I need to move on |
that seems to be the unified sentimenthow do you do that?What's the formula for healing?I'm stuck in OKlahoma until fall 2010then what --I'm not exactly sureI don't want what life I have to be wasted ...
Posted by on Mon, 04 May 2009 20:41:00 GMT |
new nothing eve |
like a dumb ass I asked him outI'm throwing a partyyour not invitedI felt like he was sitting on my chestget a life without mebeing alone will be good for youthis is what he tells me after dinner with...
Posted by on Mon, 29 Dec 2008 00:20:00 GMT |
getting along getting by getting nothing |
I am picking him up from the airport today and having dinner with him. He's been gone training for a week. Every night I've been have supper intense dreams that stick. In one parralel universe B came ...
Posted by on Sat, 13 Dec 2008 15:22:00 GMT |
i hurt |
and I can't stop cryinghe's everywherehe was cruel again and I took itI keep taking it is it my fault?was I built for abusive men?I hate myselfI accept it
Posted by on Sun, 23 Nov 2008 01:49:00 GMT |
halloween -hollow girl |
I had candy for the handfull of trick o treaters. Toast needed a treat every time one came to the door. Brent came home after stopping by his sis's in Tulsa and planning a trip to IKEA in Zach's truck...
Posted by on Sat, 01 Nov 2008 19:10:00 GMT |
afraid of tommorow |
I haven't let myself realaly write here. It somehow makes it all worse to see your adult failures in black and white. I can tell you exactly how much time Brent has been home in the past two weeks. Th...
Posted by on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 01:10:00 GMT |
trying so hard |
I'm plowing through the opera for OU. I feel better than I have --well ....everthanks to the anti D -ahh modern medicineBrent is up and down --sometimes I really see him struggling to not kiss meI wan...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Sep 2008 14:50:00 GMT |
jobs |
Opera until October.
I've got a 10 hour gig for November and December --call center at Williams Sonoma. After that ...............who knows..........
Posted by on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 19:55:00 GMT |
starting to move |
there is no stopping this trainI'm moving out because I can't afford the house we shared on my own. I can't lift for 2 more weeks without danger of herniah from just having gall bladder removal surger...
Posted by on Sat, 06 Sep 2008 14:40:00 GMT |
if you see me |
I need consoling
I need love
I need reminding that I have value and a place here
even if it's not the one I imagined for the last 12 years
I'm trying to remember something good each time I loop on sad...
Posted by on Mon, 18 Aug 2008 12:38:00 GMT |
