Sean

I play with big guns.
To know me is to know the love of music. I am a musician, and I'll be very humble and say I have a lot to learn and a lot to improve upon, but I'm still a fucking decent guitarist. I have a purpose. I love life too fucking much to sit back and let people bring me down. I have too much going for me to stop and crutch my way through. I'm going to war, I'm going to do my part, I'm going to change lives for the better, I'm going to get my voice fucking heard some how, some way. If you can't put up with me being in the service, with me not playing games and saying what's on my mind and being blunt about it, you best stay away because I don't have time for that shit. Life is too fucking short. I am committed, determined and loyal to what matters most. If you can't offer the same, then fuck off. It's all simple. I love laughing and having a good time. Laughter is right up there with music. I can find humor in anything and I get in trouble because of it constantly, but its trouble well worth having. Enough about my life story, I'll break it down for the simple-minded fools that will come across my page wondering what in the fuck I'm talking about. I'm too deep for my own good, so here: I love metal, music, beer, cigarettes, laughing and my job. You wanna know what my job is? Protecting your ass and your freedom to even be looking at this website.
"For me, for people who love punk, metal, hardcore and all forms of aggressive music, the shows, the albums, the songs, the lyrics, they are our outlet and the are a great part of our lives. They are our escape from the daily grind and the monotony of the week. They're our gateway into a world of our own. Music has been my way to connect with people for over half my life. It has always been there for me. It's hard to put the cathartic power of it into words. . ." -Jamey Jasta, vocalist for Hatebreed in reference to "Give Wings to My Triumph."
Music is my life. I love the lyrics, the aggressiveness, the hate, the anger, and the violence when it's all poured out over something worth being hateful, angry and violent about. Sometimes being like that is too much and will damn near put you in jail, so the only way you know how to vent, to know how to control it all is through writing music. Music has always been there for me. When people would let me down, music wouldn't. When I would be cheated on in the past, dropped on my ass and had backs turned on me, music was there to numb the pain. It gives me something to live for. It will never leave. Jamey is right about saying its hard to put the cathartic power of music into words. It's impossible.
"Sometimes things need to be destroyed in order for new life to be born." -Jamey Jasta, Hatebreed.
They do. Be it a new life, a new relationship, a new living, a new state of mind. Sometimes you have to destroy what's holding you back, you have to destroy your limits and create new ones and go beyond. There is nothing more powerful than that spark that lies within us all...
"I believe that we all have a spark inside of us that over time and through knowlege and experience can be ignited into something massive. It's a simple concept. Fan a flame and the embers will burn into a huge fire. Throw cold water on it and it is extinguished. Never let anyone extinguish that spark inside you. It may sound cliche or cheesy but believe that what you have inside is more than anyone will ever know. . ." -Jamey Jasta, Hatebreed.
I came so close, so many times, to letting someone or a situation that im in put my spark out. It's too easy to quit and to give up. Fuck that. Press on and never let it die. If I had a nickel for every time someone in the past has made me feel like giving up, quitting, lose hope, wish life was over, I would be a rich man. Which explains why I am self-reliant. It explains the lyrics I once had in my blogs. It explains why I pick up the guitar. I'm still alive. I'm still writing.
I know better now than to settle for something that makes me change the person that I am (which is why I am not re-enlisting in the Marine Corps. They want me to change and conform too much). I know better now not to take shit from anyone. I know better now not to trust too willingly or too easily. I know how I deserve to be treated and I won't settle or put up with anyone that lies to my face and turns their back on me after I've given my all. I know better now. I've learned from some real piece of shit people, and all I can do is thank them for the knowledge to never trust anyone. A lesson lived is a lesson learned.
If you don't like who I am, who I was, or who I'm becoming, then go fuck yourself.
With love,
Me.
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Sean
Birthday: Too young until 6 months from the 10th
Birthplace: Orlando
Current Location: This will change--a lot: California
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 6'0
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: I wish I knew for sure
The Shoes You Wore Today: Safety boots
Your Weakness:
Your Fears: Fear itself
Your Perfect Pizza: Any pizza is the perfect pizza man, its fucking pizza!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Live through it
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "Lmao"
Thoughts First Waking Up: My babygirl
Your Best Physical Feature: Dunno
Your Bedtime: Whenever
Your Most Missed Memory: ...too many to even list.
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi! And Coke. Both go well with whisky, so, what the hell.
MacDonalds or Burger King: I'll eat both.
Single or Group Dates: Single.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Publix sweet tea!
Chocolate or Vanilla: Both!
Cappuccino or Coffee: Either's fine.
Do you Smoke: Yes
Do you Swear: Yes
Do you Sing: Hell no
Do you Shower Daily: Yes
Have you Been in Love: I am in love.
Do you want to go to College: Yes
Do you want to get Married: Yes
Do you belive in yourself: I don't have any reason not to.
Do you get Motion Sickness: Depends
Do you think you are Attractive: I ain't ugly
Are you a Health Freak: Far from it
Do you get along with your Parents: Yes, very well.
Do you like Thunderstorms: I miss them
Do you play an Instrument: Yes, the guitar, and tinker on the keyboard.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Oh yeah
In the past month have you Smoked: Cigarettes? Yes.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: As in illegal drugs and narcotics? No.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No, but the equivalent of
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: No
In the past month have you been on Stage: No
In the past month have you been Dumped: No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Not intentionally.
Ever been Drunk: More than enough
Ever been called a Tease: Yes
Ever been Beaten up: Yes
Ever Shoplifted: Yes, and paid for it.
How do you want to Die: With pride
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Comfortable and happy.
What country would you most like to Visit: I'm done traveling. I'm perfectly content with home.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Blue
Favourite Hair Color: Whichever one Corey picks
Short or Long Hair: Long
Height: Don't matter
Weight: Don't be fat. Don't be skeletor. Just be fucking normal.
Best Clothing Style: Jeans and a t-shirt keeps me happy.
Number of Drugs I have taken: Only a couple. Keeping it that way.
Number of CDs I own: A lot.
Number of Piercings: None
Number of Tattoos: None, yet.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Anything I could possibly regret has taught me a lesson. So...none.
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