PST

why i don't often blog

i don't blog enough.... a female of sooo many words; how can i chose what to say and how to say it? will i come off as a dimwit, a fluff-chick, too cerebral, too sad, self-centered...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Fri, 02 Jun 2006 01:01:00 PST

PIX!!!

happiness, elation, FINALLY!!! i was able to enter a bunch of pix on my website; however the space is very limited 'cause it is a free website... i downloaded as many as i could... i will fi...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Sat, 11 Mar 2006 01:36:00 PST

Europa

i am a broad who is abroad... to verbalize my experiences here is impossible but perhaps i can illustrate an infinitesimal sliver of the immense awe that i have felt during my time here ...
Posted by perpetual purgatory on Fri, 24 Feb 2006 04:09:00 PST