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Ryan

Hope is the last thing a person does before they are defeated.

About Me

Go ISU I am A huge Fan. I love my BEAUTIFUL wife and Starting a new life with Her. I hate Fake People!!!!“Why do you think the old stories tell of men who set out on great journeys to impress the gods? Because trying to impress people just isn't worth the time and effort.” It'll destroy you if you try to make anything mean anything to anyone but yourself. There are so many hammocks to catch you if you fall, so many laws to keep you from experience. All these cities I have been in the last few weeks make me fully understand the cozy, stifling state in which most people pass through life. I don't want to pass through life like a smooth plane ride. All you do is get to breathe and copulate and finally die. I don't want to go with the smooth skin and the calm brow. I hope I end up a blithering idiot cursing the sun - hallucinating, screaming, giving obscene and inane lectures on street corners and public parks. People will walk by and say, "Look at that drooling idiot. What a basket case." I will turn and say to them "It is you who are the basket case. For every moment you hated your job, cursed your wife and sold yourself to a dream that you didn't even conceive. For the times your soul screamed yes and you said no. For all of that. For your self-torture, I see the glowing eyes of the sun! The air talks to me! I am at all times!" And maybe, the passers by will drop a coin into my cup.” Henry Rollins.

My Interests

I like to Play the Bass. Learning Guitar. Snowmobiles, Guns, Music (all Sorts) Mainly if it has heart behind it and a good message! I also like to spend money on shit that wont do me no good in a few Years or days in most cases.

I'd like to meet:

Lyrics for "the sun flowers the sun sets" i raise this broken halo to the sky this is the storm that strands me here stopped waiting for that golden ship to rescue me this is the only age that i know how to be still make pretend i'm in the movie of my life stopped looking for the key that opens all the doors these broken fingers keep me from holding on too tight i turned and looked away from the angels face still stomp through puddles while the world spins beneath my feet stopped waiting for a golden ship to rescue me never wanted to know what will happen next i wonder how you can stand knowing what each new day will bring i think about art and i think about madness and are they truely joined at the hip was it Van Gogh who was crazy of the world that is crazy if i could touch the face of the gods i'd trade my ear so i ran all the way home to read the words carved in cement by my house (it says) live the life that you love love the life that you live but id rather have a penny for everytime it told me NO i shoot these flaming arrows at the flag and say denydenydeny if thats what gets you through like the night we ran through the Audi dealership smashing windshields an absolutely pointless and immature act but it quieted our minds at a time when everything and everyone (the setting sun) was asking WHY? why are we here but i'm pretty sure now that i will never know ..

Music:

Norma Jean, Atreyu, The Red Chord, Walls of Jericho, Earth Crisis, Zao, The Chariot, As I lay Dying, My Children My Bride, Devil Driver and Stevie Wonder

Movies:

Saw, fight club, the Villiage

Television:

Jay Leno, Football, A little baseball, Meerkat Manor

Books:

Green Eggs and Ham, The Ugly Duckling, The Monster at the End of this Book, The Giving Tree, All The Berenstein Bears Books You get the Point

Heroes:

Henry Rollins