.Welcome to my life.
.now hold on tight.
<[b>RENO:This is my new home. This is my start. Its hard, so im going to need you guys to pick me up, brush the gravel of my cut up knees, whipe the smeared make-up from my face, look me in the eyes and say "Get going Mandalin, this is it.We wont forget you. We promise. You need this, you know you do"]
[FUCK YOU. AND. FUCK LOVE]
I dont look at my reflection on buildings or windows.
Because im scared that one day my reflection will be different and i will be grown up
and that scares the shit out of me.
Im NOT perfect.I am far from it actually, but how boring would it be if i was?
My new home.
My new life.
but my heart will always belong to...
I WILL grow up.
I WILL settle down.
I WILL get married and have a family.
so stop judging me for living my life now.
Not so sure about life.But sure about myself.
Someone once told me that a face without freckles is like a night without stars.That changed my point of view on myself. I am content with life, but sometimes wish i had more.I am starting to figure out what life is about, and why i am here.
Im not looking for love, or anything of that sort. I dont need anything to spark right now. I live my life off of music and beauty.
Dont tell me your different, because the truth is, your being exactly like the rest, by telling me that.
.Show me.
.My best friend.
I couldnt walk, and now i run. I couldnt think, and now i speak. There is nothing that i could have accomplished without her. If i have her, im fine. She is life.From handcuffs to drunken nights. to tears that just wont stop. I cant remember a time that she wasnt the everything in my life that i needed to make things alright. I moved to a difrerent state for her. I have a tattoo for her. Theres nothing i wouldnt do for her. So while your busy changing best friends more than you change your fucking tampon. I have mine. right by my side
RELATIONSHIPS
I dont want something perfect, i dont want cinderella, i dont want a storybook love. Because perfect is boring.
I want to argue, i want to wrestle, i want to run and wrap my legs around your waiste when i miss you. I want that feeling again that i trust that person as much as i trust my best friend.
Dont lie to me, Dont curse at me, dont push me, dont flirt with my friends, put me before your ex girlfriend, love me unconditionally.
Im really not asking for an abercrombie model, im asking for a boy that his mother raised right.
thats it.
.TO THE NIGHTS ILL NEVER REMEMBER.
. WITH THE FRIENDS ILL NEVER FORGET.
Dont you guys for one second think that i could forget you. Nothing changes how much you mean to me, and i promise im coming back.<3
be strong. be safe. and take care of one another.
