~*~pAm~*~

stubborn, spoiled brat as they always says about me, maybe because i’m an only child...i hate my elementary days..i’m an easy go lucky when i was in high school...i never was late in school... while in college, i am living in a crowded city that is full of strangers and different people, far from what i used to be...i need to study, read 6 chapters in one night, books to read like a thick dictionary, only 3 hours of sleep, reading while eating—hell right?..but my efforts are not enough but that was before... and now, i didn’t study very well but i still pass(yabang noh?!)...i’m just contented from what i’ve got, but i know i can still do better...i didn’t do my best and i don’t know why..i can say i am a strong person in a sense that i’m still here standing and fighting in all the problems in my life... and the last thing i will do in my life is to take suicide(hehe)... i still smile and look like i was not affected in what is around me... but you can still see my emptiness in my eyes...i cried like a river, been hurt and unappreciated many times, been in a relationships that was taken for granted, i’d given up everything and became faithful but still left behind and i don’t know why. i never cursed; i became deaf, blind and numb... as i go on with my life, i’m still looking for answers, why all these things happen to me and why tHEy did these to me?.. and the only thing that was wrong with me? i love deeply...(sad but true!)..but i know He have plans for me, to make me happy, contented and be loved by the ONE who is destined to be with me....