there are days when i wake up not knowing what, who and where i am...and when everything clears up... i realize i am better-off not knowing. there are days when i feel wonderful.. that warm fuzzy feeling that may be an imitation of love drenches me..i laugh, smile and revel in euphoria. then there are the default days when i trudge along unwillingly..dragged as the tomorrows become todays and yesterdays.. the world turns.. and so i must live each day..knowing that i face a very uncertain and gray future.