RequiemForADream

I came by here to say I’m sorry but I got lost in my selfish glory our hearts are two parts of a separate story I came by here to see your smiling face to draw a angel halo around your head to lay out roses on top of your bed to take all back all the empty words I’ve convincing said I came here to tell you I woke up this morning with an image of you adorning every corner and space I built a pyramid out of our hearts and redrew the universe from the unused parts I came here to cross my fingers in hopes that you’d willing kiss me and not feel forced to say you miss me I’m came by today to see if I’d be perfect again and today may be the day I find the part of you that understands. untitled 2004Hello welcome to my page here I will speak my mind and write as much has can so you can get the general understanding of who I’ am and what I’ am.First off let me start off with a general description of my physical attributes. I stand 5’7 I’m somewhere between slim and medium built 145 pounds I have curly hair I have dark brown eyes My skin is that of a caramel complexion Guess that takes care of that aside from what you see in my picture its small so click where it says "view pictures" to see a much better and enlarged version.Second let me start off by listing my likes and dislikes LIKES: I have a wide range of things that catch my interest I really enjoy watching movies anything in these genres a guaranteed to catch my interest Anime, Action, Drama, Horror, Psychological Thrillers, Mystery and Comedy Bowling, Blizzards, Basketball, Football, Writing, Drinking Coronas with lime , Smoking Newports, Fall mornings, Any kind of Cheesecake, Apple crisp, Nip Tuck, That Maroon5 song, LA Lakers, Burgers at Fridays, Short telephone conversations, Soft Rock, Punk Rock, Emo Rock, Adult Pop, R&B, Some Underground Rap and Techno Music, Drawing, Video games, Traveling, Politics, Comic Books, Anime Conventions, Winning, Dreaming, Morning Peace, The NY Giants, Halle Berry, Smallville, This seasons “Real World”, Empty buses and trains, Alkaline Trio, AFI, Savage Garden, Intellectual Conversations and Beautiful Girls (That’s just a small display of likes want to know more feel free to ask me).DISLIKES: I also have a wide range of dislikes Anti smoking commercials (funny how there paid for by tobacco companies) Light Beer, Light Cigarettes, P Diddy the rapper not the business man, Rappers who endorse energy drinks (Fat Joes energy drink should be slimfast) Studio Artist, People who believe their musicians because they went to an art school, Commercial Hip Hop, Mayo on my burger, Mustard, Arrogance, Ignorance, Prima Donnas, Divas, Fraternities, B.E.T, VH1, Retarded Reality Shows, George Bush and Don Cheney, People Who Give Me Grieve About My Smoking Habit, Some Of My Little Cousins, The US Olympic Basket Ball Team (That’s just a small display of likes want to know more feel free to ask me).Third let me just share my random thoughts. I’ve learn that there are 4 things you can’t possibly control in this life. 1) The day your born 2) The day you die 3) The people who you fall in love with 4) The people who fall in love with youMy goals ,my mission statement and what I ‘am I’m currently studying for a degree in medical billing and after completion I will continue doing what I love best and that is graphic design. I hope to own my own house in the near future and if possible waste away my 20’s live free and marry in my 30’s ( I hope that works out) I want to be the best man I can possibly be I want to meet people who I can help achieve their dreams and their goals I want to be respected man and to treat people as I would want to be treated. All people are equal through my eyes and I’ll never believe one human being can ever be above another. I’m a dreamer a compassionate human being and I believe everything in life serves its purpose, that somehow everyone’s life’s is weaved together to make something bigger something magical I’ll take failure with stride but I always aim to succeed in everything I do, I’m proud of my accomplishments I’ve made throughout my life. No matter how much a person struggles there is always the slightest speck of hope, no pain can last forever and no happiness can last forever because it is constantly being replaced another moment of happiness or pain. I’ am a forgiver a poet I breath live into words I connect pieces of broken fragments and make this whole again. I’ am the coldest winter with a hint of a warm fall, I’m black , purple, and red inside I’m truly imperfect.I love to write and I do it quite so often, what I write about mainly depends on what I'm feeling at the moment. I write about everything but has of lately I've been writing about relationships, a connection, an opposite of me. Here is something I wrote recentlyI call it "And My Heart Is What It Is"I realized today without your glow my soul is put on death row I feel cramped up inside a biting heart with no place to grow no place too find its position it melts in frustration your its only optimism for identification and the thought of you heals my mind like spiritual radiation and I feel you closer as I discover a new gradation of words for heartfelt letters. Trickling tears on fickle pores you’re a sweet amity with no touch of flaws your the dew after the rain pours if I ever believed in Christmas you’re my Santa Claus you take me as I’m menacing soul wretched being unwanted rouge your kiss to change my common mode you’re a delight too the burden that overloads two hearts that explode precious embrace to bypass our hidden code too stare at your eyes because your love allure never turns old if I die today loving you would be the greatest story ever told I’d rather not be bothered by today fathered by delay love that only lived too decay your bad karma in reverse you’re the hurt of my heart the farther you withdraw it only gets worst my hearts very first such beauty at your disposal would you accept my marriage proposal if not its ok I’m used to the rejection and my love letters to you have made quite a collection never one too win a valentine election but I’ll love you till my feathers fade and the halo musters its luster I’ll hold your hand to my heart that festers about being unemotional the world spins on top of your head it drips with painted hearts crimson red I’ll white-out all blissful harmonies out of existence just too hear your name I’ll create circular blends and kisses on the palm of your hands I’ll say I’ll love you till I’m breathless touch your soul till our bodies are self-less leave a mark of our initials on tree bark leave our wishes to impart and embark on the ark and disclose the built treasures that lark moving unsurely too middle of nowhere I saw your body lie somewhere but why should you care I didn’t reveal myself today hid in my own shadow running from my reflection endured countless lectures maybe I’ve never been real maybe a dream inside a dream but why I hear fragments of in your vocals scream why I’m I sorry I haven’t done nothing wrong then I remembered I forgot what your wish was as heaven passed along I wrote a new verse with your name inscribed in italic letters soft strokes with the pen I drew you feathers and a halo in black ink and outlined your heart in pink your glow reacts to my feelings on the outside brink, burning itching and pinching me watch my disappearing act as I’m crashing down the rink hurting me freely who wants to borrow my sorrow for today come steal me who wants too devote their time too being far away between deep spaces that replaced an empty face molded from perished clay I’ve found my heart a new place too play I’ve discovered the child that lugged me that hugged me suddenly replaced I promised I wouldn’t think of you today but my brain just won’t give up I’m not vying for anyone’s charity hold me this life I’m living needs clarity and don’t fly away just yet tell me its not to late for a heart to feel spinning clueless with improvised philosophies you’re the first face too my penned down anthologyWell that just about covers my interest and personality if you want more just ask!!!! :)