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Life After the FightMy whole life has been a fight. I have always been battling something. And with 'something', I most times mean myself. The battle has many times been about finding and figuring out myself. I have tried many roads and ways, but never really found anything that I felt I could be what I could hang my hat upon. Something that would define me.As a teenager, I was a seeker, trying to find a place in the world. Not until I started fighting as an amateur, I found the purpose I needed to live a meaningful life. The dream of where Muay Thai could take me seemed endless, and I followed it without ever looking back to what could have been if I had chosen to live a life as a "normal" person.I followed the dream across the world, and I ended up here in Los Angeles after a truly life- changing couple of years in Bangkok.Los Angeles have an effect on people. It has changed me as well. My image of Los Angeles were far from Hollywood and celebrities when I first stepped off the plane at LAX. During my whole life, I had been listening to gangsta-rap and watching movies like 'Menace II Society' and 'Colors', and reading books like 'Monster' by Kody Scott. So I thought that was what all of LA was like. I almost thought there would be a drive-by every night.Not quite.I quickly learned the differences in between the classes here, but I had a hard time accepting it, coming from a socialist country where integration always is major subject to be discussed and always attempted to be bridged.Over my five years here in the second City of Angels I landed in( Bangkok is called 'the city of Angels[Krungthep] by the Thai's..), I have had a few brutal awakenings. After my last fight in December, I understood that fighting had taken me as far as it was going to, and that it was time for me to move on. I knew this in the minutes after the fight. Something in me was missing. I no longer treated it like I did when I lived in Bangkok and had to fight to be able to eat. I had found out more about myself and the world than I did then.So by drifting around in a kind of vacuum where I didn't really see any way out for a month or so, things kind of just started to fall in place. It's nothing short of a true blessing. I have mentioned it before in these ranting blogs, -I am a strong believer that everything that happens, happens for a reason. Things started to work themselves out and pointing in one direction. Of course I had a hard time accepting it at first, but in time it started to feel natural. The signs where so clear that it would have been criminal to leave them behind instead of following them.Well, to cut this short; to live a purpose-driven life is what most need to stay alive inside, and I do need it more than most. Without a goal, life would be so blank and flat. To be on a constant inclining hill is hard and it sparks a lot of complaints, but I know by now that if the hill wasn't there, I would fall apart.If you want to find out more, check out the blog...
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Alicia

                                    The tape recorder was ser for its weekly three-hour recording. I could not remember what topic or artist was going to be covered that week- in the midst o...
Posted by on Fri, 01 May 2009 16:55:00 GMT

How my Laundry Fridays came to mean more to me than I first thought they ever could...

Reality check; - Laundry Fridays With a big sigh, I pack up my dirty clothes and bottles of detergent ...
Posted by on Mon, 16 Feb 2009 16:12:00 GMT

"The Simple Expression of Complex Thought"

"The Simple Expression of Complex Thought" We are living fast and cluttered lives in an accelerating and fast moving world. Everything we do is within a shrinking timeframe. We are judged and m...
Posted by on Sat, 13 Sep 2008 03:35:00 GMT

Inspiration is the word...

Some Sunday reading...thoughts and questions..again... Life...Ah, you gotta love how it takes you on roads you never thought you'd see, and to meet people you never could imagine you would meet. ...
Posted by on Sun, 24 Aug 2008 09:33:00 GMT

Questions. Some Thoughts on Design.

..it's been a while, but at least I have a good reason not spitting these blogs out all the time..time is just to damn tight these days..This little rant was made a few months ago to be part of my por...
Posted by on Mon, 04 Aug 2008 09:40:00 GMT

Art talk by Takashi Murakami last sunday...

...went down to MOCA last sunday- stood in line for two f-n hours..but I got a seat for the talk thanks to a scalper outside who hooked up a ticket.. The talk turned in to a lecture, sort of...Murakam...
Posted by on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 23:16:00 GMT

Some thoughts for the Holidays...

December 18. I was on my way to the airport to pick up my mom, who I havent seen in three years. I was a little late, but figured it wouldn't really matter, since I figured it was gonna take quite a w...
Posted by on Mon, 24 Dec 2007 10:08:00 GMT

I think i’m turning japanese (part 2); An afternoon in Little Tokyo

I think i'm turning japanese (part 2); An afternoon in Little TokyoSo on this saturday I had no work to do, or no other obligations...much because my slavedriver for manager who keeps me insanely busy...
Posted by on Sat, 01 Dec 2007 18:46:00 GMT

I think Im turning Japanese (part 1)

11/23/07 0104I think I'm turning japanese. I think I'm turning japanese, I really think so. (Part 1)The Vapors were way ahead of the pack in 1980, one year before I was born. My first memory...
Posted by on Fri, 23 Nov 2007 03:08:00 GMT

One for the Mama's...

Its Mother's Day and all, so I had to write something for my mother and to the mothers out there.My mom taught me something I didnt understand until recently.All the years my mom was working as a jani...
Posted by on Sun, 13 May 2007 14:00:00 GMT