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My blessing's my curse

True or False it may be, Just don't let me down!

About Me

Words that define me: laid-back, and like the song says 'easy (going) like Sunday morning (which happens to be my favorite day of the week), self-confident, leader, real, wicked style, twisted, rebelious, spiritual, and intelligent. I love the bittersweet and enjoy being down almost as much as up. I believe life is not about material, but about living. Im about doing things my way even if I wont know the outcome rather than taking a beaten path. I can be a conundrum of epic proportions; both light and dark, fire and rain, pleasure and pain. Thats just life a constant struggle of opposites, but you cant have one without the other. Im a lover, tho if the cause is right Im one hell of a fighter. I know who I am, love who I am, I am by no means perfect, but my spirit is free!!

My Interests

music, writing, reading, friends, dancing, sports, religion, karaoke, & spreading those good vibrations

I'd like to meet:

'I want somebody who sees the pointlessness and still keeps their purpose in mind; I want somebody who has a tortured soul some of the time; I want somebody who will either put out for me, or put me out of misery; or maybe just put it all to words and make me say, you know I never heard it put that way...I want somebody who can hold my interest, hold it and never let it fall; someone who can flatten me with a kiss, that hits like a fist; or a sentence, that stops me like a brick wall; if you hear me talking, listen to what I'm not saying; if you hear my spirit singing, listen to what chords its not playing; and don't ask me to put words to all the silences I wrote, don't ask me to put words to all the spaces between notes; in fact if you have to ask, forget it, do and you'll regret it; I'm tired of being the interesting one, I'm tired of creating all the fun; just lay yourself on the line and I might lay myself down beside you; but don't sit behind your eyes and wait for me to surprise you; I want somebody who can make me scream until it's funny, give me a run for my money,twist my emotions up in knots; I want someone who's not afraid of me or anyone else; in other words, I want someone who's not afraid of themself'.......and in general- Down to earth real people who live life for living it, who define rather than be defined. Any wandering souls that has something interesting to say.

Music:

Could you really define music to one particular genre? I know I couldnt music speaks to my soul and every language resounds a different cord ecstatically. Its my greatest joy.

Television:

Can be entertaining but overall I find its a big waste of time

Books:

If your a reader thats HOT!! One of my all time favorite smells it the world is that of a book

Heroes:

My Mother and my Father whose faith got them through the struggle to the truth on the other side. I am strong and & great because of them. K'Ra, the sweetest thing to touch my soul. Char, the purest bond Ive ever known, You may feel weak, but your still the strongest one Ive ever known, As strong as me,thats how I know girl, dont fear you can bend but you will never break. "I love & cherish U as much as, for anyone, I ever could. I aminspired and uplifted by Ur presence in my life; impassioned by ourbond as much as if U were my lover. Tho we'll only ever call eachother friend, U are my Soul Mate. Know I will always catch U when Ufall, uplift U when ur down. Burdened? I will share ur load. In deepenough U could flay the flesh from my bones, still no cut could everbe too deep. My forgivness,U shall always have, a place in my heart Ualways keep. ,.Wherever life may lead U I'll always smile when I seeU. U are a gift,One for which Im blest, that foreven a moment Fatewould allow me to get. I bleed so Ull know that when I say I loveU Its eternal, uncontional, and rooted very deep. Know that Ullalways be one of the greatest Loves my life will reap." Anyone who stood/stands up for the oppressed or misunderstood. Those that challenge, defy, dare to cross the lines in search of change. Most of all myself for surviving my journey with spirit unbroken, my soul scathed but untainted."I didn't have no time for school Spent my days breaking the rules and regulations And in between me having fun, All the teachers told me son, get an education So I had my days of freedom, Dressed like a man through four seasons Hey I'm steppin out so cut me loose And as mama waved goodbye Tears were welling in her eyes. She don't need them I turned to her and said:I've got my soul education You know it's stitched into the clothes that I wear Got my life information Upon the breeze that's blowing through my hair Got a pocket full of rainbows Oh and a sky to put them in so blue So let the music come and save you I found a God that I can pray to Deep inside my soulSee you're mad you can't delude But there is no substitute For intuition, there's no superstition So if you find you're petrified To let some natural law apply Then there's a whole lot missing baby So you know I'm blessed celestially Got a direct link with destiny Don't ask me why I'm in the skySomethings money just can't buy, Rags to riches, babes to bitches But the ride don't mind cause I got my...I Know I got my soul education You know that it's stitched into the clothes that I wear I've Got my life information Upon the wind that's blowing through my hair I know I've got a pocket full of rainbows, Oh and a sky to put them in so blue So let the music come and save you I know I found a God that I can pray to And it's deep inside my soul"

My Blog

The Meaning of Life, REVEALED

The universe is a beautifully diverse and feral beast, from its grandest inceptions to most basic foundations. It and we are creatures of instinct and desire. We exist because we were blessed by Na...
Posted by My blessing's my curse on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 01:54:00 PST

And He Shall Overcome.... with Joy

HalleluahI have been set freeHalleluahSet free from the chains that bound meHeld me downHalleluahToday the sun has risen Shining down on my beginingHalleluahLike the Pheonix reborn out of the ash and ...
Posted by My blessing's my curse on Sun, 30 Jul 2006 06:03:00 PST

Jesus was a holy man, but you got the message all wrong

No point in trying tolive right, do right?So long as I believe in him, sanctioned is my sin?Believe?I do but not like youAnd yes, I WILL see heaven too.KLJActions not words...
Posted by My blessing's my curse on Sat, 01 Jul 2006 01:01:00 PST

In Retrospect

Words so hard to findOnly emotions shifting through my mindThere were days I never noticedYears I never livedAll trapped inside a narrow cellIve created in my own personal hellI would have thought Id ...
Posted by My blessing's my curse on Sat, 01 Jul 2006 12:27:00 PST

resisting the fall

I never saw how liberating it could beTo count on only meIt sets my spirit freeI know that love existsBut I know the lies involved in lustI look into her eyesMy heart skips a beatBut I wont go cha...
Posted by My blessing's my curse on Tue, 13 Jun 2006 12:40:00 PST

fighting my existence

I once looked up to HeavenAnd asked our GodWhy it had to be this wayWhy are people so foolishAnd blind to see there wayWhy we're all to weakTo stand and speak our mindsTo correct the path of timeHe ne...
Posted by My blessing's my curse on Tue, 13 Jun 2006 12:13:00 PST

Vicious cycle

ComplicationsAll within my headMaybe soon Ill realizeHow to make it in an instantDeadCrisscrossing patternsOf sorrow and of painLet me knowIm alive once againThis tortureIve put myself throughNoone el...
Posted by My blessing's my curse on Sun, 11 Jun 2006 06:00:00 PST

K-Wheezy takin it easy

I'm way more fly than youI'll take your dime from youNow she wanna spend all night with meLet me be the one that you roll with too(Throw it back ma, throw it back, throw it back, throw it back ma)I'd ...
Posted by My blessing's my curse on Mon, 29 May 2006 01:34:00 PST