How’s life? |
Ummm....I'm 3 miles over my head in debt...I can't pay my bills...I can't file bankruptcy for complex reasons. I'm not gonna eat anymore. My house is a mess. I want my drugs back. My crazy kids love m...
Posted by Lenevan on Mon, 06 Oct 2008 02:14:00 PST |
eating disorder |
well, i have decided there is no cure for my eating disorder. i tried to eat like normal people and it didnt work. i either eat way too much or way too little. so, of the two extremes i have decided t...
Posted by Lenevan on Sun, 24 Aug 2008 11:16:00 PST |
shit |
I havent written in awhile so I will see what comes out this time. I have been a fucked up mess lately but idk why. Worries about weight, diets and binges and bouncin all over the place emotionally. I...
Posted by Lenevan on Fri, 15 Aug 2008 09:13:00 PST |
musings |
Well, I'm gettin back in the groove of single life. Not that I'm dating or looking for a man...just the whole idea of being alone and living life that way. I gotta say I just fuckin love the freedom. ...
Posted by Lenevan on Tue, 22 Jul 2008 05:02:00 PST |
Survival kickin in |
So...another man is gone. Not like I haven't been through this before. Part of me likes bein free again. Not cuz I'm a slut, sex is the last thing on my mind right now. Well, maybe not the last, but.....
Posted by Lenevan on Tue, 08 Jul 2008 11:17:00 PST |
Fuck my birthday |
I wish I was never born...
Posted by Lenevan on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 03:45:00 PST |
Shocked stupid |
So much for my happy ending, as they say. In barely over 3 months I went from thinking I had found someone to spend the rest of my life with to being alone again. It came and went so fast my head is s...
Posted by Lenevan on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 03:08:00 PST |
Breaking up.... |
Again. Makes me sick to my stomach. Again...the betrayal of not being loved by the person who was supposed to love you. Treated badly when you thought you deserved to be treated good. Put in a situati...
Posted by Lenevan on Sat, 28 Jun 2008 01:51:00 PST |
The key? |
I have a little idea...you know how fucked up my body and weight issues are, ex-anorexic and all. Well, I want to figure out how to eat normally and exercise again and feel good about myself and my bo...
Posted by Lenevan on Sat, 14 Jun 2008 03:34:00 PST |
Drinkin... |
cuz I got that wound up like a 7 day clock feeling...and its ok to be a drunk. Can't take pills or anything else, but its ok to be a fuckin drunk. That wound up feeling has to go so I am downing shots...
Posted by Lenevan on Fri, 06 Jun 2008 10:34:00 PST |
