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mistress lauren

I am here for Serious Relationships and Friends

About Me

what the hell can i say here? hmm, i'm super neurotic, at times anti-social, but when i'm happy, i'm so happy it's insane. i also tend to ramble, the more you read of this, the more you'll see that. i love my girls, i love my friends, and let me say, for the record, boys just come and go like seasons.oh and please, if you're going to try and "holla" at me, at least spell things correctly, nothing irks me more than seeing "u" instead of "you." thanks.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

JOHNNY DEPP! JOHNNY DEPP, JOHNNY DEPP!!!!!!! MY GOD I MUST MEET HIM AND HOLD HIM HOSTAGE IN MY BASEMENT! I MUST HAVE HIM! I MUST!!!!!!!! eep, i mean, yea he's the closest thing i have to a hero, but not really... such a good actor, he really commits to his roles! i love him. ~~~hmm, tim burton would be an interesting person to meet... oh the fabulous dreams he must dream... ~~~joe hisaishi. he is amazing! sit me in front of a piano and have him play me a couple keys and i'll do anything he asks me. he is that good. ~~~i'd also love to meet robert smith of the cure because hello, he rocks so hard! yea! plus he started the whole "gothic" movement, whether he admits to it or not, and i respect a person who can influence so many people all over the world. ~~~i WISH i could have met jim morrison. because duh, he is a freaking revolutionary, and a kick ass poet and musician. also apply that to janis joplin, john lennon, and elvis just because he's elvis. ~~~yea.... i also like pretty people. i guess i'm superficial. i just like pretty things. i don't interact well with people sometimes. once i delve down past the surface, i usually don't like what i find and i move on. i don't mean to be so distant... i really don't...

My Blog

the show is over, say good bye

it's really the end of an era. it's all over between us, every single thing. i can't be open with you and you aren't being truthful with me. and it's just ....the end. it's the end and it hu...
Posted by on Mon, 18 Aug 2008 05:09:00 GMT

i hate this song

so i heard your stupid band on the radio today, my how they've gotten popular.  remember when you first introduced me to them? probably not. i'm the only one stupid enough to still think of that&...
Posted by on Thu, 14 Aug 2008 07:43:00 GMT

words are meaningless without actions to back them

you, among others, asked me once, why didn't i open up more and let people in. if i remember correctly, i freaked out and cursed you out. but now i'm ready to tell you my answer, now, when you do...
Posted by on Wed, 16 Jul 2008 18:59:00 GMT

spinning in circles

ever get the feeling that you're just kinda drifting through life, unattached? no connections, no earth beneath your feet. it's the scariest, yet most freeing thing i've ever felt. and while i do...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Jun 2008 17:39:00 GMT

my life is broken

i don't get it... i really don't get it. it's getting better, it's healing up so nicely, all pretty-pretty. but i still can't smile. i still can't look myself in the mirror and accept it all. and i wi...
Posted by on Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:24:00 GMT

come crying to me and i’ll laugh at you

ya know, i was talking to someone recently, i won't call them a friend per-say, i'd say more of an aquaintance; and you know what, he really pissed me off. i can't stand people who mope for no good re...
Posted by on Thu, 29 May 2008 23:10:00 GMT

youre gonna throw it all away with no hesitation

why is it that just when i've given up on you, you come in and make me remember why i like you all over again. i'm ready to let it go, be the bigger person, and i can't. you won't let me. i thought i ...
Posted by on Sat, 10 May 2008 02:21:00 GMT

you stupid girl

it really would be stupid of me to cry over you now, especially with the way we parted. but i'm about 2 minutes away from bawling, just in case you were wondering. i was reading some old notes, a...
Posted by on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 01:41:00 GMT

open letter to someone who doesnt care anymore

this is bullshit. this is bullshit and you know it is. so why are you doing this? this isn't fair. i thought you were my friend and you cared about me but you know what, if you're too fucking busy to ...
Posted by on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 16:19:00 GMT

but you still have all of me...

only a day after my birthday and i’m in one of THOSE moods again. i really am a pessimist after all. usually i can distract myself from the negative thoughts, but it’s getting increasingly...
Posted by on Thu, 27 Mar 2008 21:31:00 GMT