Melanie

I’m 27 years old but feel like I’m 18, I don’t want to get old and lonely but I don’t want to die young. I enjoy every season in the year for each brings different kinds of beauty,the first signs of spring, the warm summer sun, the colour of autumn trees and way the country side looks covered in morning winter frost. I don’t agree with war in fact any kind of violent behaviour scares me; I have never been in a fight nor wanted to be.I dont like the fact that people in this world are starving and living in conditions that are so unbearable, no-body should have to live like that and i dont like the fact that people turn their heads away to it and carry on in this world ignoring the fact that this is REALLY happening. I don't follow any kind of trends,which includes clothes, music or lifestyle, I wear what i want and what i feel good in that day,I listen to the music i like and live my life to how i want it and not how im told to.I cry more than I say and not just at sad time but happy times too, I am a very emotional person. I try to open my eyes to new things everyday and I don't judge people so please don't judge me. I love to lie in the grass and make pictures with the clouds and then stay there till the stars come out and just drift into space. I love to kiss in the rain, and I like to stick out my tongue and taste the snow. When the brown autumn leaves are on the ground I like to run through them and kick them up in the air. I don’t really like the wind as it hurts my ears but I love to hear it whistling past my window as I’m lying in bed at night, I also like to watch thunderstorms but don’t like being in them and id love to see a tornado one day but from a distance. I love to see the sunrise as it’s the start of a new day and I really love watching the sunset when it turns the whole sky purple/pink, the way the clouds frame it like a faultless picture that changes every second, hour and day, every one is different, you will never see it that way again. I love to go out and dance all night long. I love the way certain songs make me feel, and the way i can loose myself in them. How certain smells can take you way back to places, people or feelings from when you first smelt them. I love the smell of fresh cut grass, coffee, a good meal being cooked, incense, airports, the country air, fresh baked bread, forests, the sea, the comforting arms of my mum and the natural smell of a man. I love to hear the sound of waves crashing againts the shore, birds singing in the trees, the sound of laughter, a cats purr and the sounds we make while we are asleep but sometimes I like to hear nothing at all.I like to sing in the shower although very badly and I love to dance naked around my bedroom. I love to take long hot baths, even more so if I'm sharing it with a man. I am a very loving, giving person and will never let you down, I'd never cheat, lie or hurt you, that goes for my friends, family and lovers. I like to treat myself to new things every now and then and buy for others to show my appreciation of them and their friendship. I'm laid back, sometimes quiet, sometimes loud and most of the time a little silly, if I’m in a room full of people I like to talk but sometimes i like to just sit back and watch/ listen. I love it when people make me laugh to the point where i cry and feel like i will pee on myself and i do try to make people laugh, no better medicine for the soul than laughter. I love to drive to my favourite place to sit and think or just take in the view. I also would love to be able to drive very fast round a race circuit just to get it out my system. I love fresh fruit in the morning or anytime come to think and I love a nice cup of tea, especially if I’ve not made it. I like to have my hair played with and my back stroked as I drift off to sleep. I love to hold hands as I’m walking down the street and the butterflies I get in my stomach when I nervous. I love to look into someone’s eyes and loose myself in them, but then turn away shyly as I blush. I love it when i have a crush on someone. I love to sneeze and one day ill get to 10 just to see if the myth is true.but I hate having a cold and I very rarely get ill but when I do get sick I don’t like it when I vomit out my nose... but I guess no-one does. Well there are a few more things but it’s good to have some secrets. One last thing… If you could find out how you would die would you? Well my answer to this is yes... because then I’d know that I could survive everything else…