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"Remember Me, if not Forget Me"-Me Now and Later

I have my heart set on two, u just can't when I was down fine one, i like him a lot, the other i just can't get over oh boy, I'm so confusedFirst loves, that's exactly what they are. Those are the ones that introduce you to everything.The make u love them and love u back, but also broke your heart. But no matter how hurt you are, you'll always love them, always.They'll stay with u forever and not only will u not notice it, but deep down you will compare every other guy to him and none of them will ever live up to him, because he was your first love. Then months he'll call or you'll hear "your song" or u'll go someplace u went with him or see a movie or something that reminds u of how much he meant to u and how much you really loved him and realize you're not completely over him and never will beI'm sorry if I'm giving up to easy, I just don't have the strength to fight anymore No; u didn't break my heart, you helped me to fill it up and start over...without you It's always the person u want that u're better off without This year my resolution isn't to eat less or exercise more...it's to finally get over him Your eyes give me a reason to breathe N our late night conversations mean the world to me And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything u risk even moreAnd it's gonna be the memories that kill me And I'm getting better at looking away when I see youNot caring is the strongest revenge of allu want to know why I wouldn't look into your eyes that night? Because I was afraid of what I would see, what I did see. My everything and now, it's gone. So maybe, it would have been better if I never looked at you in the first placeHow do you explain something to someone when you don't even understand yourself? Oh, don't worry about her, she's always upset, she's always in love with someone who doesn't love her back, she's always heart broken, so she's fine, by now, she's ued to itAnd this is where I say we had enough...
BR. . .Nothing worth as much as I try to be here for you . . . because I am Missing You . . . To the ones that I dun always TALK to anymore and the ones that dun ususally see me that much anymore now. Anyway it been a pretty long that i get myself into a relationship. I was hurt so much that I had give up about that, but guessed that things have happened all a sudden on 09.30.05 at 10:38pm....but it have come to end on January 18,2007 10: something close to 11 :'( Memories of Love. . . I wish He Understand. . .
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If you remembered I wrote this? Dear Warren (Mango),Hi, how are you? Just want you to know that I don't really know how to message this, but just want to message and see how's everything with you lately.So, I notice that you didn't message back after that day I messaged you. I won't blame you for not messaging back, because I know I say something that might even hurt you more, but you should understand my part, why I post 'reply to this, or never.' If you don't want to read through what I have to say it's really your choice, and what ever your decision is on you.So, my part of why I did that, is because I was really down since the time you annoyed me while you were with your friends that day, and I was really overwhelmed with so many other things at once, that I lost control of myself and did that. I don't know how long this silence between us will last, but if it takes longer than a week, I understand why and I won't bother to call or anything, because definitely I know you won't want to talk to me. Just because this all happened. Why, I'm feeling all insecure with everything that is going on now days, is because I won't realize myself doing it, till I come across it after I did it. Also, I know itâ€™s my fault for being an asshole, I blame for it, but there's little thing that you should already understand why, but not quite till you hear it from me. Lately, I been so crappy almost every day of this week, because of this situation that we're going through is running me over. For sure I don't want to see myself showing this while everything else is going while I'm working or schooling. But I can't help it. Yeah, I'm grown to solve my own things, but guess what once a while I need to let out things. It sure hurts to stuffed everything in and then see myself cried and be able to solve things out.There are some people that you talk to over the last week and this week, they told me that we should sit and communicate about this, but I didn't want to do that, because my schedule is intense and it's too much a hassle. That's why, I haven't really find the right time to talk, because from the inside of my heart, I felt little cracks all over my body, because I have hurt you. Not because I don't want to care or avoid of anything, itâ€™s just because I have thought about what I said and... Itâ€™s really hard to recover of how hurtful things. I don't know if I have said this before, right before we started. I can be so cruel that someone will get hurt from me, because I dislike getting myself and my heart hurt once again, but I already did, because on the first day of the discussion about the thing I said, my whole body shakes, tremble, and became so cold that I actually broke down to tears heavily. Also, I have been repeating this one song that really explains of what's going on now. You should some how know that being in a relationship is hard to overcome everything at once. But I'm already feeling that since everything started, I'm the wrongness person ever, even though I try to be fair and honest every single time, but what can I do, if you don't like it.I just want to say is that, if you forgive me for what I have done, that would be nice, but if you don't, then the final thing you can do is do whatever you feel like, because almost every minute I think about the problem, my heart and body breaks, which makes me can't even go on a day, without letting my inside organs take the pain and like a big sharp knife stab me, that I will understand and come to a solution to the problem.While, I'm typing this up, I just want to know that, my heart is shattered just because of what I heard. Here's a thing, if there was only one thing, one thing that I can do to stop this, I would just take it all and go away, that way everything will be alright. Itâ€™s just because this have thrown all in my face, even if my point is existence or not. I have tried my best to explain myself to you. These things that I said is my only and only reason why I would stand here and watch myself doing this message to you. Believe me or not I used to have faith in myself to, do whatever I can to show who I am, but it's so hard over and over again now, because things just really throwing at me too much. I won't mind, because that's my life works. Hurt over and over and over...till I'm gone.Ok, this is all I have to say. Hope you feel better soon, and let's start everything over if we have to be backing to the first time you asked me to be your girlfriend. I'm hoping and trying to watch you overcome this, I'm watching myself too.I miss you! I Love You, Diane (apple)I have more things to say...

. . .I wish. . . Im not down again, again, and again!I wish I wasn't a girl feeling down so muchI wish I can slap myself out of the sad timesI wish I can stop giving so many love and careI wish I was some other girl that takes things more simpleI wish I was someone else that doesn't have to look to the dark side so muchTo find answerI wish I can just forget things more easyI wish I can stab a knife inside of me, so I can't stop this mentally and physically painI wish my life doesn't feel like a prison that doesn't know how to leaveI wish I can totally forget you and the way I'm feelingI wish I'm not this blue every day and night when I think of youI wish I wasn't bugged and being bothered from this painI wish everything was alright with meI wish I can be happy again like back thenI wish I can show you what you were really met for meI wash my body stops trembling and shaking from this painI wish I can stop cutting myselfI wish I wasn't the one who shows so many friendship and loveI wish I wasn't the person that tries to make things fair for everyoneI wish I was strong to control this painI wish I see myself happy againI wish I show the real me stillI wish everything was just easy for meI wish I dont have a tender and emotional sideI wish I wasn't that blue as I am every fricken time I thinkI guessed that no matter what I have said it fricken hurts myself more and moreMost of All I wish I can find HIM to talk about how I feel and other things in pErSoN.

Down Over and Over AgainIve been pushed down so many timesI feel this time will be my lastAs I lay here fadingMy thoughts are invaded by memories of the my pastI feel the pressures of shame and rejections buildingAs I lay here on the floorI have no more strength to get upI'm noticing that I'm not worth it anymore to stay hereby Mee dee. I'm in a off and on relationship, but mostly likely single....This is me that who knows me or trying to be my friend If you really want to know about me there's way TOO MUCH that I won't be able to use this whole time to say everything about me, so this is enough about me.WANNA HIT ME UP: ASK ME!!!!!!

Everywhere I look, I turn, it seems you are there Everyone I leave, I learn they can not compare, as if you were with me Everything I see, I do, I touch, I will always think of you ~ ~ Every little thing in my life, it leaves me so confused... (without you...) Everything was so, so clear before we tore apart Now all my passions are trapped inside This is a lonely broken heartSo if you ask, if you want to know, I'll tell you the truth, Here's the truth, you know I wouldn't lie to you, so if you ask, if you must know, I'll tell you know, Here's the truth, Do I love you? Love you still... the truth is... I do... (ooh...)Baby, with each mark you've thrown at me, It made me have each non - resistence smile Now without you here, the sky turned a new shaded black darkness, And I'm scared that I won't forget al this time my heart still breaks.Even if I still live, it only means I must forgive, And keep waiting to love you, to hate you, to be with you, And be without you here, Here, my body's have this lonely frontier of fearsI still love you... I still love you... Yet with each time you have made me cry, each truth thing you revealed, each night you drained, my comfort went dry, And I'll love you blindly, until I dieI know that much in my love for you is true, So each day, night I stood bravely to try any way to tell you, to show you, what I really want you to know my eyes to yours, from my heart to yours, from my mind to yours, and from my soul, to yoursReality and dreaming, if my heart decides to show you one day I would close your eyes, And let you imagine I will always be by your side The way I feel for you is another sad illusion, I don't believe it... beacause I'm close to you... that is how much is true from me... to you...Lastly... I really want you to know... that the color of my heart is blue... because it's blue i will use my life to love you now and forever... (ooh...)Jordan: you should call it "The Truth in my Heart"

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I am InTeResTs iN giving my whole heart with my special person. also I'm interest how i can show my emotions feelings with my boo (if i can find anyone nowz) i have just lose my special one in my heart. hmm ..... im interest giving all my time to the one i will be sharing my love with. what else i can say?? i have way too many interest that i dun wanna share just have to ask me bout it. There's always other interest that I like to do, but for now I can't really have the time to update so much so that's why this might be the only interest I have. so sorry

"If I die before you then my love will linger forever around you. And when you change your mind, and wish to be with me, I will greet you at heaven's gates with the same love and the same loving arms we knew in life." "Baby, I know we are miles and miles away from one another, but I always believed that as long as our souls are connected to each other, the flame of our love will burn forever. Only souls can resist death, our physical connection is meaningless."

..always like to be around my love ones and friends such as: Plus the top people ..

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Diane (dee) Tsang
Birthday: March 12, 1988
Birthplace: Flip, grew up in Seattle
Current Location: Seatle, in Skyway area
Eye Color: Dark Brown
Hair Color: natural black- little reddish/blodlish strinks
Height: 5' 1 half or 5'2
Right Handed or Left Handed: right handed, but can be both
Your Heritage: chinese and half viet*(should be)
The Shoes You Wore Today: pink and white shoes, looks like a little heel shoe
Your Weakness: getting hurt from people
Your Fears: loosing something or someone and they go off and be cruel to me
Your Perfect Pizza: cheese, but I will never eat it soo much
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Try to stay happy, and let go the depression times
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: iono..... too much
Thoughts First Waking Up: blank a little, then realize im missing someone
Your Best Physical Feature: how there's something that can make me feel like I worth something in life
Your Bedtime: anytime I want
Your Most Missed Memory: A really special person in my life, and all the fun times I had
Pepsi or Coke: I dun really like any of these sodas, but if I have to pick coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: I used to like McDonalds, but i have stopped the fast foods for a pretty long time
Single or Group Dates: Single dates, but if the other person that Im with want a groupd date I'll do it
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea, I used to like Lipton Ice Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla, I dun really like chocolate so much it makes me sick
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino, coffee taste kinda bitter if its only coffee
Do you Smoke: I tried to before.
Do you Swear: when I'm really mad or just feel like letting it out
Do you Sing: I love to sing when no one is around, but I suck no matter what
Do you Shower Daily: of course!
Have you Been in Love: yes.....a really deep one, a really worse one, and maybe others were just a charm of love
Do you want to go to College: yes, but do I have the chance to, even tho I suck in school
Do you want to get Married: yes, but will I get the chance to be in life with the one I want?
Do you belive in yourself: yes, I beleve myself now, I used to not to....
Do you get Motion Sickness: it depends on what situation is it
Do you think you are Attractive: in sort of way I dun think i am, but you can tell me
Are you a Health Freak: i want to be one, but I am not
Do you get along with your Parents: yeah sometimes, but not all always anymore
Do you like Thunderstorms: sometimes I do
Do you play an Instrument: I wish I can play stuff on the piano again
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes, pretty much
In the past month have you Smoked: no, but maybe i should try for once
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no, but what if I told you I almost literally did
In the past month have you gone on a Date: hmm iono what to say (ask me if you want to know)
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: pretty a lot of times, (wanna come sometimes, call me)
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no I stopped oreos now
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: of course, becaz I love sushi a lot (^_*) mm talking about it makes me want some now
In the past month have you been on Stage: no, I will never go on the stage, unless I drag someone with me
In the past month have you been Dumped: yes i been dumped, but not in the past month
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: I think I did, but not so much...argh....
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no way
Ever been Drunk: I really want to dry to get drunk, even tho there will be stupid stuff gonna happen
Ever been called a Tease: yes a LOT (-__-)
Ever been Beaten up: no, but almost got into once
Ever Shoplifted: eh....
How do you want to Die: hmm... there's way too much ways that I can name it all
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: hmm a lot of choices to pick (massage therapist, lyric composer, journalism, poetry writer, and etc)
What country would you most like to Visit: The Asia countries
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: brown
Favourite Hair Color: blond, cause I had that, reddish brown
Short or Long Hair: long hair, but sometimes short it depends how that person looks good in it
Height: have to be taller than me, but lol girls can be shorter than me
Weight: not that fat, not that skinny, just right (tee hee)
Best Clothing Style: for guys baggy, but not too baggy
Number of Drugs I have taken: dont know what to say
Number of CDs I own: pretty lots, but not as much as the other ppl I know
Number of Piercings: used to, not anymore
Number of Tattoos: none,m but want one
Number of things in my Past I Regret: a lot that I cant take it anymore

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I also love to be around with my good friends, party friends, and maybe some naughty ones.. tee hee... you know who you are all...

If I was then nothing can get to me, that would hurt me so much ever.

I'd like to meet:

anyone, not so picky! ;PI wish I can meet.... just real ppl that understand what I will be going through. I dislike FAKE ppl that just shows that they are better/tough/ etc.. you know what I mean?! Also I would like to meet where my old friends are now. If they even still remembers me that is?! :/

Music:

kind of music tat i listen to mostly are PoP.... but I sure like to try to lsiten to new different kinds of music. Even tho My Heart Still Breaks, there's no other things that I can really do about it, just have to try my own best to lay off from the gloomy songs, that most everyone think I listen to.Posion Ivy by: F2TS ....

Movies:

too much to list it all out, but here are view titles and types that I like.Korean: Tae Guk Ki, Volcano High, The Legend Speed...etc Hong Kong: Have Ekin Cheng in it. Japanese: Scary Movies (One Missed Call, The Grudge 2)etc... American: Tokyo Drift... etc

Television:

i don't usually watch tv..... but here are some images of some television show to me is interesting...but it doesn't mean the pic that you see on the bottom. I'm talking about Korean shows, Japanese shows, or chinese shows.

Books:

onLy read boOks that can interest me ,but not much a freak of reading books. well bible is one thing that I been lookin at now.... but haven't a time to sit my butt down and take a look. i read mangaz, but only a few not all of them like some anime freaks that I know.

Heroes:

do i really have a hero nowz??? i been wondering who's my hero.. almost anyone can be my hero...especially the special one in my life... but i have to stop talking about him... if anyone even know who.. well i'll just find someone that is really can be my hero... even though i dont have a specific one there will always be one out there somewhere... so tell me that you are my hero... cause i might really need you to be my hero more than just someone simple hero... i remembered i have one but where he go???? There's a few heroes that I can see now and from the past, even though we hardly talk now. I will still remember them.I would list my friends that are my heroes, but don't really feel like it. But i really want to thank to the ones that still think I'm there friend, even though I might have change from back then. I miss the ones that I don't always get to talk to.. when I want to talk to you, you might don't wanna so what can I do? Hopin in the later times you and I can talk and get to see each other more....Here are some HEROES that I can say helped me through pretty a lot of things if I haven't met them. And also if who knows me that I have talked to about my life sorry if your pic is not here, because you guys never gave me a pic to scan it... but I will post your name up tho... Myself, Warren, My Mom,Gary, Mikey, Max,and I might have more. But I really have to see who is and you might already know yourself if yes or no.

My Blog

Happy Mother's Day!

For awhile that I have updated. All I want to say is that my life now is interestin and some what no. Anyway, Happy Mother's Day to every on of your mom. I actually want to share what I did for my mo...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Mon, 14 May 2007 10:06:00 PST

Take it Or Leave it. . . Just tell me.

Lately, I been noticing there's so many bullshit and hurt that I'm going through, each day and night as I sit down and talk to my parents, friends, and co - w...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Sat, 28 Apr 2007 10:07:00 PST

Sakura Con 2007

Hi, I haven't blog for awhile. Well, I'll say that I'll post the pictures that I took here later on, at the moment I'm trying to overcome a lot of things that I don't know what to say, but about Sakur...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Sat, 14 Apr 2007 10:59:00 PST

Unexplainable

Hi everyone! How you been? Well, for me I been trying to keep myself really busy and relax at a same time. But sure it takes time. I don't even have a time to sleep that much anymore, but I still try ...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Sat, 24 Mar 2007 11:05:00 PST

Schedule of my daily life

Mondays, Wednesdays, + Fridays - working at City Year from 8:30 AM - 5:30 PM Tuesdays + Thursdays - working at City Year and have school at 7:30 - 8:45 PM &nbs...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Sat, 17 Mar 2007 08:46:00 PST

Days. . .

I been trying so hard to relax my mind and heart in any way. Slowly, just been with couple friends that I never knew I would be with. But it been for awhile, but what can else I can do. All I kno...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 12:48:00 PST

Left to Say

As I calculated my days, my birthday is coming up on the 12th. Gary is planning to do a surprise party for me, so I don't know what's up, but if you guys like to jo...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Sat, 03 Mar 2007 10:02:00 PST

My Everything, My Memories of Lunar New Year :'(

Over this week, so much have happened: (I'm not going to Gameworks for awhile) - Placing walls infront of myself to friends, because I need my own time, being alone from everything that happened throu...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Mon, 19 Feb 2007 01:10:00 PST

Over 3 weeks. . .

Over my three weeks, that things been happened. I don't know how else to say about it, just say I been really tired and overwhelmed, with a lot of things. So much have happened: &...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Sun, 11 Feb 2007 12:08:00 PST

Something. . .that touched my Heart

read one sad story from one of my friend's xanga, i would love to share, so i copy it and past on my website: it's story of regretion: Story of Regret There was this guy who believed very ...
Posted by - Super Dee - on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 11:18:00 PST