Grass Hopper (aka Pink Spider)

I thought i'd finally do a proper about me so where do i start who am I?
Some people regard me as the nice one i consider myself the shy one. I work within the social security in Broadstairs for a company called haden's in a small office where admitdally i dont do much work (and i get to play nintendo and listen to my walkman most of the day) but hey its a job. I've had enough of it now after nearly 10 years (jesus has it really been that long) i've decided to leave that hole of a work place and move onto something new wheter it will be something better i have no idea but i just need to get out of there now. I havent been treated the best way possible but i suppose companys never really do care about there staff as long as the work gets done. So yeah onward and possibly upward but more likely to be just onward coz i dont have that many skills so its gonna be prety hard to find the jobs that pay alot of money. I live in a lovely flat in Broadstairs and i'd say its the nicest place i have ever lived and i have lived in alot of places through out my life, if i had the money i'd probably buy it but im skint. I did own my own flat for 4 years almost 2 years ago but i decided to sell up and move in with my now ex girlfriend, sometimes i regret selling my flat coz today it would be worth a hell of a lot more than what i got for it then but we all learn from our mistakes sometimes well i tend to make more than most but thats coz im special lol!
So yeah i sold my flat made a load of cash and prety much spent it all within a couple of years which i do regret. It seems that i dont have much to show for it but there we go im not bitter about it im still alive just a little bit poorer than i probably could have been had i used my head and invested it wisely.
But where am i now well im struggling to pay all my bills and keep my flat but i've never been one to give up if the chips are down ?(first time i've used that expression lol and the last). So yeah i need a new job hopefully something that pays better.
I dont know what to say now let me think for a bit.
I've never been one to hide my emotions if i feel upset ill cry i dont care who knows it im just a big softy really. If im in a relationship and i realy like the girl then ill let her know it so if you get scared easily then walk away coz i wear my heart on my sleeve and maybe its something i should control but its just the way i am.
I jumped out of a plane about a year ago at a height of 12,000 ft was the best thing i have ever done its something ive always wanted to do but have never got round to doing it i got it for a birthday present and i was like oh shit! i really gotta do it now oh well bring it on, to this day i have never been on a plane and actually landed still on it lol. Roll on when i go to Florida next year with my boys (hoping i have the money) coz then ill know what its finaly like to land that is of course the plane dont explode. :(
I absolutly adore music its probably the one thing i cant live without even more than food its very rare that your see me without a wire hanging out of my ear i love all sorts of music except dance trance and techno type crap but yeah Metal, Rock, Punk, Alternative and Classical are amongst my favs refer to music to see what bands i like.
I enjoy playing videos games and my collection of about 700 i think now is slowy growing it was quickly growing but then i became poor lol and every now and then i hear these little voices telling me ''walk away from the games your broke you cant afford it'' and some times i just wanna smack Ash and Scott in the head lol! love you guys.
I love hanging out with my close friends they are always there for me no matter what they are the best friends i could ever have. Scott i love you man your like the brother i never had you may be a little to honest for my liking sometime but thats just your way and i wont change ya but i will beat you at smack down again lol (you reversing shite) Grgghh, Ash what can i say your a legend your a messy fucker but over the last year our friendship has been brilliant (roll on smallville series 5) and more naked sundays, Kittie, Danni and Shell you know how much i love you 3 girls just a shame i dont get to see more of you.(
My bestest friend in the world is Diccon (Dill) i've known him for 24 years and i miss him so much, he is the only person who challenges me at Street Fighter no one has come close to how good he is at it and when he's down next a 10 Battle Tournament is gonna happen between us i believe he won the last one so i owe him some revenge. I really hope he does well when he finishes uni and becomes a famous director then he can pay me back for all the video games and comics and numerous other stuff that ive bought him for the past 3 years i love you man see ya soon. Wow this is turning into an essay if only i had wrote this much at school maybe i'd have got better grades pfft yeah right.
So who knows hopefully in the next few months ill have a new job that is my goal at the moment oh yeah and ive decided to start learning the guitar again i really would love to be able to play it properly. And who knows hopefully i'l have my friend back *sigh*
I'll admit i wanna be a dad one day i think it would be the best thing in the world and hopefully i'll have a son and i'll be able to do all the father/son things i missed out on growing up as a kid. Oh yeah and ill teach him how to play Street Fighter so he can kick everyones ass. :) But this is along way off yet im still youngish lol hey im 27 (its scary really how quick the last few years have gone) but yeah hopefully when im a lot older and a bit more mature ill fnd the right women and hopefully one day who knows.
To quote Dill about me "I like to have very long msn names that sound very profound and important and tell the person im talking to that im a very deep and complex person, and despite my cheerful friendly exterior there is a great sadness that runs deep in my soul, that i am a very sensitve individual but i can kick your arse at street fighter"
It's been a while since i last updated this and quite a fair bit has happened the number 1 thing being that im gonna be a dad despite the situation i am over the moon about it like i said i've always wanted to be a dad ok im gonna get my wish but i do wish things were different regarding the situation but there it is i've tried and i promise i'm gonna be the best dam dad i can be i really can't wait i think its something like 11 days!!! im scared of course but my excitement outways my fears :) i even bought little baby clothes the other week i really couldn't resist there so cute lol and granted its for when he's a little older so hopefully he will grow into it lol.
I work as a paintball marshall now on the weekends at canterbury and meopham which is gravesend way and its a really fucking cool job al though i work like 7 days a week most weeks lol. and if you ever go paint balling you may see me there.
Well i had a job interview today and i got it there and then its for the same job but its a mobile posistion and it gets me out of Broadstairs coz im so bored there, so i'll be driving all over the place minus DS lol coz i'll probably have to work. So 2 of my goals from last year have happened lol all i need to do now is learn the guitar
It looks like 2007 is looking prety good.
i'll admit and most of you who know me pretty well know i've be really un happy for longer than i should have been and maybe i haven't been the best person to be around and i'm sorry for that, i feel really happy now and as an one of my old msn names said ''if 2007 gets shit all i'll have to do is look at that smiling little face and i'll be happy'' :) gaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he he
so yeah were over half way through january and in the next 2 weeks well i think you know lol let's hope it all works out. i think this is all i have to say for now. take care every one xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
It's February 2nd and just 3 days ago my son was born i can't describe in words how i felt the first time i held him in my arms its a feeling you can't write down you have to expericnace it, he is the most amazing cutest thing i have ever seen and one day he may even have a name lol. There are some pics in my gallery if you want to see him and im sure they won't be the last. thats all for now. check back for an update :)