I solemnly swear
that I am up to no good
My name is Laura.
I'm 20 going on extinct. Too old for internet crushes, too young to die. Living like life’s going out of style. I'm every shooting star you wished upon that never came true. I'm the girl you love to hate - you hate to love. I'm the girl who laughs out loud in the middle of silence at something that happened the day before. I'm a little crazy. Music keeps me sane. I've been told I'm not like other girls. I guess that's a good thing. I reject your reality and substitute my own. I’m proud to say I have ancestors who were Pirates. BLOOD OF A PIRATE. Savvy?
Sometimes I check everyone on my buddylists away messages but not IM anyone. Sometimes I fall asleep in all my clothes. Sometimes I want to see how other people see me. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I worry my future will be full of nightmares. I don't want to grow up. I balance on the edges of curbs. I hold my breath around cops. I put ketchup on almost everything. I have a love/hate relationship with words. I have an eyeliner addiction. I've been told that I have an accent, but I haven't noticed. I have more hoodies than anyone ever should. I'm really shy at first. But once I get to know you, I'll be myself. Just give me time.
It's comforting to look at the clock in the corner of the screen and know you're awake too. Right when I thought I figured myself out, I forgot it all. I get annoyed easily. I have a short attention span. I worry about everything. I'm not a confident person. Currently trying to get the liars and fakes out of my life. They're not worth my time. Tie down the gas pedal and cut the brakes. Seems to work in the movies. I'm tired of throwing my back out trying to lift your spirits. I need to start working towards becoming the person I want to be; while trying not to ruin everything in my path, including myself. I dropped my flaws in the mail with no return address. I'm gonna try and do it right this time. Sorry if this all reads jumbled, but that's just how it goes inside my head.
I’m a bit old-fashioned; A total good girl. No, I don't have a boyfriend; and no, I'm not really looking for one. You couldn't catch my eye 'cause I was too busy rolling them. I know who I want and I don't want to settle for anyone else. It's hard to wait around for something you know may never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want. [roll credits]