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Mistress de Large

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About Me

I am the most me that I can possibly be. But then again, we are all mad here.

“In order to exist, man must rebel.” ~~Albert Camus~~
“It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that's dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It's so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can't say the things you want to.” ~~Henry Rollins~~

Who am I? I am a transcontinental troublemaker. Wife and mother of two lovely young ladies. An academic, a pessimist, a dime store philosopher, an all around nerd that loves the arts but has an incredibly crass side. I can hold my liquor and have a wicked sense of humor. I don't always love people but I'm honest to a fault. I'm a self-analyzing existentialist. I'm a frustrated writer who is better at putting her thoughts and emotions on paper than describing them in person. I believe in honor and integrity. I am a true friend and loyal as long as my loyalty is earned and reciprocated. I always do what my conscience dictates. I am multi-layered, complex, and dynamic. I'll even admit to being damaged. My family still hasn't sold me to the gypsies and my friends actually seem to enjoy my company.

Now, how do people perceive me? Well, this is the best description I have heard in a long time:

"Here is what I think:(a) You remind me of Alex de Large from A Clockwork Orange. (b) You and the other Twin should be locked up in a maximum-security military base on Pluto, your DNA dissected, analysed and used to clone an army of warrior witches. (c) I think you are cool as fuck and I applaud your audacity. (d) Can I be your triplet? " Thank you to my beloved friend Jude for looking at the depths of my dark side and deciding that it will be an adventure to create havoc and generally raise hell together.


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I love fine art, music, theater and literature. My tastes run the spectrum, from very refined to crude. I am obsessed with art from Waterhouse and delighted with the opera. I read an amazing amount daily. The pursuit of knowledge can be considered my biggest hobby. Anyone wanting to discuss religion, politics, and philosophy in mixed company drop me a line.Pearls of Wisdom by Leonor Diaz "If you find yourself skating on water, prepare to flap your arms."

I love my computer more than I do most people.

I'd like to meet:

No one really, people can be excruciatingly boring.

Music:

My tastes in music are very ecclectic and vary depending the mood I'm in. I love the opera and classical music. The following are some of my favorite musical artists: Dave Matthews Band, Portishead, Depeche Mode, Damien Rice, Linkin Park, Everything But The Girl, Everclear, Sarah McLachlan, Gin Blossoms, Rob Zombie, K.D. Lang, Nina Simone, Billie Holiday, Etta James, Billy Joel, Metallica, Pearl Jam, Nirvana, 10,000 Maniacs, The Clash, The Doors, Smashing Pumpkins, Jimi Hendrix, Led Zeppelin (worship them), Outkast, The Killers, John Mayer, Missy Elliot, Prince, Jeff Buckley, Beastie Boys, Aerosmith, Green Day, Alejandro Sanz, The Grateful Dead and too many more to list.

Movies:

I'm a huge movie buff. I'm usually pretty open about watching anything though in all honesty I'm more of the thinking film type. There is nothing I love more than a very depressing slow movie. Obscene I know, but what can I say, I like what I like. Below are some of my favorites:

DRAMA

A River Runs Through It, American Beauty, Apocalypse Now, Apocalypto, Being Julia, Being John Malcovich, The Bridges of Madison County, Brokeback Mountain, Capote, Casablanca, Chocolat, Cider House Rules, Citizen Kane, Closer, The Deep End, Diabolique, The Door In The Floor, Eve's Bayou, Far From Heaven, Fatal Attraction, Full Metal Jacket, The Godfather I & II, The Golden Bowl, Gone Baby Gone, The Good Girl, The Great Gatsby, The House of Mirth, The House Of Yes, How To Make An American Quilt, The Illusionist, In The Bedroom, The Kingdom, Kinsey, Lars And The Real Girl, Legends Of The Fall, Lions For Lambs, Little Children, Lolita, The Machinist, Magnolia, Match Point, Memento, Million Dollar Baby, The Myth of Fingerprints, The Name Of The Rose, The Notebook, The Painted Veil, Possession, The Prestige,The Red Violin, Secretary, The Shipping News, Stand By Me, Stepford Wives, Streetcar Named Desire, Suicide Kings, Thelma & Louise, Unfaithful, The Usual Suspects, Valmont, Welcome To The Dollhouse. My favorite movie quote of the moment comes from The Painted Veil "When love and duty are one, grace is upon you."

FOREIGN FILMS
Damage is my all time favorite movie. Though others come close, nothing I've ever seen has compared to it. Abre Los Ojos, Aimee and Jaguar, Amelie, Amores Perros, Angelitos Negros, Angels & Insects, Anna Karenina, Atame, Atonement, Battle Royale, Before Night Falls, Belle Du Jour, Camila, Carne Tremula, Cartas Desde El Parque, The Cement Garden, Cinema Paradiso, Children Of Men, Chinese Box, Clockwork Orange, Como Agua Para Chocolate, The Convent, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Dirty Pretty Things, El Crimen De Padre Amaro, El Laberinto del Fauno, Elizabeth, The End Of The Affair, The English Patient, Entre Las Piernas, Farinelli, Fire, Fresa Y Chocolate, Frida, The Full Monty, Gosford Park, Hero, Il Postino, Indochine, Kissed, La Flor De Mi Secreto, Les Voleurs, Life is Beautiful, The Lover, Mar Adentro, Maria Full of Grace, Matador, Maurice, Metropolis, Photographing Fairies, The Pillow Book, Priest, Ridicule, The Special Friendship, Temptress Moon, Todo Sobre Mi Madre, Trainspotting, Vera Drake, Volver, The White Countess, Wings Of The Dove

HORROR
28 Days Later, 28 Weeks Later, Alien, Aliens, American Psycho, Apt Pupil (Just because I love the short story so much), Audition, Beloved, The Blair Witch Project, Carrie, Circuit, Cronos, Dead Ringers, Dracula, El Arte De Morir, El Espinazo Del Diablo, El Orfanato, Event Horizon, The Exorcist, Frailty, Frankenstein, Freaks, The Haunting, Hellraiser and all of its sequels, The Hunger, In The Mouth Of Madness, Interview With The Vampire, Koma, The Mad Room, Man Hunter, Night Of The Living Dead, Nosferatu, The Pit And The Pendulum, Premonition, Psycho, Rasen, Red Dragon, Ringu O, Ringu, Ringu 2, Rosemary's Baby, Saw, Seven, Shallow Grave, The Shining, Silence of The Lambs, Susperia, The Vanishing

GUILTY PLEASURES
Awww, the Guilty Pleasures section. These are the movies that every time they are playing on TV, I'll sit there like a fool and watch over and over again. I can't help it. It is like something compulsive. Whether it is popping them in the DVD player for background noise or just because they are on reruns. A Knight's Tale, American Pie, The American President, Armageddon, The Beach, Boiler Room, Chronicles of Riddick, Clerks I & II, Clueless, The Craft, Devil's Advocate, Die Hard, The Fifth Element, The Lord Of The Rings Trilogy, Mars Attacks, Mary Poppins, Midnight Offerings, The Mummy I & II, National Treasure, Office Space, Pitch Black, Planet of The Apes, Practical Magic, Spiderman I & II, There Is Something About Mary, The X-Men Triology

MOVIES I LOVE
Batman Begins, The Birdcage, Chasing Amy, Dangerous Liaisons, Dirty Dancing, Dogma, Donnie Darko, Fight Club, Fried Green Tomatoes, Edward Scissorhands, Election, The Harry Potter Movies, Heathers, Juno, Iron Man, Kill Bill I & II, The Matrix Trilogy, Moulin Rouge, The Ninth Gate, Prairie Home Companion, Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, The Royal Tennenbaums, Scarface, Sleeping Beauty, Thelma & Louise, When Harry Met Sally

Television:


My favorites include 24, American Justice, Big Love, Biography, City Confidential, Cold Case Files, The Dead Zone, Desperate Housewives, Dexter, ER, Ghost Hunters, History's Mysteries, Law and Order SVU,CI, Lost, Nip/Tuck, No Reservations with Anthony Bourdain, Project Runway, Smallville, and The 4400, and Top Chef. Some of my all time faves still in reruns are Buffy & The Vampire Slayer, Friday the 13th The Series, Golden Girls. and My So-Called LIfe. I will sit and watch almost anything on A&E, History Channel, and SciFi.

Books:

I am a BIBLIOPHILE. I am selective about what I read but I have a complete weakness for modern horror. Below are some of the books I'm passionate about.

CHILDREN'S LITERATURE

Are You There God? It's Me Margaret, Bad Kitty, The Cat and The Hat, Charlotte's Web, Devil's Race, The Giving Tree, Green Eggs and Ham, The Harry Potter Series, If You Give A Pig A Pancake, The Secret of Safekeep, The Tale of Despereaux, The Velveteen Rabbit, The Witch of Blackbird Pond, Witch Child

CLASSICS

The Age of Innocence, All works by Edgar Allen Poe, Anna Karenina, The Awakening (I am Edna Pontellier sometimes.), The Catcher In The Rye, Dracula, Ethan Frome, Frankenstein, The Golden Bowl, The Good Earth, Great Expectations, The Great Gatsby, House of the Seven Gables, The House of Mirth, Huckleberry Finn, The Inferno, Lady Chatterley's Lover, Macbeth, The Mayor of Casterbridge, The Picture of Dorian Gray, The Scarlet Letter, Siddhartha, Tess of the D'Ubervilles, War Of The Worlds, Wuthering Heights

MAGICK

Applied Magic, Aspects Of Occultism, The Book of The Law, The Book of The Dead, Commentaries On The Occult Philosophy of Agrippa, Esoteric Orders And Their Work, The History Of Magic And The Occult, Isis Unveiled, Living Wicca, The Mystical Qabalah, Modern Magick, Practical Occultism In Daily Life, Psychic Self-Defense, Ritual Magick, Sane Occultism, Studies In Occultism, The Tarot, To Ride A Silver Broomstick, The Training And Work Of An Initiate, Transcendental Magick, The True And Invisible Rosicrucian Order, The Vodou Quantum Leap, Wicca: A Guide For The Solitary Practioner

MODERN FICTION

A Clockwork Orange, The Alchemist, The Alienist, Bag of Bones, The Bell Jar, The Blind Assassin, Breaking Dawn, Carrie, Cat On A Hot Tin Roof, Catcher in The Rye, The Club Dumas, The Color Purple, Damage, The Devil And Miss Prym, Different Seasons, Eclipse, Eqques, The Handmaid's Tale, The Historian, Ishmael, Johnny Got His Gun, Lolita, New Moon, Perfume, Peyton Place, The Ruins, The Secret Life of Bees, The Shining, Twilight, The Vagina Monologues, The Vampire Chronicles, Veronika Decides To Die, White Oleander

PHILOSOPHY

120 Days of Sodom, A Happy Death, Attacks Upon Christendom, The Birth of Tragedy, The Communist Manifesto, The Diary of Soren Kierkegaard, Existentialism And Human Emotions, Existentialists And Mystics, Fear and Trembling, The Genealogy Of Morals, Irrational Man, Juliette, Justine, Karl Marx: Selected Writings In Sociology and Social Philosophy, Meetings, The Metamorphosis, No Exit, Philosophy In The Bedroom, The Plague, The Savage Mind, The Secret, Sexual Personae, The Sickness Unto Death, The Stranger, The Trial, Thus Spoke Zarathustra, Way To Wisdom

RELIGION

Adam, Eve, and The Serpent, The Apocrypha, Beyond Belief, The Bible, The Chalice And The Blade, Faith And Violence, The Five Tibetans, Fundamentals Of Tibetan Buddhism, The Gnostic Gospels, Jesus Before Christianity, Jesus The Liberator, Justice In The Making, The Koran, Martin & Malcom & America, Mary Through The Centuries, Parting The Waters, Religion As A Source of Violence?, The Rig Veda, The Sex Lives Of Saints, The Tibetan Book Of Living And Dying, Tibetan Book Of The Dead, When God Was A Woman, Women And World Religions, Women Healing The Earth

FAVORITE AUTHORS

Edgar Allen Poe, Nathaniel Hawthorn, Lord Byron, John Keats, Oscar Wilde, Kate Chopin, Edith Wharton, Margaret Atwood, Pearl S. Buck, Mark Twain, Leo Tolstoy, Albert Camus, Soren Kierkegaard, Fredrich Nietezche, Jean Paul Satre, H.P. Lovecraft, Stephen King, Elaine Pagels, Camille Paglia, Gloria Steinem, Betty Friedan, Emily Dickinson, Robert Frost, Aleister Crowley, William Butler Yeats, Karl Marx, Paul Tillich, Martin Buber, and various others. Anyone willing to put forth their thoughts on paper and do so in an honest manner will keep hold of my attention. I read various genres. I have a special love for the classics. Modern Fiction does keep me interested depending on the the theme. Poetry in many of it's different incarnations has always been a passion.

Heroes:

Authentic people that are interested in making a difference in their own life and still extend themselves to others. The usual historical, theological figures, but most of all, people unafraid of standing by their convictions and live their lives based on their own principles.
A quote by HH The Dalai Lama: "Peace, in the sense of the absence of war, is of little value to someone who is dying of hunger or cold. It will not remove the pain of torture inflicted on a prisoner of conscience. It does not comfort those who have lost their loved ones in floods caused by senseless deforestation in a neighboring country. Peace can only last where human rights are respected, where the people are fed, and where individuals and nations are free.
True peace with oneself and with the world around us can only be achieved through the development of mental peace. The other phenomena mentioned above are similarly interrelated. Thus, for example, we see that a clean environment, wealth or democracy mean little in the face of war, especially nuclear war, and that material development is not sufficient to ensure human happiness.
Material progress is of course important for human advancement. In Tibet, we paid much to little attention to technological and economic development, and today we realize that this was a mistake. At the same time, material development without spiritual development can also cause serious problems. In some countries too much attention is paid to external things and very little importance is given to inner development. I believe both are important and must be developed side by side so as to achieve a good balance between them. Tibetans are always described by foreign visitors as being a happy, jovial people. This is part of our national character, formed by cultural and religious values that stress the importance of mental peace through the generation of love and kindness to all other living sentient beings, both human and animal. Inner peace is the key: if you have inner peace, the external problems do not affect your deep sense of peace and tranquillity. In that state of mind you can deal with situations with calmness and reason, while keeping your inner happiness. This is very important. Without this inner peace, no matter how comfortable your life is materially, you may still be worried, disturbed or unhappy because of circumstances."
The Nobel Lecture, December 11, 1989
"In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness. Our life is a long and arduous quest after Truth."
"God may be in the details, but the goddess is in the questions. Once we begin to ask them, there's no turning back."
"Childbirth is more admirable than conquest, more amazing than self-defense, and as courageous as either one."
"Happy or unhappy, families are all mysterious. We have only to imagine how differently we would be described - and will be, after our deaths - by each of the family members who believe they know us."
"At 30 a man should know himself like the palm of his hand, know the exact number of his defects and qualities, know how far he can go, foretell his failures - be what he is. And, above all, accept these things."
"In order to understand the world, one has to turn away from it on occasion."
"Just as in earthly life lovers long for the moment when they are able to breathe forth their love for each other, to let their souls blend in a soft whisper, so the mystic longs for the moment when in prayer he can, as it were, creep into God."
"Listen to the cry of a woman in labor at the hour of giving birth - look at the dying man's struggle at his last extremity, and then tell me whether something that begins and ends thus could be intended for enjoyment."
"People demand freedom of speech as a compensation for the freedom of thought which they seldom use."
"Caresses, expressions of one sort or another, are necessary to the life of the affections as leaves are to the life of a tree. If they are wholly restrained, love will die at the roots."
"No man for any considerable period can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be the true."
"Go to Heaven for the climate, Hell for the company."
"I don't like to commit myself about heaven and hell - you see, I have friends in both places."
"You do not like them. So you say. Try them! Try them! And you may. Try them and you may, I say."
“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”
“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!”
“You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go.”

My Blog

Honor Code *Previously Published Elsewhere 1/20/08*

Indulge me if you can my patient reader, in my rambles about Honor.I was engaging in the most intense dialogue with an intimate friend of mine earlier in the day when we both touched upon the concept ...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Tue, 07 Oct 2008 12:41:00 PST

Scattered Thoughts

My thoughts have been scattered all day like leaves caught in the middle of an Autumn wind. The more I try to reign them in, the harder it becomes to formulate just one cohesive one. Since I'm faili...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Mon, 06 Oct 2008 03:36:00 PST

Exchanges In The Park

I'm starving, waiting on the lady to prepare the Pan con croquetas when a firefighter approaches me as I'm standing in the line."Why so serious?" I turn back and look at him over my glasses giving hi...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Thu, 02 Oct 2008 04:07:00 PST

In Response to the Question Of Why

I get a lot of questions asked on any given day. Mostly because I'm a teacher and a mother. Partly because I'm one of those people, the ones people think have answers. The majority of the time I ac...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Sun, 28 Sep 2008 03:46:00 PST

LOST and Stripped

I have sat down to write this particular piece several times. Once, I was even halfway done and I didn't feel like it conveyed everything I wanted it to, and with that... I hit the cancel button.Two ...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Sun, 21 Sep 2008 07:52:00 PST

Annual Theme Song

It has become an annual tradition for me to choose a song that represents the new school year as I perceive it by the first two weeks of school. Very few of my friends know about this little tid bit ...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Thu, 28 Aug 2008 06:49:00 PST

Needing A Break

The people that read this are typically who I communicate fairly frequently so rather than posting the info in a bulletin I thought it more prudent to just do so here.I'm going to be taking a bit of a...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Sun, 24 Aug 2008 11:11:00 PST

Interesting albeit silly survey

You're trapped in a room for 3 days with your worst enemy, what do you do?I really don't have a worst enemy but if I did... no one really knows. It would all depend on how angry I am going in there a...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Fri, 22 Aug 2008 09:30:00 PST

Dedicated To My One and Only Love Jose

Those of you that know me in real life know that I have a few great loves in my life. My brother Jose, being one of them. His wife Noemi is another. We're all great music lovers to say the least.No...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Sat, 16 Aug 2008 01:52:00 PST

Walking The Line

There is a fine line between being right and having an overreaction. Sometimes I do double dutch jumping games with that bitch. However, in a recent situation I found myself walking it more like a t...
Posted by Mistress de Large on Sat, 16 Aug 2008 08:07:00 PST