I'm a christian mom and poet. I love solitude, but I'm more on the melancholic side. I love to look into people's eyes but not everyone, only people I'm interested in, people with soul-saving purpose. I think there's something to learn from them. I believe that the eyes is the window to one's soul. I will get into your soul and find your innermost thoughts or desires without you ever knowing it(I don't control or plan it , it just happens). After I find out about you, good or bad, I'll still love you. It's a gift I guess. I was born with it, and have suffered greatly because of it;yet I remain unchanged. It's the kind of thing that made my friends and family uncomfortable around me. You too, I see when you start to grow uncomfortable around me if I give you the slightest hint that I know something of your deep dark self. Even behind the shades, I see you and know of you. I find that I can use it to my benefit too, to be left alone, it's not good to do I know, but I do it sometimes, I'm honest. No one can hide love as it speaks loudly. I use to think that falling in love was for weaklings but lately I find myself backtracking. I hope you're in my backtrack, smile. I don't think anyone can take the pressure of living with such a creepy person as myself but only one can fit this spot. I have looked all my life and have yet to find someone as loving, dependable, and supportive as you, there's none other then you. You make all others seem immature and incomplete in all aspects of the word. I desire none other than you. You fulfill my every desire and others are jealous to know that you occupy such an immense space in my heart. I see them loooking at us when they think I don't see them looking and they can't help but suspect that it might be all fake but little do they know. They haven't walked a mile or more in my shoes with you for them to know any different. To tell you the truth you have all of my heart, mind, body and soul. and you know it too. That's why you're so hard on me, you're jealous. Your jealousy is the only one I can take. If it were someone else, I'd send them flying probably. But you see, I worship the ground you walked on and for you I'll go beyond my humanly possible limit, just for you.
I tend to adopt other people's kids in my heart, don't ask me how, don't ask me why, you just have to be in my heart to sense what I sense for others when I adopt them into my life, my heart and my world without them even knowing it. It's love really, but why should I tell you? I need not convince you or anyone, I owe you only one thing and one thing alone, that is Love. I have rejected everything for the One I love and I'd do it all again. I'm an easy person to confront but people who don't know me and who do not care to know me find it difficult to get past my blah face, they mistake my painful and/or misery face for meanness. Hey, people are people, they can't help being whom or what they are, themselves, so why should I be different, I'm me. Pain and suffering is not estranged to me and it shows, if you can't read that when you look into my face, if you feel that you need to criticize me when you hardly know me, walk on, press on further, I have no time for nonsense. My face told you I'm a no nonsense person but you failed to see that too.
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