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The Recluse

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About Me

"brave hearted girl goes out to take on the world but comes home crying every time. She doesn't sleep at night, she's afraid to close her eyes. I see her walking in the street sometimes. She knows about suffering and all about sorrow, she's starving for the beautiful things that people seem to believe in. She doesn't want to be dead in the water yet she swims out to sea"~Brandtson

My Interests

Interests Reading, writing, music, movie, theatre, concerts, my friends, family, nature, learning, working out. You can tell I live life on the edge.

I'd like to meet:

"There are worse things than being alone but it often takes decades to realize this and more often when you do it's too late and there's nothing worse than too late."~Bukowski

Music:

MusicAcademy Is, Air, Alexisonfire, Anberlin, Atreyu, Badly Drawn Boy, Bayside, Beatles, Billie Holiday, Billy Joel,Bled, Bloc Party, Brandtson, Bright Eyes, Coheed and Cambria, Coldplay, Cure, Cursive, Dashboard Confessional, Dean Martin, Death Cab for Cutie, Dillinger Escape Plan, Eels, Elected, Elkland, Ella Fitzgerald, Elliott Smith, Elliott, Elvis Costello, Emiliana Torrini, Etta James, Evan Dando,Faint, Foo Fighters, Frank Sinatra, From Autumn To Ashes, Gatsby's American Dream, Get Up Kids, Goldfinger, Good Life, HIM, Hopesfall, Hot Hot Heat, Howie Day, Hum, Jealous Sound, Jenny Lewis, Jimmy Eat World, Johnny Cash, Joy Division, Juliana Theory, Keane, Killers, Kind of Like Spitting, Lemonheads, Less Than Jake, Lyndsay Diaries, Mae, Margot and the Nuclear So and So’s, Mazzy Star, Mew, Misfits, Modest Mouse, Moneen, Mozart, Muse, Neil Finn, New End Original, Nick Cave, Nick Drake, Onelinedrawing, Owen, Pachabel, Park, Patsy Cline, Peter Bjorn and John, Piebald, Postal Service, Radiohead, Ramones, Ratatat, Ray Charles, Reel Big Fish, Remy Zero, Rilo Kiley, Royksopp, Saves The Day, Senses Fail, Settlefish, Shins, Sigur Ros, Silverstein, Smiths, Stars, Starsailor, Statistics, Subways, Sunny Day Real Estate, Taking Back Sunday, Television, That 1 Guy, That Dog, Thursday, Time and Distance, Underoath, Van Morrison, VNV Nation, We Are Scientists, Weezer, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Zero 7, and so much more…

Movies:

Movies La Vita Bella, Dead Poet's Society, Spaceballs, Clue, Empire Records, Mallrats, Dogma, Chasing Amy, Playing By Heart, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Secretary, Two For the Road, Breakfast at Tiffany's, My Fair Lady, Boondock Saints, The Pianist, Amelie, Big Fish, Garden State, What Dreams May Come, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Slackers, Van Wilder, Super Troopers, Sin City, Green Street Hooligans.

Television:

TV Friends, Sex and the City, Saturday Night Live, Stand-Up on Comedy Central, Family Guy, Scrubs, Law and Order SVU, Gilmore Girls, Mythbusters, Dirty Jobs and pretty much anything else on Discovery or History Channel.

Books:

Books "A Tree Grows In Brooklyn" ~Betty Smith, "Breakfast of Champions", "Welcome to the Monkey House" "Bluebeard" ~Kurt Vonnegut, "Nine Stories"~J.D. Salinger, "Girl With a Pearl Earring" ~Tracy Chevalier, "Virgin Suicides" ~Jeffrey Eugenides, "One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich" ~Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" ~Stephen Chobsky, "God of Small Things"~Arundhanti Roy "Lady Sings The Blues" ~Billie Holiday, "Please Kill Me: The Uncensored Oral History of Punk", "Native Son" ~Richard Wright, "To Kill a Mockingbird"~Harper Lee, "Where the Sidewalk Ends" ~Shel Silverstein, "BFG"~Roald Dahl, Harry Potter Books, Dante's Inferno, The Complete Works of Dylan Thomas, Everything else by Vonnegut, Palahniuk, Camus, and Bukowski. All Shakespeare's plays...so forth, etc. I also read a lot of historical literature, especially dealing with the Holocaust, British History, Music History and biographies. And I'm slowly making my way through the top 100 American Novels of the 20th Century. I've read 20 so far.

Heroes:

Heroes My Family, my friends, Mother Teresa, Audrey Hepburn.

My Blog

White wine and a red couch

Hands and nose pressed against the glass.  Heavy breathe fogs the view.  On the outside looking in.  On a world that has become foreign.  That she is no longer a part of.  Ano...
Posted by The Recluse on Mon, 12 May 2008 08:08:00 PST

Invisible Monsters and Chocolate Factories

Slipping into self-destructive behavior.... need to give up vices.  Longing for old vices.  Consumed with words.  Lost in imaginary lands and times.  Hidden in letters and images.&...
Posted by The Recluse on Sat, 19 Apr 2008 07:19:00 PST

My good old friend insomnia.....

It’s 4 in the morning.  I’ve been up since two.  I should be exhausted and passed out.  I thought staring at a computer screen would help.  I hear birds chirping. ...
Posted by The Recluse on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 12:59:00 PST

Soon I’ll be asking "How much you bench?" with the rest of them...

So I joined a gym today.  Never thought I would be someone who paid to work out, but it turns out I really need it.  Not for the reasons that most need a gym, (well those are part of it too)...
Posted by The Recluse on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 04:12:00 PST

You know who you are...

I was just about to cry over you, but then I remembered that you're not worth it.  I stopped the tears mid-stream because you don't deserve them.  I hope you get syphilis.  (That's an S...
Posted by The Recluse on Sat, 01 Mar 2008 02:37:00 PST

Nevermind

My days are full of neverminds.  Not remembers or I meant what I saids.  Forgets.  Ignore yesterday.  Yesterday was wrong . Today is right.  That is, until tomorrow comes.&nbs...
Posted by The Recluse on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 03:30:00 PST

Deja Vu

I've been here before.  Laying on my couch half the weekend.  No words spoken for over 24 hours.  Drifiting in and out of sleep.  Staring blankly at vapid television.  Friends...
Posted by The Recluse on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 04:22:00 PST

An Ode to 4th Coast

A Brief Note About the Following: I'm bored, so I'm writing about the first thing that comes to mind because writing helps me sleep and for some reason I've decided to share it.  Anyone that didn...
Posted by The Recluse on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 08:02:00 PST

So here it goes...

Okay, so I've spent the last 36+ hours waiting in anticipation for a phone call I never received.  The story goes like this: A few weeks ago, after having 3 weeks prior telling my ex-boyfriend Ju...
Posted by The Recluse on Fri, 24 Aug 2007 05:55:00 PST

So About Monday...

So here's the story about Monday for everyone that wanted to know.  I thought the interview went well, they seemed impressed my some of the things I said and laughed at some of the funny things I...
Posted by The Recluse on Fri, 13 Jul 2007 04:49:00 PST