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Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker

So in the end, I'll be what I will be.

About Me


Who Am I?
I am the originality, born of pain.
I am that which cannot and at the same time, must be known.
I am a mix of light and darkness.
I am neither Alpha nor Omega, although I am partial to Tau and Omicron.
I am the hideous beast who seeks happiness, but destroys all he desires.
I am the fallen angel, forsaken by those who know him; feared by those who don't.
I am both the cause and result of you.
I am bound.
I am broken.
I am the wind; everywhere and nowhere.
I am that which you seek, that which you fear, and that which you love.
I am everything.
I am nothing.
I am the lone sapling braving the harsh midwinter whilst those around him have fallen.
I am a single incandescent beacon of subjective reality in a netherworld of endless absurdity reaching out toward a cosmos of nothingness.
I am unafraid.
I am terrified.
I am.
I am.
I am.
Who am I?
Come to know me, and decide for yourself.
Sun Sign: Scorpio
Sun 24° Scorpio 49' Scorpio Horoscope
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Moon Sign: Virgo
Moon 3° Virgo 47' Virgo Horoscope
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Rising Sign: Taurus
Ascendant 29° Taurus 03' Taurus Horoscope
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Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone.
And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
"Floating as a ghost through events, forever
unnoticed"
You are someone who is very lonely in life and feel
like no one ever notice you. Due to this you
lack in confidence in yourself and also have
little belief anything you do matters.
Therefor you are passive to most situations
and let other people take care of it, while
you stand aside. When you have a problem you
keep it to yourself, thinking no one will
care anyway if you told them. In social
gatherings you feel anxious and out-of-place
and like to stay away. When you see someone
having a problem you don't really meddle, not
because you don't care but because you think
they wouldn't want to have you around. A way
you could get noticed is through the
Internet, where you can open up more than you
do in real life.
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You are a Ninja.
You are like a samurai gone bad. The good side
is no longer interesting you and feel that
darkness is where you belong. Though you may
think you are the evil one, you're not.
Because deep inside there is still that
little glimpse of who you once were. You
don't like to associate with people that much
and keep away. In your mind they are ignorant
and not so interesting anyway. That means you
are a lonley person who don't trust people,
and you have really no desire to do so
either. Life is a big pain and annoyance for
you and you aren't quite sure on how to
handle it. Other people see you as mysterious
and secretive, and that is probably right.
Main weapon: Daggers and throwing
stars
Quote: "I hate people. People make
me pro-nuclear" -Margaret Smith
Facial expression: Frown
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Honor: You are an honorable person who is firm with
his/her beliefs and treats others as you are
treated. People would consider you humble at
times and very respectful, and someone to
definitely respect back.
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Which Mix of the Hogwarts Houses are You?
You're a Ravenpuff!: You are a very analytical and ingenius person, someone that likes to invent new things. The way you look at life is with wonder, and sometimes you're even a little naive. But people love you for that trait and they feel the need to protect you from the harsh facts of life so that you can retain your innocence. You are very capable person and when there is trouble people turn to you because you're able to stay calm and collected. You like balance in your life and you try not to make many waves. Even still, if there is something that you believe strongly in, you will commit yourself totally to that cause. Your weakness is that sometimes you can be indecisive and perfectionist, especially about little details and you drive people crazy sometimes with these traits. With the innocence of a Hufflepuff and the calm of a Ravenclaw you will be loved in life!
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What is your element? [with pics + detailed answers
Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around you and are in tune with the world around. You observe it but rarely interfere. Because of your shy and timid nature you will not have so many friends in your life. But then again, large crowds aren't your thing anyway. You are comfortable on your own and are reserved to others who you don't know or know very little of. You know everyone out there does not want to be your friend, and knowing that is good. However, people who don't know you that well thinks that you are cold and distant since you don't want to talk to them. Although you mean no harm, you can't always be perfectly understood in the world. No one can. Life in general are you quite serene with even if there are some things you don't like. Your love-life is not so full of boys/girls, but if you flirted more with the ones you were interested in I'm sure something would happen. The hobbies you choose are calmer ones, you are no party person that likes to drink and make-out with three or more guys/girls in one night. Reading a book or swimming is more your thing.
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My Interests

Movies (All), Music (Most), "Things" (Some), People (Few)

I'd like to meet:

People I can relate to. Nerds, Otaku, Fanboys, Fangirls (lol), People who go to the movies as much as I do, People I can have random arbitrary discussions about (like the finer points of shoe-wearing lol), Ya' know... generally weird and cool people. And this chick: .. width="425" height="350" ..

Music:

Incognito, Spyro Gyra, Goldfrapp,Evanescence, John Williams, Howard Shore, James Newton Howard, Nobuo Uematsu, Tribe Called Quest, The Roots, OutKast, Black Sheep, Mika Nakamshima, The Brilliant Green, Do As Infinity, Dream, Meiko Kaji, Rhymester, Hikaru Utada, Nami Tamaki, Erykah Badu, Jill Scott, Yellowcard, Queen, Heart, (Old) Eric Clapton, Mostly All Jazz and Classical, Some Rap, Some Hip Hop, Most Neo-Soul, Some Rock, Some Alternative, Most J-Pop, Little bits of everything else.

Movies:

Anything with Angelina Jolie, Uma Therman, Charlize Theron, or Kiera Knightley. Most Sci-Fi, Fantasy, Action, or Comedy movies. Some dramas. I end up seeing almost everything that comes out. I'm at the theatre at least once a week.

Television:

Heroes (Best Show On T.V.), House, Battlestar Galactica, Stargate SG-1, Boondocks and everything else on Adult Swim, Miniseries on Sci-Fi channel, almost anything on Comedy Central, Law & Order (The Original), Charmed, Almost all Anime--I'll giva any anime at least 2 episodes... If I don't get into it after that... meh.

Books:

Weather Warden Series, Harry Potter Series

Heroes:

Superman? what the hell are they talking about?

My Blog

Things That Make Me Feel Good

Can't think of too many things that piss me off right now. So I'll start up the opposite. Again, in no specific order. 1. Liz Vicious 2. Liz Melgar 3. Emilia (Toast) 4. Video Games 5. Movies 6. Cute J...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 11:23:00 PST

My Profile song/The Theme for my Life right now

This is pretty much how I feel right now. Its also my profile song so take a listen. Gollum's SongEmiliana Torrini( Lord of the ring - The two towers soundtrack ) Where once was light, now darkness fa...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 05:37:00 PST

Things That Piss Me The Hell Off

5/13/06 In no particular Order: 1. Ididots who don't know you can make a right turn on a red light. (Or a left turn from a one-way to a one-way.) 2. People who add you as a friend with no intention of...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Sun, 14 May 2006 09:27:00 PST

About My Display Name

Meian - Japanese term meaning ?? goom/shade, ??  a good idea, or ?? light and darkness/light and shade. In this case i am using the light and shade meaning. Amejin - has two meanings. F...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Wed, 22 Nov 2006 08:30:00 PST

Questions to the Universe

If this life is something worth living, then tell me one thing that's worth living for. If karma exists, then tell me what I have done. If there is someone for everyone, then is my person dead? I...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Sun, 17 Sep 2006 10:10:00 PST

My Favorite Poem

It's from the Silent Hill 3 Soundtrack. "Walk On Vanity Ruins" - i don't know who wrote it, but i know Mary Elizabeth McGlynn sang/spoke it. In here is a tragedy, Art thou player o...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Wed, 17 May 2006 11:39:00 PST

Famous Ladies I Think Are Hot

In no particular order. Amy Poehler Tina Fey Ziyi Zhang Ayumi Hamasaki Mika Nakashima Uma Thurman Ciara Anastasia Myskina Michelle Trachtenberg Amanda Bynes (Sometimes) Sarah Silverman Geena Davis Jod...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Sun, 14 May 2006 09:38:00 PST

The Truth Revealed

Copied from www.laddertheory.com. ALL SINGLE GUYS SHOULD READ THAT SITE!!! ALL WOMEN SHOULD READ THIS!!! IF A MAN FINDS YOU ATTRACTIVE YOU CANNOT BE FRIENDSMany women want to argue this point and say ...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Thu, 11 May 2006 10:18:00 PST

So I'm Still Single...

And it's getting old. I know my main problem is that I have trouble talking to women; well, new people in general. I'm working on that, and it helps to have someone there that cares, even if it is onl...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Fri, 05 May 2006 10:55:00 PST

On the nature of God

How can anyone say that their religion is the true religion? One thing I've noticed with most monotheistic religions is that one of the main tenets is that God is unknowable; that faith is required. S...
Posted by Meian a.k.a. Amejin a.k.a Toyin a.k.a Horse Choker on Sun, 16 Apr 2006 08:38:00 PST