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I am here for Friends

About Me

so here i am. my life is simple yet i miss the chaos. my head is clear yet i love the voices. my dreams are vibrant yet i dread the sleep. and my hands are clean yet the damage is done. i occasionally bring my brain with me. and when i dont i tend to prefer wherever it is that i left it. i talk more than i should. yet i often experience the world in multicolored hydrogen blasts that leave me winded and at a loss for words. melodies are greatest gift that the stars have given to the soul. yet it is the lyrics that oftentimes bring her memory back. im terrified of dying alone yet big pieces of me love the idea of living that way. there are a lot of people that love me. and i love them more for letting me exist safely in the confines of the outskirts of their shadows. i love most the kids that have entered my world through my friends, and the fact that some of them know me. my world is the people inside it. and what a beautiful world it is.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

everyone that knows more than i do and is capable of explaining it in a way that i can understand. a pretty girl that doesnt, after a short time, find me disagreeable. tom.
..i want to live and work here

My Blog

past tense and the facebook era

so i do realize, (and i promise i know this), that myspace is the vcr version of the dvd player.  and i know as well, that i do this for my own well being and have no intention of passing along any ne...
Posted by on Wed, 02 Sep 2009 00:01:00 GMT

newness tearing at the seams and oldness holding it together

so i survived another new year. right here is where i should be obligated to tell you all about this past year. i assume thats the point of all of these new years day confessions; i dont have time for...
Posted by on Thu, 01 Jan 2009 13:46:00 GMT

ears open, dreams full, eyes closed, future in my head

so i had a moment today where i wondered what melodies are everlasting.  i know some that are. i guess at the end of the day i can only dream of writing one that is.  what a task to take on....
Posted by on Sat, 04 Oct 2008 15:22:00 GMT

repetition leads to discovery and im all in tune again....

so i went and watched batman again tonight. didnt mean to end up there. my safe haven was flooded with dilemmas of its own. my friend is still afloat, just didnt need to support my body weight at sea ...
Posted by on Mon, 18 Aug 2008 06:28:00 GMT

sometimes self perspective is the hardest perspective to see

so i watched a movie today. it wasnt a great movie by any means, but for some reason it struck a chord with me. i believe it was an E minor. it was about a kid who gets in a car accident. after t...
Posted by on Thu, 12 Jun 2008 22:25:00 GMT

distance and relativity without the constraints of light speed

so distance doesnt always represent the space between two places. or even the space between two times.  sometimes its the simple representation of the space between two lives.  each one livi...
Posted by on Thu, 22 May 2008 23:28:00 GMT

calendar dates and civic responsibilities

so i learned something today. i learned that my general confusion over what day it is evidently isnt completely related to my past lifestyle choices. or, maybe, ive just done enough damage that knowin...
Posted by on Tue, 13 May 2008 07:36:00 GMT

sometimes dark rooms produce whats brightest in the world

so i tired to sleep already.  no such luck. id been looking at pictures of places ill never see in person, and wondering if, after seeing a picture, i really needed to.  sometimes what lies ...
Posted by on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 00:40:00 GMT

driving with headphones on is illegal but the silence is a greater distraction

so the lines get blurred. theyre no longer the blurry double yellow lines dividing my lane from all others.  as my vision improves those lines are clear.  glasses may still be in order ...
Posted by on Sat, 05 Apr 2008 00:51:00 GMT

jack torrance remembered a dream, then i remembered one too

so all 4 dreams are of the same house.  its a house ive never been in, that much i know for sure.  i havent been in two different sections of the house in the same dream.  but i know th...
Posted by on Thu, 27 Mar 2008 09:45:00 GMT