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About Me

"If I tell you I'm good, you would probably think I'm boasting. If I told you that I'm not good, you would know I'm lying" Bruce Lee

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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Cool people, who can relax, chill, & not get all upset over the slightest of things, people who are real.
The Void.
She stares into the mirror, yet she does not see herself.
Seeing only empty eyes, sunken, & cold.
Vacant expressions of anger & shame.
Are all she can see. All she can feel, All that she knows.
All that she's become. Agony, is her only accomplishment. In silence she succeeds.
Cold metal glides, across soft warm skin.
Her cuts are deep, Her skin is torn, blood flows like whiskey from a shattered flask.
A steady stream of her anguish, spills from her veins.
Numb to the pain, her senses have dulled. Feeling no blade, feeling no sting.
Slowly color drains from her face. Her golden flesh turns pale.
Her breaths become shallow. Her eyes start to close.
Her pain has dissolved. Her soul can now sleep.
She feels nothing, anymore...
She is nothing, anymore.
Morgan McDowell 10-01-06..
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My Blog

Warning: Don't Blog on Ambien!!!

Well, wasn't that last half medicated blog... special? Anyway, I meant to write about the super fun time I had in the mental health facility. & kinda went off on a tangent about people who have disapp...
Posted by on Fri, 01 May 2009 21:54:00 GMT

Jobless in Aurora

Damn... I sit here, just bored. I am sick of boredom. I am sick of life. I only can blame me for this boredom... So time to try to fix it? Yea, I think so..I have been filling out online job apps last...
Posted by on Tue, 31 Mar 2009 15:35:00 GMT

Trying Something New (Yet Old...)

Well... After much deliberation, memorizing pros & cons.. I decided (along with my Dr.) that I would go back on psych meds. I started taking Seroquel again after 4, nearly 5 years.I already am noticin...
Posted by on Tue, 03 Mar 2009 19:37:00 GMT

I Never Know What To Write Here...

I know I am a negative person. I think that my entire 2008 being as bad as it was for me is a direct result of that. When someone is always thinking negative thoughts, positive things just don't happe...
Posted by on Thu, 08 Jan 2009 22:50:00 GMT

The Emo Invasion... Hits Home...

I think the world is ending...Allow me to explain why. My daughter.. *shudders* ...well I just caught her watching youtube videos of My Chemical Romance, Tokio Hotel, & Three Days Grace (not the somew...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Dec 2008 23:09:00 GMT

So I Cry??

I sit here in tears.I am not sure why really. I know this is over, it has been for a very long time. Since I hurt my back & gained weight. Since I couldn't go back to the gym, Since I didn't look like...
Posted by on Thu, 11 Dec 2008 08:09:00 GMT

Help Me, Help Myself & A Dream I Don't quite Get

I'm losing it.No, I had lost it long ago, but I feel like it's slipping even further away now. If that's even possible.I cannot take the names, the bullshit, the hatred, the lies... "We" haven't even ...
Posted by on Wed, 10 Dec 2008 00:34:00 GMT

How Am I Supposed To React to This??

Today my father (Kooldaddy on my top friends list) sent me a myspace email...His wife was looking on a Colorado adoption site & thought she found my 9 year old daughter Isis. I did't believe it at fir...
Posted by on Thu, 16 Oct 2008 21:13:00 GMT

McCain... A Maverick? Come On, Really?

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/10/05/weekinreview/05schwartz.ht ml?no_interstitialThe NationWho You Callin' a Maverick? By JOHN SCHWARTZPublished: October 4, 2008 There's that word again: maverick. In Thu...
Posted by on Tue, 07 Oct 2008 17:37:00 GMT

11 Years Today

September 5th 1997- I was pregnant with my daughter Sarah, it was her due date. I was so nervous, excited, scared, happy... You name the emotion I think I was feeling it.My "boyfriend" Rick (the only ...
Posted by on Fri, 05 Sep 2008 19:46:00 GMT