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About me "No one dies a virgin, life screws us all"

KIMBERLY 23 Currently in: Miami, Florida
Wanting to be with you in: Kansas City, Mo

College Graduate (KS - BCC 07) Jan 2009 Attending:

Major: Marketing
Minor: Finance
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No wonder I purrrr, I'm a leo

"Killer Puppets & Suicide Birds" ---The story of my life---

I’m the girl your mother warned you about in distress.

Sincerely,

..Your favorite fucked up little mess.



"Face down in the dirt, she said it doesnt hurt, she said "I felt like hurting"

Cutting out the hardships in my life,
The scissors are in my hand,

I've reached my final breaking point,
I've took all that I can stand.

You ran me around in circles,
Chased me around the bush,

I was standing at the edge of the cliff,
YOUR hand gave me the push!

: To all the obstacles in my life.

I'm in an awkward situation,
It is hard to explain.
It is like hiding from the sun,
but dancing in the rain.

♥
To someone I met back in Feb:
When I was looking nowhere, you found me.
Now that I am looking for you, you are nowhere to be found.

About me:

I can be your best nightmare or your worst dream. You pick. Some call me Evil. I try to tell them that they are spelling my name wrong but they just don’t listen…

Writing; it is my obsession. I think way too much. I am impatient and overly analytical. At times, writing can consume hours of my day. I have kept a journal since I was 7. I tend to write everything down. I have notebooks everywhere but I never have a pen; ironic – don’t you think? Watch out, you don’t want to end up as just one of my “characters” in a book. I’m a gamer but its ok we are all just actors in this world of make believe – trust no one. Caffeine is my addiction – it makes me happy, sooo happy at times that I think it should be illegal. Other than caffeine, I do not do drugs. Who doesn’t love porn? Do you know where I can get some? …porn that is…I probably should have been born a man, I love sex – I’m good at it. I am pretty shameless and it’s hard to embarrass me. I am very selective though, most guys annoy the piss out of me and I don’t find 97% of men attractive. I am still wondering where the other 3% are ;) ….I talk a lot, but mainly to myself so you’re ok.

More "about me" in my recent blog posting N/R. You can find my blog on my navigation tool bar on the left side of the screen.

...new friends are fun, biting is overrated, I lick - MEOW!!

August 22, 08
In time of slumps, I appreciate the select few people in my life that do and will always matter. Anytime I am feeling down, this video always makes me smile. Even though he and his mother live in Texas and I no longer, they will always hold the place closest to my heart.
...I took this video a month ago. And DAMN, I miss this little man.

Check out this video: Sweet Kisses

New tat ideas

SANKOFA
"return and get it"

Three of Swords - I get this card a lot.

I am unlucky in love

Anyone can get into a girls pants,
But if you want this girls heart,
Your going to have to get into her mind! ♥

This is bbbeautiful

The Wheel of Fortune represents unexpected encounters and twists of fate. You can't predict surprises; you can only be aware when one is circling around.

"Round and round and round she goes, and where she stops, nobody knows."

Follow me, the girl that see's life through barbed wire fences

May 29, 08
I headed out tonight,
With my mind on the town.
Couldnt help but be distracted,
by the faces all around.

Head up, hair blowing, I had my shoulders back.
I looked at all the faces,
trying to plan my first attack.

I stepped out of my car,
When I met this girl named Kimmy.
She had everything,
that a girl could possibly give me.

Cute face, nice body with her hips and her thighs,
I could tell she wanted to molest me,
by the look in her eyes....Wait, is she a guy?
I started to worry,
but when I knew I was in the clear,
I got on her in a hurry.

♥ MY TO DO LIST ♥

JAMES FRANCO

he doesnt know it yet, but he's my future babies daddy :)

Also Matt Shadows of Avenged Sevenfold; HELLO! His voice gives me tinglies in my girlie places!!

...he can DEF call me; I'm a sucka for musicians ♥ ;)

May 5, 08
Ghost cascade their translucent sheets along the room. Stones are thrown, bricks laid – WALLS APPARENT. Defenses create hostility and then RELATIONSHIPS CAN NEVER BE FORMED. Protective bubbles guard us from the outside world. So if we all stay in our comfort zones, will we ever really see life? Looking at life through a plastic exterior doesn’t seem productive, does it? Wait so you want to hurt me? Wait, what are you doing? You are in my “space”! Is that a needle? Burst my fucking bubble? Trust him with his one hand out. Be fearless, shake his hand. You will never know what he is hiding behind his back unless you get close enough to him to check. If you don’t get close, you will always wonder. What a frickin HEADACHE, Mr. Double Edged Sword!

“You can run all you want, he has a gun”. Thoughts run through your head, chuckling on the inside. Shoot her in the back, watch her run into the woods. I bet it fascinates you knowing that you can go play with her dead corpse later.

I am human, and at times, my mind gets the best of me.

April 9, 08
The demons scream at me through the sheets on my bed; the angels hover over defenseless. The skeletons in my closest are staring at me. I keep that door shut but their eyes still shine upon my back as I lay on my stomach. I enclose my hands and feet inside my blankets, getting lost in the nothingness as the puppet masters dance their dance on the floor in hopes for control. Hopeless as my mind is, I close my eyes tightly. “Why are you yelling at me?” “Can’t you see I am trying to sleep?” All I asked for was the truth so please just leave my side. No one told you that you had to strip naked, sacrifice yourself, and pin yourself by your hands and feet to my head board.

April 10, 08

...Written for a friend

(Two Words: Delusion – Distraction)

[Victim]

Look over here,
At the one that is smiling.
I have the digits,
That you will soon be dialing.

[You]
Search the walls,
Stand looking around.
Oblivious to the space,
No endearing sounds.

The beats caught your feet,
Lingering in your shoes.
Continue with your intentions,
Do what it is you do!

Fix your face!
Where is your mask?
Have you rehearsed your lines?
To which will soon be asked.

Manifest this delusion ,
Give it your best chance,
Ask the “easy” victim,
“Shall I have this dance?”

Unclench your fist,
It is time.
Your true self you must hide.

“Let us just leave tonight,
No one has to know.
Best to take your chances now
Your mind I want to blow.”

[Victim]
I love it when you whisper,
You mouth upon my ear.
I am aware of your intentions,
But I will pretend they are unclear.

The light so bright,
That hangs ahead.
The face of theirs,
Will soon comfort your bed.

Your face I said,
So don’t make a sound.
Just open your mouth,
And move it around.

Sliding into you,
Brushing against your hair,
I didn’t ask your name,
Cause I really just don’t care.

I do not want the drama,
The distraction , or the mess,
But fucking you that night,
Felt good I must confess.

April 15, 08

Love me, love me not; the petals fall through my fingers tips as the pollen stains my hands. Branded yet again. Ouch, your branding iron is hot. It is melting the top layer of my skin away! Now tag me and call me Yours ...the fine line between two, four lettered words.

♥

..March 12, 08

Quotes that rocked my world and made me think!

Most people want to change the world to improve their lives. What a wasted effort. If they would only improve themselves, they would be better off and so would the world.

You can impress people at a distance, but you can impact them only up close. –Howard Hendricks.

No reserve, no retreat, and no regrets. –Bill Borton “Missionary to China” Written on his death bed.

Don’t put off for tomorrow what you can do today, because if you enjoy it today, you can do it again tomorrow. “James A. Michener”

Why not go out on a limb, isn’t that where the fruit is? “frank Scully”

Your friends will stretch your vision or choke your dream.

Progress always involves risk; you can’t steal second and keep your foot on first. “Frederick Wilcox”

The err is human… but when the eraser wears out ahead of the pencil, you’re overdoing it. “Irving Berlin”

Inspiration without perspiration is a daydream; Perspiration without inspiration is a nightmare.

The best cure for a sluggish mind is to disturb its routine. –William Danforth

It pays to plan ahead, it wasn’t raining when Noah built the Ark.

Jewelry box music.

I will be your badly broken ballerina beauty. “The music makes me sway”.

The top of the list:

Escape the Fate #. Tokyo Rose. Alesana. Adema. Atreyu.
Advenged Sevenfold. Korn. Linkin Park. Aerosmith.
Marylin Manson. The Used. The Leo Project ♥. Skillet. Incubus @.
Dashboard Confessionals. Brand New. Chevelle.
A Perfect Circle. Gym Class Heroes. NIN. Tesla.
Staind. Gavin Degraw. Mudvayne. The Fray *
Fleetwood Mac. Tom Petty. Pink Floyd.

Favorite lyric quotes:

# Song- Reverse the Curse
"A weathered past and blurry future.
My hearts on an auction, it goes out to highest bid."

♥ Song- Knives
"Poor girl, she has no idea what it is like to forgive.
She cries at night with hatred inside her heart."

@ Song- Anna Molly
"A cloud hangs over and mutes my happiness"
"A thousand ships couldnt send me back from this place."

* Song- "All at Once"
"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same thing."

Trashy Trashy Slut Faced Fashion

I feel the sexiest in ALL black

Love the hair/makeup - not really a chick that likes dresses.

Feb 25, 08
Here we go again

Feb 18, 08
So you want to be heard?
Command that stage.
Show them who is “Ace”.
Row call…“All contestants line the wall.”

“Why are you here T.S.? Explain yourself”…

Uh-oh, maybe a little too early for so much information. Wait, wait, you care way too much. Simmer; let it get some flavor before you try to eat it. Relax; we will have tea with dinner.

I find my feet on the edge of the chair... staring down at the artificial white and black checkered tile that lines my next audition stage. Can’t this just be real? I do not want to fall again. Where is the equilibrium? The pot is boiling over. Take me off the stove; my top is popping out; tip me over, pour me out. I am unbalanced, oh no. Save me, I’m on fire. Put me to your mouth and I will definitely burn your lips. I am not ready yet, I needed time to set. Trying to get away from you...I catch the curtains and slide down, coming to the carpet. Burn baby burn. Ignite. Watch me burn. Let me light up your life like I plan to light up this room. You better hurry. Call 911. Help me, help me! The house has caught fire. Can you feel the heat? From the kitchen? Do you wish you would have stayed out? Prepare yourself, hope you are ready. Be aware at all times of your exits. Take this as a warning. Smoke engoffs the room, making the situation hard to decode.
Would you have changed anything if you knew this was going to happen? Or do you like the idea of rebuilding something new after a fire?
Who doesn't love creation. Let’s make something new.
My eyes trail the stoned foundation. Grey from the ashes. Hide the match, no one will understand this conspiracy.

....So much for dinner.
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Feb 14, 08 ♥
The jury is in… the panel is confused… & the judge remains indecisive.
Make up your mind!
You can’t possibly ignore another situation.
Or can you? You dissociate, delusion, destructive, delicate disaster.
***Boom… everyone scatters.
Shout shout shout shout… what do you make of this chaos all about?
Inhale…
Fire the jury, the panel and the judge “I say”. They take up to much room in my head. They are dismissed to leave my mind…
exhale.
>>>15 minutes of recess is over… Everyone, it’s time to re-group.
Go back now?
No silly, you can stay.
I want to invite you into my world.
Here, lets go hide in the alley way. Drop what you are doing, come sit with me and pray….
Heavenly Father tomorrow I will wake up, beat my children, admire my neighbor, and lie to my wife. Amen.
Honesty has always been the best policy.
Honesty? Isn’t that a plant?
Look up the definition…“A hardy plant with flat silvery seed pods that are often used for outdoor decorations.” When did honesty have anything to do with beauty and creation? Maybe because it’s what any relationship… example friends, family, lovers, others etc base their relationship on. But a plant? Can they eat that plant? Cause I swear if honesty is transformed through words and actions… Some people should very much eat it… eat their words. You didn’t know?? It’s cool to lie. It’s like the hottest new trend. OH MY GOSH BECKY, where have you been? Here, try mine on. A little too big? Sorry my “lies” are heavy and kind of constraining around the neck. But I am lying, I am not a liar… so who do you believe? The person that lies about lying? *My head hurts* so I ask God what I should do… Its ok he says, you will be forgiven tonight and tomorrow lives on to be another day.
If live backwards is evil. Then are we backwards if we’re evil when we live? Curiosity killed the cat right? When did it ever choke the giraffe? Clever as ever she is. Lol..
Jenny, you have the funniest things to say … and you keep me creative and constantly thinking.

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My mind is like a boat sailing in an open sea. Sometimes it is calm & relaxed. Sometimes it is impatient, eager, and ready to depart. But most of the time I am sailing. Thinking about things; it could be as simplistic as a sunny day or as metaphorically time consuming as a hurricane or typhoon. My mind is the boat. I don’t do drugs because who wants holes in their boat? This thing called life is already rocky enough and I do not need any more help sinking. The currents get thicker as I sail further away from land on my own; sliding down the drain of my narrow coffin like bathing tub.

...wanna join me?
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Feb 15, 08

Feb 1, 08 "Ich liebe meines Wesens Dunkelstuden,
in welchen meine Sinne sich Vertiefen."
Translation- "I love the dark hours of my being to which my senses deepen." -Rainer Maria Rilke (Vicious Spring)

Jan 12, 08 "She's just like him - spoiled rotten, confused by the lies she's been fed. & She's searching for no one but herself. Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy.

♥ Jan 7, 08
Go, you can't stay here.
This is my hiding place.
So get out of my head.
I will not apologize for things I have done or said.

"You will never see me fall from grace"
♥ ♥ ♥ Jan 2, 07

She closed her eyes then her heart exploded into a thousand peices
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I heard no music & saw nothing of faces but blurred smiles; as if I was walking around with my eyes closed in a muted movie. Confusion is nothing new but DEF not the way I wanted to bring in the new yr. I didnt eat much all day cause I was excited about going out. I really only had a slice of pizza. I know DUMBASS I Didnt sleep much either. So all odds were aganist me. I didnt get a DUI, get into any fights, wreck my car or land myself in jail but I did land on my ass in sense. I was literally so plastered by midnight that I was unaware of my surroundings. If my friends werent there I would be that drunk girl passed out in the street. Damn that is sexy. Kidding. Speaking of sexy. My outfit was SO hot. My roomy and I spent like 2 or 3 hrs getting ready. And no neighbors we WERENT fighting but being loud girls. Gosh--> grow some effin balls, you could have knocked on our door instead of calling the cops. Its ok though, the cops were fun :) ha ha I think they liked my outfit. For a minute I pictured them as our male strippers. kidding *she winks. Anyways, like I must have froze my ass off in that outfit but along with the not hearing or seeing, I didnt feel shit. So I am still unthawing (sp?).. Like my outfit mattered, I lost my effin camera full of pictures & literally..The hottest guy could have been in the bars with us and I would have NOT known cause I was so out of touch with reality. lol, my friends try to make me feel better. The fact that I was probably just like 100's of 1,000's of other people in the world that were thinking "WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO LAST NIGHT". I'm gonna apologize now to anything totally dumb or retarted that I did. To any fights or any unnessasary drama I may have caused. Not my intentions. The last time I got that trashed, I was 17 and I blacked out and my parents had to break my door down, strip me naked, and throw me in the shower. So hello future employeers. lol. Since I hear you all look up these things. Hey noone is perfect. And regardless of what happened that night, I - dont know what the fuck happened just now and everything wrong here down was ERASED! and my comments are everywhere.. thank god im a computer dork and can fix it.. word.

Interestsmusic, writing, school, and fashion. Anything f*cked up that stops me and makes me think. Challenge me.. intrigue me.. please me just dont bore me.

Tv

I watch it for Adam Rodriguez... Hes one sexy puerto rican ;)

CSI Miami doesnt give the show justice, CSI NY has WAYYYY better plots. The show that makes me say WOW:

I own every season of Sex and the City... I am a ubber dork

I'd love to meet:

Nancy Grace - I love this betch. If I ever need someone to help me bitch out someone else using valid facts I want her on my side. She is vicious and strong - a woman I can relate too.

Jenna Jameson - I think burnettes are way hotter then blondes! Maybe she can show me a few things ;)