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I tell you what and who really i am... my general view...I impulse to perfect, to create order, and to focus on the flaws in order to improve and correct is the basis of much of my behavior. When I project it out into the world, it manifests as extreme fastidiousness, meticulous attention to detail, my ability to do very fine and exacting work, precision of thought and expression, and sometimes a peculiar fussiness. I can be the critic, the razor-sharp analyst, the master craftsman with a reputation for the greatest finesse and polish. I quietly observe, dissect, and measure everything against my own inner standard of perfection. Everything must be tested and go through the refiner's fire in order to prove its efficacy, Rarely I swallow anything whole. Everything must be examined and judged, the acceptable parts ingested and the unacceptable rejected. This is true on many levels, including the physical. I am apt to be extremely discriminating about my diet, concerned with proper nutrition and the avoidance of pollutants and impurities in any food or environment, and so on. My physical body itself may be very sensitive to what I take in - more so than other people are. On an intellectual level, I am similarly discriminating, perhaps to the point of frank skepticism. Because of my underlying need to create order, I like to categorize and put things in neat little boxes, and I may deny, avoid, invalidate, or refuse to take seriously something that does not fit in to my scheme. Even in investigating the spiritual or mystical, I seek a system, an order. Ambiguity, multiplicity, chaos or disarray of any kind may vex me considerably. I can also be very critical and demanding of other people, in a nagging, petty way. This is bec. i'm projecting my need to refine and perfect onto the outside world. However, that is really a misuse of what is essentially an inner process, getting rid of the dross and refining my own character... To all my friends who says they know me...? This is the real me... Anything more you wanna ask...?