Michelle [smitten kitten] - ProfilesArchive

About Me

My name is Michelle. I was born and raised in Orange County, CA. I've gone through alot of hardship in my life but I always manage to bounce back, no matter how long it takes. I'm a very loving person and I will be there for a friend in any way I can. I'm also a very trusting person even though sometimes people take advantage of it. When I fall in love I don't hesistate and I give my all. I'd like to think I have a good sense of humor and that I'm fun. I'm very random and spontaneous and I say the weirdest things. I am what you call a spaz. Sometimes I come off shy at first but once you get to know me I can be a total live wire. I don't make apologies for who I am or what I like. I have an extremely high sex drive and I can be such a pervert that I can gross out most guys. I like to talk on the phone for hours about nothing. I cry alot, but I don't stay sad for very long. My biggest fear in life is becoming completely apathetic. I am a complete slob and I spread out everywhere. When I'm happy I'll listen to the girliest of girly rock, and when I'm angry I'll listen to the heaviest of heavy metal. I have issues with anxiety and panic attacks, but I don't think I'm crazy. At least not for that reason. I used to believe in nurture over nature until I started talking to my birth mom and found out we are exactly alike. I can hold a grudge for a very long time if its a continued problem, but otherwise I can forgive pretty quickly. And I'll just straight up admit this: I'm a pot head. I love marijuana and all the feelings that it brings. However I'm not smoking right now except when I go visit friends in CA simply because I lack resources to obtain it. I make rash decisions and go back on them frequently. Did I mention I'm a scatter brain and nothing I say has any cohesiveness? Overall I'm happy with who I am and where I'm at in my life, and I don't sweat the small stuff. At the end of the day I'm just me and thats what counts.Get your layout at PimpMySpaceCodes.net
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I'd love to meet someone who is intelligent, artsy, witty, and into things like sociology and psychology. Though I can be very crude and my humor does appeal to an adult audience, I am not easy. I'm not some girl you can pick up with one stupid line or just by asking for sex. I crave substance! Get to know me. I'm the weirdest, quirkiest person you'll probably ever meet and if you take the time to try and figure me out you'll probably be satisfied in the end.

My Blog

Ben(nett) there, done that, do I get a t shirt?

Savor this moment. Take a deep breathe and just savor last night. It feels so good and yet so surreal. But I guess thats become normal, if anything about the situation was normal.Its amusing to me how...
Posted by on Thu, 20 May 2010 11:03:00 GMT

Dear 19 year old Michelle,

Dear 19 year old Michelle,As you lay in the bath tub bleeding from your wrists, crying and angry that you are not dead, DO NOT CALL TONY! DO NOT CALL YOUR DAD! CALL 911!!!!!!!!!!!I know you're scared ...
Posted by on Wed, 21 Apr 2010 15:48:00 GMT

crying out for help

My own mother doesn't care if I live or die anymore. The second most hurtful thing I've ever heard her say. My sister was screaming something on the other end, probably about how I'm a whiny baby and ...
Posted by on Fri, 16 Apr 2010 09:04:00 GMT

long overdue or not due at all?

I went shopping with my mom yesterday. I've had my mind made up about her for years and the feelings of resentment I have towards her are very deep rooted to the point that I know nothing could ever c...
Posted by on Wed, 01 Apr 2009 14:20:00 GMT

Happiness is...

I'm happy today. I took a moment to look at my life and realized everything is downright perfect. And instead of my usual bouts of "what could be better about this?" or "oh my god this isn't going to ...
Posted by on Sun, 01 Mar 2009 06:03:00 GMT

The real challenge

Is maintaining, not obtaining. Duh, I know this. Hell I've lived by this rule for years. But the real challenge for me isn't just the act of maintaing a relationship, its getting up the will to stop m...
Posted by on Sun, 08 Feb 2009 03:58:00 GMT

Screaming into and living in the infinite abyss - Year in Review 2008

At the beginning of this year I was getting my first taste of real freedom post divorce and getting to do whatever the hell I wanted. I guess I was so excited to have the chains of having a kid and be...
Posted by on Wed, 19 Nov 2008 17:00:00 GMT

the insanity, the calm, and the Storm that changed everything

My life goes from gouge your eyes out boring to insane in very short intervals. Lets just put that out there to start. This year was really my return to normal life pre-Joe. A simpler time when all I...
Posted by on Fri, 10 Oct 2008 17:05:00 GMT

finally strong enough to break

I've been feeling lately like my life was building up towards something again, and that something happened in the form of last week. So I got that massive Best Buy paycheck a few Fridays ago and of co...
Posted by on Tue, 24 Jun 2008 08:56:00 GMT

and now for something completely different...

Ah, merch. I love merch. I didn't think I would, and now I feel silly for ever being so apprehensive or sad about the change. Heres my thoughts on the matter as of just getting off my first shift:MERC...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 14:51:00 GMT