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"Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust, and I will not be afraid; for Lord God is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation."
(Isaiah 12:2)
Isaiah Kristian Matte
(March 20th, 1988-)
[Back To Basics]
I was born in California, Oakland to be exact.
I was raised in Sacramento and The East Bay Area of California and Southern Maryland.
I'm stuck in Camden, North Carolina and I'm trying to get out of this hellhole.
And hell no, I don't have a Southern accent.
I've lived in Florida, Washington, Maryland, California, Oregon, Kansas, New York and North Carolina.
I'm a biracial kid..heritage, Armenian and African-American.
[The Way I Are]
I live by the line "Trust no one", only because most people can't be trusted at all. Live my life and you'll see why.
I don't talk much unless I know you well or I feel comfortable around you from the start.
I'm straight-edge, have been since December 12, 2006.
What does that mean? It means: you ain't gettin' this boy to get drunk, get high, smoke cigarettes or sleep with you the first night.
And no, I'm not violent. I'm a very laid-back, fun-loving person.
Anyone who knows me for real knows I'm the nicest guy in the world until certain lines are crossed. It takes a lot to get me heated.
You try to act like you know me, the result is probably gonna be a bad one. No fighting or whatever, just the fact you probably won't like me off-gate.
If I get to know you though, and you prove yourself that you deserve to be in my life, you're fine.
I'm a very blunt, sarcastic, cynical human being. Life has made me that way, and I try to be as honest as I can.
If you don't like that, you probably don't like me, and you're probably not my kind of person anyway.
So, whatever words that come out of this boy's mouth, you better believe it's the damn truth. I hate to get things twisted..
I believe people who say they like truthful people are lying themselves, because when you tell the truth about someone, or are blunt, everyone gets mad as hell.
I can't stand when people don't know straight talk trash and dump you. It only proves to me you ain't worth my time and you're only going to bring me down.
I can't stand when three types of people: liars, fakes and thieves. So, if you're this, you probably don't wanna be around. I'll call you out on it, trust.
I'm not some hardass dude, I'm real. Live with it.
I couldn't care less if you don't like me, life isn't about pleasing everyone. If you believe that, you're wasting your time.
I got Social Anxiety Disorder, it's a curse that I tolerate everyday of my life.
[These Are The Things I Love]
God. First and foremost. This is no argument.
I'm big into skate culture. I love everything about it.
I don't skate anymore, however, I've been hurt too much.
I'm big on sports, especially since I've moved to such a boring place, it was either that or get into trouble.
I'm on my New York Giants (NFL), Michigan/Florida/Cal (College football), Sacramento Kings (NBA), Kansas/Maryland/UCLA (College basketball), Oakland A's (MLB), and San Jose Sharks (NHL) ish...
I'm a music fanatic as well.
I love everything from death metal to rap to reggae to alternative.
Just give me food, a little bit of cash, and a cell phone, and I will survive. I'm not a guy who just stays looking at the material things.
[Relationships]
I've been hurt so much, and tried so hard with some many girls that seemingly didn't deserve it.
Especially my last one, I love her to death, and she's a good girl but so much had happened and that just got worse. I hope that comes back to me (the good), but I'm letting that one live..
Right now, I don't know if I can give myself to any girl or trust another one. Yeah, it's that bad.
[What do you wanna do with your life?]
I have plans to graduate college and own a music business one day, or be in the NFL, considering I used to love playing football in school.
I want to be, something, someone, in this world.
And no one can stop me from that.
[Words of Wisdom]
What do I want?
I want the world to change, I want people to look at things with an open-mind as soon as they open their eyes.
I wish the world would think mind first, then with their hearts.
I want the world to be real.
Then, maybe, I'll be satisfied with life.
Until then, changing the world is an everyday thing.
Before I do that, I must change myself.
And I sure as hell am.
Either you're in my world or not.
Either you're with me or against me.
Be by my side or stay at a distance.
Another thing, I want you to look at me for the person I have become, and not the person I once was.
If you're stuck on the past, how are you expecting to move forward.
Take a look what you have with open eyes.
Look within yourself.
Are you who you want to be?
If not, change yourself, day by day, one day at a time.
I'm a deep thinker, and I show it.
I like to wonder about my future and the rest of my life.
The place I live at, it only destroys lives and crushes dreams.
I try to rise above such an oppressive place.
Never let anyone or anything get in the way of your dreams; if they aren't there to support you while you are chasing those dreams or they won't push you towards them, you don't need them.
I'm on who wears my heart on my sleeve.
I'm a nice guy, sometimes too nice, and sometimes people take that as weakness.
Once you're in my life, you're always in it. Don't think for a second you're not.
If I love you, you'll know it.
I know for a fact that there is no one like me on this planet, and I love that.
Get to know me if you want. If not, get the hell out the way.
I swear, you'll be under my feet as well.
The best thing I've been told about life is from my cousin Lauren: "It's not the time you have had spent with that person, it's the impact you make in that time."
I've learned I can be someone in this world, and someone whom just became special to me made me realize that. They have opened my eyes and made me feel like I'm worth something in this world. Maybe I did find that one person I needed to change my life. Too bad I don't think they don't feel as great about themselves. But, I do hope I can do the same for them. I owe them definitely.
Now, what are you gonna do? Be of my world, or be in my world?
December 12, 2006-til death
"For the edge, I will die. I'll fight everyone in my sight."
-- Throwdown
