My name is Johnny. I am complex but very simple. I love to play music but don't necessarily like to always rock out to it. I enjoy helping friends but hate to impose my problems onto anyone. I've gone to school for music but I dont consider myself a great student. I am very knowledgable of many things but I dont feel I know very much. I want to meet the person that I can complete but i am painfully shy (to a fault). I love to make people smile but I can cry when I dont or when they hurt. I am very empathetic but sometimes I dont care. I am the sweetest person you will ever meet but that is not always good I guess. I love to show love but I dont accept it too well.
I guess I tend to be kinda weird but hey what can I say. I am blessed with the ability to play music and I say blessed because it is not by my own merit that I can play the way I do. :D God bless you thanks for reading
I own many leather bound books :p
My house smells of fine mahogany! :D
I Love music :D
johnny
a poem I wrote a while back kinda my commentary on most relationship there are more in my blogs if you wanna see
To Be Free
Why do we hurt that which we love
We hide ourselves buy making things up
We run from what makes sense
Into the arms of despondence
Full well knowing our heart lies elsewhere
All the while loathing this self inflicted despair
Knowing your emotions and acting contrary
Seems todays motto though ludicrous its devastatingly ordinary
Walking through the streets you cant help but notice
Hearts broken futures out of focus
Because a word hardly truthfully spoken
A word that today is but a token
A means to a hateful end
A means to manipulate and bend
A means that when intended to employ
A means only will it destroy
Though often offered in sincerity
This is the disparity
Something that is offered at the time true
Something that all the while felt right to you
This favor flaunted with its beauty so pure
Offered premature no time given for it to prove or cure
So this strong adhesive has turned to dust
This heartache is truly unjust
Something so beautiful has been mocked
And now your heart will be forever locked
No matter who comes searching
This pain still lurking
Causing strife when this new true hearts love is offered
It can be nothing more than a bother
Please dont misunderstand me
The knower of everything I do not claim to be
But when your heart pulls you to a truly loved one
Why run to another someone
This can only cause grief
And all it merits is distrust and disbelief
How my heart hurts to see
Faces daily dying
Hearts reduced to crying
When all they want is to be free
johnny
life of lies
How can we live a life of lies
Speak of forever and butterflies
All the while contemplating failure
running from the will of our creator
I find myself at a loss for words
I see this behavior as absurd
U know who U love
but yet U run
U would rather have "fun"
Never a worry of what Uv done
when uv been touched by truth
U run from love and blame youth
U know ur heart
Yet u wanna be apart
Does this make u happy
Doesn't this sound silly
I know this is fate
But ur loving associating with ppl who r fake
Plz don't get me wrong
The love I carry for u is very strong
But it is a two way street
It takes 100% from 2 to make it complete
Lord I ask u to show
How true love will go
When the two u put together know
that the love they feel 4 each other from u flows
Then and only then can true love grow
And I can reep the harvest of the love that in her I sow
johnny
