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About Me

Once a cheater...always a cheater.
So I'm only kind of a bitch.
I make my own problems while blaming other people.
I lie cheat steal talk shit and it only gets worse.
I obviously dont try hard enough.
Nothing can save me. And i intend on sticking to that theory.
I have many of those by the way.
I only tell u as much as i want u to kno but i hint off at the rest.
If u dont take the hints i get pissed.
I'm on prozac for multiple reasons.
Two of which would be my self pity and anger.
I throw a life long Pity Party...but dont worry...ur all invited.
I pretty much hav no frends.
If i let u get close to me its only so i can hurt u.
I dont understand the way i think so dont bother trying 2 get me.
I do things soley bc i want 2.
My little sister is my favorite.
I'm smarter than i want to be.
Sometimes I'm too nice.
Other times I'm not.
If u piss me off...i will hit u. So dont even try it.
I'm stronger than i look.
The only emotion i hav the majority of the time is spastic/happy.
I cant cry...even if i need 2.
U probably hate me...and I understand y.
I play stupid...but not the dumb blonde type.
If u hint off at things ill pretend i dont get it just 2 get u 2 say it... bc i kno i can make u.
I always get my way...and if u try 2 make it otherwise...i will hit u.
I contradict myself...alot.
If i randomly bitch u out...i hav a reason...yea it may not b a good 1...but in my mind it is.
All i want...is to be happy...but i dont kno how...
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

so this is me
ur average hump-anything-bored-as-hell-ima-hav-fun-anyway teenager =)

.."660099" size="6" this just so happens 2 b my little sister aliyah

god help her she says the funniest shit at the akwardest times

but she always makes me laff
sarah

is like the long lost child that u never found.

i dont kno all her litlte theories on life

but maybe i will some day

.."660099" size="6"tori

shes so determined 2 find edward that i really think she will one day

or maybe he'll find her...

.."660099" size="6"toro

i remember 1st talkin 2 u at hanover

i took it peace pin and u were all giv it bak and i was all no so i put it in my fist and the sharp part poked me

and in my bathroom on the floor

putting nail polish on silverware bc im jewish

crying next 2 u

it was the saddest thing ever

im so sorry 4 that

but i miss u

.."660099" size="6"ambers a silly emo kid

she has a thing for doing bad shit but its always fun w/ her

i miss her 2...

.."660099" size="6"and this is momy

she was my best frend since 7th grade

weve ben thru sum hard shit but she was always there for me with the broken A.C., sneaking out, my virginity loss, triple c's

she was there 4 everything

and the only thing i regret

was losing her.../

My Blog

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i hav no self control.i cant just stop.i hav no will power.if i culd stop, i wuld hav.a long time ago.but i cant.and i hate myself 4 it.i kno my best frend will stik by me.no mater how stupid i am or ...
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Wed, 05 Jul 2006 11:14:00 PST

more unfinished.

i can make myself forget what i look like.minor details become a blur.major details fade away.until everything goes black.
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Fri, 30 Nov 2007 05:32:00 PST

unfinished.

wet hair.dry clothes.cold feet.smile."hey baby." cigarette.only half.flick away.into nothing.secluded street.drive in the middle.just because,u kno u can....
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Fri, 30 Nov 2007 05:32:00 PST

im sorry

Momy im sick. I need to go away for a while. Im not normal like everyone. And sometimes that's ok. But not 2day. Devi's bad. She has no friends anymore. Everybody hates Devi. And it's all her fault. M...
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Thu, 22 Nov 2007 09:55:00 PST

"spoiled little bitch"

[mental] breakdown[mental] hospital[mental] illnessreality hits [hard.]shaking [uncontrollably.]thinking [cant.]admit [ur rong.]apologize [2 late.]theres no going back [ever.]drop out? [2 young.]die? ...
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Thu, 22 Nov 2007 09:05:00 PST

seeing you cry.

you're so caught up in your own oblivion.you don't c people around u hurting and crying out for help.you don't c pain.you see what u wana see.if something's wrong u look away.oblivious like the blind....
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Sat, 17 Nov 2007 06:42:00 PST

u got cigarettes on ur breath.

it starts off decent.a simple fone call after weex of silence.sure we can hang out.its good at first.drinks, smoke, frends, fun.sneaking out.getting caught.but it was still fine.buy more drinks.drive ...
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Sat, 17 Nov 2007 05:36:00 PST

theres nothing here.

doesnt know.doesnt care.take it slow.after all,we just met. but the games r so fun.let me play and ill show u.ull like my games 2.i promise....
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Fri, 16 Nov 2007 06:03:00 PST

like it matters

scalp bruised from the hits and hair pulling.scratches on her face from the stupid fights.y cant her family just b normal.stupid cops.stupid reasons.little fights,gone bad....
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Fri, 16 Nov 2007 04:46:00 PST

what did you expect from me?

i want:to get high,to get fucked up,to be single,to be happy. i need:a guy,a dependable guy,drugs. i have:nothing that i need,nothing that i want,nothing at all. its crazy wut drugs do to people.its c...
Posted by [devi] sex fiend on Mon, 12 Nov 2007 03:10:00 PST