Just recently I've discovered what i want to get out of life, where i want to go...although i haven't picked a location, i do know i don't want to live inbetween cornfields for the rest of me life! Just last week i was in NYC with sarah and shannon, some damn aussies(hot aussies), and millions of other people, and it made me realize theres so much more excitment out there. I come from a very small town, and there really is NOTHING to do....except go out to the bars. which brings me to my next point, most of the time, i can't handle my liquor. if you know me or have ever met me on one of my crazed nights you know i can't handle it. I apologize for the ass i've made of myself but damn i had a fun time. More importantly, i want to better myself of this ongoing habbit. A lot of the times, i drink to forget, but i am sick of forgetting now, and i need to let go of my past. I have to forgive myself for the things i've done, i can't change them but i can make up for them. And for the reason, this right here and right now is where my life is stating over. I now have a one year plan, to get the fuck outta here. Shannon, i'm holding you to this plan.... death to whoever backs out. remember. im not fucking around. I want more for this life! and i will get it.
