A M A N D A♥(Your My Future)

Hi :] My Name Is Amanda. Im 18 Years Old You Can Either Love Me Or Hate Me. I'm Fun And Outgoing. I'm Wild. I Love Partying:] I Love My Friends More Than Life. I Have A Really Great Family That I Love. I Love Taking Pics. I Love Meeting New People. I'm Not Judgemental I'm Caring. I Love To Eat lol. I Listen TO Pretty Much Anything. I Dont Consider Myself Perfect. Nobodys Perfect. My Longest Relationship Was A Year And 5 Months. Im Single&& I Hate it. I Love Texting. I'm Really Self Concious About My looks. Even Though It Doesnt Look Like It. I Have Haters && Thats Fine With Me :] I Hate Drama && If You Think Your Going To Start Any.. Leave!! Im sick of not being able to please anyone. its like everything i do isnt good enough. i try soo hard to make everyone in my life happy. and they cant be happy with anything i do for them im not the best person daughter or grandaughter or sister. but i try to be. what more do you want from me???? i cant handle this. i really cant. i go through this shit everyday it seems. just because im the oldest out of all the kids in my family they always expect more from me. which i can understand but its like they want to hurry up and push me out of their lives just because im 18. i just dont get it. i just want them to love me and except me and stop trying to get more out of me then i can give.i pretty much dont know what im going to do with my life at the moment. all i know is i want to get my life back the way it used to be. and try to do things right, but i dont really see that happening.ilook for love in all the wrong places and i exspect too much. i find myself wanting love soo bad that i forget what is more impotant than that. i'm sick of the same guys. im sick off all of them just trying to get into my pants and not caring at all about anything. i think its bullshit that when girls can sleep with just one guy and they cant called a whore. but when a guy sleeps around with a dozzen of girls they dont get called anything. its really fucked up. and i dont think its right to judge people like that. cause its really none of your business how many people you sleep with. we all make mistakes but we dont all learn from them. but i know that i do. i have made plenty of mistakes in my life. and my life is full of bullshit drama because of the people i let in my life. i trust people wayy too fast and easy. i dont really hate anyone. cause hate is a reallyy strong word but i do dislike a few people. and im sure they know who they are. Im a very jealous person and i hate it but i dont think i can help that at all. if im with a guy and i really like him and i see other gurls trying soo hard to get with him. i get jealous. i fall in love wayyy too fast and i hate that also. because i find myself getting hurt. Sometimes i question if there really is a god because if there was then why are soo many people in this world suffering and going hungry and dying everyday??? its like we are all marked for death cause we all live and we are all going to die. but where do we go?? i dont think its going to be hell. because this life we live now already feels like hell. soo where are we going?? are we going to come back as something eles? or what? thats something i always think about.. dont get me wrong. i have been to church when i was younger and i was taught to believe in god and stuff and whats right and wrong and to never doubt hes real. but as you get older you really start to wonder.I'm Sorry I Cant Be Perfect love layout powered by HOT FreeLayouts.com / MyHotCommentsThis is the girlfriend=]Shes soo amazing and beautiful. shes mine! so back off =]