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About Me

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i LOVE football, college football, ARKANSAS football...
whatever you want to know about me, i will tell you, all you have to do is ask.
im pretty simple, and i like it like that.
im crazy, but the good kind.
i dont care.
i dont like a lot of people, which makes me wonder if becoming a nurse was the right career choice...but i feel the need to take care of people who cant take care of themselves. this is my best and worst quality all in one.
most people think im a bitch, but its only because most people would prefer everything to be sugar-coated, and i have no time for anything but the truth. honesty is the best way to go all the time.
i like it when it rains. i LOVE it when it storms...it makes me feel alive.
when its summer i want to be out on the lake.
i drink beer.
i smoke marlboro lights. a lot of them.
i do a lot of drinking and smoking, i know the effects, so dont even try to tell me how bad it is for my health. im in my twenties, so that in itself is probably the worst thing for my health...
i say what i mean, and i mean what i say, so if you wear your feelings on your sleeve, im probably not the one to cater to your sensitive needs...
i write a lot, most of it gets blogged, and no i will never tell you who its about. if you know me, then usually you can guess...
im insanely obsessed with music, maybe not obsessed, but passionate? pretty much, music to me is like air to you...if you didnt have it, you would die.
i love with all my heart, and from the depths of my soul...but only those close to me get to see that. i dont let many people in, so dont get your hopes up.
like i said already, if you want to know anything, just ask. i may not tell you, but then again, i might =)

My Interests



Description: Your inner soul is calling for
help! Everyday you wonder why you are still
here when there is nothing left. You use to
once be a happy, loving soul, but it was
damaged by 'them' and seems like it never can
be fixed again. You've been hurt, abused, and
damned far too much for you to handle it all
anymore! No one understands you because
theyre too scared to get to know you!
You want to finally give up; just escape and
rid of all your pain. You want people to
understand, you want comfort... You tend to
bottle up all of your emotions and problems,
hoping that theyll all go away But you long
to reach out and tell that one special person
all of your feelings and troubles! But you
never seem to have that person to talk to, or
they just dont seem to want to hear you! You
like expressing yourself in many ways;
whether it be through your emotions, words,
art, or even physically. You also enjoy nice
quiet sceneries that just dazzle your mind
with awe. You want a normal and
happy life. You always feel this sense
of loneliness clouding over your head, though
surrounded by several people. None of them
know you; you feel as though no one can
relate to you. You want understanding, you
want that friend, and you want that perfect
life! Your sanctuary would probably be any
place where you can be alone and hide out,
such as your bedroom... You may be tough at
times and try to prevent yourself from crying
on the outside.... But your heart is
always crying on the inside... Try to
loosen up and have some fun! Never start
frowning because you never know who's falling
in love with your smile :)

I'd like to meet:


myself. the person i was, and the person i am i want to be keep running from each other...one day they will meet, and i will the person i should be...
ben harper, ben lee, james tylor, ray lamontagne, damien rice, jack johnson, clarence greenwood, maynard keenan, the remaining members of the doors, robert plant, jimmy page and anyone else who is an amazing musician. i want to see jimmy buffett live.
tim robbins, morgan freeman, john cusac, dermot mulroney, mark ruffalo, christopher meloni, sarah jessica parker, owen and luke wilson, kate hudson, jason lee, sean patrick flannery, dean winters, adam sandler, nick swardson, edward norton, stephen colbert, jon stewart, and seth mcfarlane...

Music:



i like music alot...let me rephrase that, i LOVE music, probably more than i will love anyone or anything in my lifetime...it is my soul. please dont ask me what type i listen to because i honestly like it all. i dont strap myself down to liking one kind because i appreciate the fact that someone can put their heart and soul out there for everyone to see and hear. live music matters all the time! so be a good human and support your local musicians.

Movies:


i like way to many to name, but my top 5 favorites are:
boondock saints
the shawshank redemption
american history x
grandmas boy
big daddy
i could watch these everyday and never get sick of them...

Television:


all the shows i like aren't on the air anymore...
oz
friends
sex and the city
the ones that still are:
family guy
law and order svu
october road
er
army wives
entourage

Books:


there isn't enough space to list all the books i have read, and the books i love...
the main two im reading right now are:
the art of war
the interpretation of dreams

Heroes:


the U.S. Army"Only Two Defining Forces Have Ever Offered To Die For You, JESUS CHRIST and the AMERICAN GI..." "One Died For Your Soul, The Other For Your Freedom!"

My Blog

guilty eyes...

i lay there thinking about the time we drove down hwy 51 and the night lit up. no rain. just the thunder. just light. you talked about how much you loved energy storms. how it made you feel ...
Posted by eRED e on Fri, 14 Mar 2008 09:24:00 PST

ben harper...

as we drove the music played, and somewhere in it i found myself... "welcome to the cruel world" played so soft i hung on every word sung, and i felt the ache you brought to me once before, and i wond...
Posted by eRED e on Sun, 09 Mar 2008 11:25:00 PST

winter dream...

when i found out the news, the first person i wanted to run to was you...and you are so far away i dont know how to reach you... sleepless nights, tossing and turning, restlessness i think and hope fo...
Posted by eRED e on Wed, 05 Mar 2008 03:24:00 PST

almost lover...

i remember the day i stood there screaming at you. standing in the rain...raindrops felt like tiny knives piercing my skin because it was freezing, and you stood still and i knew it was over... as i l...
Posted by eRED e on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 10:04:00 PST

reflection...

so i woke up this morning with a smile on my face...this for the first time in a while has been a reoccuring theme the past few weeks...i know every new year someone says "this is going to be my year....
Posted by eRED e on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 09:21:00 PST

michigan...

sometimes i think i want to say something, but im not sure...not sure if its the lack of knowledge or the distance...i find myself wondering, sometimes, what your doing...and will i ever get to know y...
Posted by eRED e on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 12:02:00 PST

how much i love you...

the time spent together, means so much... you constantly ask me why...because thats how it is, is all i can answer... you want to know so much, and i wish i could be the one to teach you... i wish you...
Posted by eRED e on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 08:48:00 PST

silent affection...

as i look at you i think about how you look at me, how it seems that you look right through me. the way you look in my eyes and speak silent affection.i think about the way you brush the hair out of m...
Posted by eRED e on Sat, 22 Dec 2007 06:24:00 PST

final destination...

as i take a step off the plane im hit with the bitter cold, and i know this is how it must feel in your heart...cold and bitter. as im told to be nice, i remind myself its not worth it, and i continue...
Posted by eRED e on Wed, 19 Dec 2007 12:55:00 PST

say goodnight, not goodbye...

is it cold where you are? can you feel the rain on your face? do you hear the birds sing in the morning, and the quiet of the night? some things are so hard to do, but so easy to say. its easy for me ...
Posted by eRED e on Tue, 11 Dec 2007 10:41:00 PST