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Monkey235

I'm a perro trying to chase that cat

About Me

"He was very afraid of being hurt. He was afraid of opening up in case it was turned around and used against him."

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'I don't want to be alone. I have never wanted to be alone. I fucking hate it. I hate that I have no one to talk to, I hate that I have no one to call, I hate that I have no one to hold my hand, hug me, tell me everything is going to be all right. I hate that I have no one to share my hopes and my dreams with, I hate that I no longer have any hopes or dreams, I hate that I have no one to tell me to hold on, that I can find them again. I hate that when I scream, and I scream bloody murder, that I am screaming into emptiness. I hate that there is no one to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn how to stop screaming. I hate that what I have turned to in my loneliness lives in a pipe or a bottle. I hate that what I have turned to in my loneliness is killing me, has already killed me, or will kill me soon. I hate that I wil die alone. I will die alone in my horror.

More than anything, all I have ever wanted is to be close to someone. More than anything, all I have ever wanted is to feel as if I wasn't alone. I have tried many time, tried to kill my loneliness with a girl or a woman, and it was never right. We would be together and be close to each other, but no matter how close we were, I still felt alone. They felt that loneliness and it made them want to get closer. When they tried, I either ran or did something to destroy what we felt for each other. I can run fast when I want to run fast, and I've always been good at destroying things. Not one of them would be willing to speak to me today.'

Music:

[ 1 0 Years] [ 3 11] [ A C/DC] [ A erosmith] [ A FI] [ A gainst Me!] [Christina A guilera] [ A lkaline Trio] [ A nastacia] [ A nti-Flag] [ A phex Twin] [ A poptygma Berzerk] [ A treyu] [ A udioslave] [ A uf Der Maur] [ A venged Sevenfold ] [ A venue D] [ B ad Company] [ B ad Religion] [ B auhaus] [ B eastie Boys] [ B eck] [ B jork] [ B lack Eyed Peas] [ B lack Flag] [ B lack Sabbath] [ B link 182] [ B loc Party] [ B londie] [ B on Jovi] [ B owling For Soup] [ B right Eyes] [ B uzzcocks] [ C her] [Kenny C hesney] [ C hevelle] [Kelly C larkson] [Patsy C line] [ C RASS] [ D a Rude] [ D ashboard Confessional] [ D eath Cab for Cutie] [ D epeche Mode] [Ani D iFranco] [ D ISTURBED] [ D J Dero] [ D J Irene] [ D J Sammy] [ D ropkick Murphys] [Hilary D uff] [ E nglish Beat] [Melissa E theridge] [ E VE 6] [ F all Out Boy] [Melissa F errick] [ F logging Molly] [ F oo Fighters] [ F rom Autumn To Ashes] [ F uneral For A Friend ] [ G arbage] [ G orillaz] [ G reen Day] [ G ym Class Heroes] [ G oldfinger] [ H awthorne Heights] [ H ead Automatica] [ H eart] [ H ellogoodbye] [ H IM] [ I an Van Dahl] [Billy I dol] [ I ncubus] [Etta J ames] [ J immy Eat World] [ K ill Hannah] [ K orn] [ L 7] [ L ed Zeppelin] [ L ess Than Jake] [Lindsay L ohan] [ L inkin Park] [ L ucky Boys Confusion] [ M ad Caddies] [ M adonna] [ M arilyn Manson] [ M aroon 5] [ M indless Self Indulgence] [ M UDVAYNE] [ M xPx] [ M y Chemical Romance] [ N elly] [ N ew York Dolls] [ N ine Inch Nails] [ N irvana] [ N o Doubt] [ N OFX] [ P ortishead] [ P retty Ricky] [ P ussycat Dolls] [ R ancid] [ R ascal Flatts] [ R elient K] [ R ilo Kiley] [ R ise Against] [ S imple Plan] [Ashlee S impson] [ S lipknot] [ S mashing Pumpkins ] [ S noop Dogg] [ S tory of the Year] [ S ublime] [ S ystem Of A Down] [ T aking Back Sunday] [ T egan and Sara] [ T he Academy Is...] [ T he All-American Rejects] [ T he Blood Brothers] [ T HE CASUALTIES] [ T he Cure] [ T he Early November] [ T he Killers] [ T he Offspring] [ T he Postal Service] [ T he Rocket Summer] [ T he Smiths] [ T he Spill Canvas] [ T he Used] [ T he Who] [ T hrice] [ T iger Army] [ T OOL] [ u nderOATH] [Keith U rban] [ W eezer] [ Y eah Yeah Yeah's]

Movies:


[A Beautiful Mind] [American History X] [Anchorman] [Bad Santa] [Beetle Juice] [Best In Show] [Beyond Borders] [Charlie & The Chocolate Factory] [Clockwork Orange] [Closer] [Connie & Carla] [DodgeBall] [Domino] [Empire Records] [Eyes Wide Shut] [Finding Nemo] [Foxfire] [From Hell] [Full Metal Jacket] [Gia] [Girl, Interrupted] [Hackers] [Hannibal] [Here & Now] [Hide & Seek] [Hook] [House of a 1000 Corpses] [If These Walls Could Talk II] [Latin Kings of Comedy] [Life or Something Like It] [Lion King] [Mean Girls] [Memento] [Monster] [Monster In Law] [Napoleon Dynamite] [National Treasure] [Old School] [Party Monster] [Red Dragon] [RENT] [Saw] [Silence of the Lambs] [Skeleton Key] [Stealing Beauty] [Taking Lives] [Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles] [Tomb Raider I & II] [The Bone Collector] [The Day After Tomorrow] [The Nightmare Before Christmas] [The Notebook]

Television:

[America's Next Top Model] [Aqua Teen Hunger Force] [Cold Case] [COPS] [CSI] [Ellen] [Futurama] [Jeopardy] [Law & Order] [Mind of Mencia] [NUMB3RS] [Oprah] [Queer as Folk] [Racheal Ray] [Reno 911] [Robot Chicken] [The Family Guy] [The L Word] [The Simpsons] [Unwrapped]

Heroes:

My younger brother is my hero for showing me not to take any day for granted and to live it as if it were your last. 09.03.1984 - 08.10.2003

My Blog

BOSS!!!!

I went to get a little addition on Thursday... And his name is Boss! I went way out into the boonies to pick out this little kitten... it wasnt the one I thought I was going to get bec...
Posted by Monkey235 on Sun, 22 Jun 2008 08:57:00 PST

getting better

i feel a lot better. things arent getting better but i feel better.   who knows maybe this is the time. but anyways. my bday is in a month from today!!! so get me something!!! ...
Posted by Monkey235 on Fri, 13 Jun 2008 05:10:00 PST

tree in my shower....

there is an almond tree in my shower. it was aquired on a drunken night!! peeing next to almond orchards cant be that bad if you get a tree out of it! so yes there is an almond tree in my shower and i...
Posted by Monkey235 on Tue, 20 May 2008 02:19:00 PST

random survey....

1. Are you taller than your best friend?Hmmm I think Crimmy is an inch or two taller than me... 2. Do you have a favorite type of pen?Yes! G-3 pens... .5 or .7... Black ink only! I wont use anything b...
Posted by Monkey235 on Fri, 07 Mar 2008 06:19:00 PST

sleep

blah. im going away. far far away. yes. that is what i will do. i need a caigarette.
Posted by Monkey235 on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 07:41:00 PST

yearning

im in desperate need of an escape. there is too much going on between work and life. i just want to get away. i have an application in my room right now to get my passport. now what i do with that onc...
Posted by Monkey235 on Thu, 10 Jan 2008 06:42:00 PST

just random

so i always want to come on here and vent and i never know what to say. and im always being told that i need to just talk.. blah blah but the fun thing is when i do noone gets it.. so i just wasted ti...
Posted by Monkey235 on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 05:07:00 PST

7 deadly...

..> I've been tagged - 7 random facts The rules are as follows: Someone writes a blog with seven weird/random facts about him- or herself. Then, at the end of the blog he/she tags seven of his o...
Posted by Monkey235 on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 01:28:00 PST

a white xmas....

we will be home for xmas... i bought the tickets last week... fendi is coming too... i have to go home tonight and pack all of my shit... and then we go to sabrina's parents tomorrow for prexmas with ...
Posted by Monkey235 on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 10:36:00 PST

sometimes i dont make sense....

i dont know why i do the shit i do sometimes.. it doesnt make sense.. not even to me.. maybe at the time it seems like the only thing to do.. the only thats right... well not even right.. its never ri...
Posted by Monkey235 on Thu, 07 Dec 2006 08:19:00 PST