REAL PAPI FOR THOSE TRUE MAMI AT THERE

So.... I'm not really sure whats going on in my head right now... I'm happy.... then i'm sad......i'm not happy with myself and the way i am...but i feel that i can not change it.... and i'm really not sure what to do....I just want to be loved.... and i feel that there is something missing in my life. I'm just gonna go from place to place trying to find something... and i'm not really sure what that something is. I've left everything that i know... but i don't want to go back. I've turned into someone that i am not happy with. But I can't change that, I can only move forward. I'm not really sure what i am trying to get at with writing this... but i just feel like i need to get it out... and I'm sure it makes no sense... but at least i said it...I AM LIVING YO .... ..