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I'M LIKE AN OLD WINE THAT EVERYBODY TRIES TO COPY BUT CAN'T QUITE GET THAT TASTE, DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? TOO MANY PEOPLE CHEAT AND TAKE THE CREDIT FOR SOMETHING THEY HAVEN'T DONE. BUT I CAN SEE THROUGH IT. I SEE IF IT'S FALSE......I'VE ALWAYS BEEN A REBEL. I NEVER DO THINGS THE WAY THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO BE DONE. EITHER I GO IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION OR I CREATE A NEW DIRECTION FOR MYSELF, REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE RULES ARE OR WHAT SOCIETY SAYS... IF YOU'RE OUT THERE YOU'RE VULNERABLE. PEOPLE PREFER TO DISAPPEAR IN LIFE, TO REPRESS THEIR PERSONALITY. THAT'S NOT LIVING. IT'S DYING. I SEE THEM ALL OVER THE PLACE, THE WALKING DEAD. MEN ARE TERRIFIED OF ME. I CAN EASILY STEP INTO HIS SHOES, AND THAT PUTS THE MAN IN A POSITION WHERE HE HAS TO BECOME THE FEMALE. THAT'S WHAT SETS OFF THE TENSION. BUT MY IMAGE IS SUPPOSED TO FRIGHTEN MEN - SO ONLY THE GOOD ONES COME THROUGH SURVIVAL IS MY PRIMARY INSTINCT. I'LL DO ANYTHING. IT?S OUT OF MY CONTROL. IT?S STRONGER THAN ME. IT?S AN OUTSIDE FORCE, A VOICE THAT SAY'S DO THIS FOR YOUR LIFE OR IT WILL DEVOUR YOU?... I WASN'T BORN THIS WAY. ONE CREATES ONESELF. I BELIEVE WHATEVER I DREAM. WHATEVER I DREAM, I WANT TO DO. AFTER I LEFT HOME I REALIZED THAT I WAS NOT MYSELF. WHEN DOES ONE DECIDE TO BE ONESELF? I THINK THAT'S WHAT IT ALL COMES DOWN TO. I DECIDED FIRST TO DISCOVER LIFE AND THEN DECIDE WHAT I WANTED FROM LIFE - WHAT MADE ME HAPPY, WHAT WAS EASY FOR ME. YOU SEE, WHATEVER ONE IS, ONE MUST FIRST KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT ONESELF....PHOTOGRAPHERS OFTEN MEET ME AND SAY I STILL HAVEN'T SEEN A PICTURE OF YOU THAT LOOKS LIKE YOU?, AS IF THEY FEEL THEY ARE THE ONE TO DO IT. PERHAPS I JUST HAVE ONE OF THOSE FACES. PERHAPS THE ABILITY TO SEE ONESELF THROUGH SOMEONE ELSE'S EYES IS A KIND OF SIXTH SENSE..... I WAS BORN TO BE A STAR. ONCE I DECIDED TO ACCEPT THAT RESPONSIBILITY I WOULD NOT BE PLACED IN ANY MOLD THAT WAS LIMITING AGAIN...... IT DOESN'T SURPRISE ME THAT PEOPLE CAN?T SEE BEYOND MY IMAGE. IT'S AMAZING BUT I CAN UNDERSTAND IT. THAT'S WHAT IMAGE IS FOR. BUT IT'S NEVER A PROBLEM FOR ME. IT'S ONLY A PROBLEM FOR THEM. I DON'T REALLV CARE. I DO WHAT I WANT REGARDLESS.....SOCIETY CHANGES. WE STILL SAY 'SEX DRUGS AND ROCK AND ROLL' AND YET I GO TO A PRIVATE PARTY AND FEEL I HAVE TO ASK PERMISSION TO SMOKE A CIGARETTE. I DON'T, OF COURSE. I?M NOT GOING TO PUT THAT PRESSURE ON MYSELF. IF SOMEONE HAS A PROBLEM THEY CAN COME AND TELL ME. ONCE I WAS OUT OF THE FORMULA OF SCHOOL OR A NINE TO FIVE I CREATED MY OWN HOURS. I AM NOCTURNAL. FOR ME CREATIVITY COMES AT NIGHT. THERE'S SOMETHING NEW ABOUT NIGHT. IT HAS A DIFFERENT ENERGY. NIGHT'S A VOID I CAN CREATE IN.... I GET BORED. I PROVOKE THINGS TO HAPPEN WITHOUT EVEN REALIZING IT. I JUST FOLLOW MY INSTINCTS. I DON'T THINK ABOUT IT, REALLY.... I MOVE AROUND A LOT. SITTING STILL IS LIKE BEING NARROW MINDED - THERE ARE OTHER AREAS, OTHER COUNTRIES, THERE?S A WHOLE WORLD OUT THERE... WHAT I'LL BE IN THE FUTURE IS A STORY ONLY GOD CAN TELL. A PLANE COULD FALL ON MY HEAD RIGHT NOW. IF IT DOES I'M HAPPY THAT WHAT I'VE DONE HAS A FUTURE. I'M CONTENT WITH THAT.....I WILL STILL BE PUTTING MY MAKE UP ON WHEN I?M SIXTY. I'LL BE WRITING - MY SONGS ARE LIKE LITTLE STORIES. I'LL BE LIVING IN PARIS. IT'S AN OLDER CULTURE. THERE IS NO JUDGMENT IN PARIS. IT'S THE ONLY PLACE I CAN BE TRULY COMFORTABLE. IN AMERICA, MY GOD, THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT NOSTALGIA BEFORE THEY'RE EVEN OLD. I'LL BE HAVING A BALL IN WHATEVER I MAY DO!!!! {} Layout made by Topangachick .linkback_topleft { position: absolute; top: 0px; left: 0px; } .r{}