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craig

crmac50

About Me

he says alot of it pretty well:
"Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light."
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey

Name: craig
Birthday: november 9th, 1984
Birthplace: schenectady, NY
Current Location: schenectady
Eye Color: hazel
Hair Color: umm, i think it's called dirty blonde
Height: 5'9"
Right Handed or Left Handed: both
Your Heritage: half-irish, quarter italian, quarter bunchashit
The Shoes You Wore Today: new balance sneakers
Your Weakness: just one? mild social anxiety disorder
Your Fears: losing a finger/hand/limb
Your Perfect Pizza: buffalo chicken is the best
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get into suny albany and get working on either a poly sci or english degree
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: umm, indeed?
Thoughts First Waking Up: oh my god this sucks
Your Best Physical Feature: AAAHAHAHA
Your Bedtime: 3am
Your Most Missed Memory: too many
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: both have their pros and cons
Single or Group Dates: i can't say i've ever really dated
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: don't care either way
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: depends on my mood/tiredness
Do you Smoke: occasionally
Do you Swear: oh fuck yes (trite i know..)
Do you Sing: all the time
Do you Shower Daily: haha, i try to...
Have you Been in Love: i think so
Do you want to go to College: in it
Do you want to get Married: definitely
Do you belive in yourself: depends on what it's in regard to
Do you get Motion Sickness: not easily
Do you think you are Attractive: we'll see in 30 pounds
Are you a Health Freak: i'm trying to become one
Do you get along with your Parents: most of the time, i think they miss me alot
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes, for so many reasons...
Do you play an Instrument: a few
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: oh yes
&..39;In the past month have you Smoked:' oh yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: umm, that sounds a bit harsh..one of the 3 i've ever used including alcohol and tobacco yeah
In the past month have you gone on a Date: AAHAHAHA
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yeah
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: omfg no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: nope
In the past month have you been on Stage: in my mind...
In the past month have you been Dumped: need to be in a relationship for that to occur
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: HAHA who wants to see that shit
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: umm, i guess it would be stealing...
Ever been Drunk: lots of times
Ever been called a Tease: not seriously
Ever been Beaten up: as in one on one fight? no
Ever Shoplifted: yeah...only once that i can recall though
How do you want to Die: i'm not sure, i've been suicidal, but in my right mind a true lack of consciousness scares me, so quick i guess.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: in my heart, a successful musician, in my head, a political science professor or a writer
What country would you most like to Visit: ireland
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue or green
Favourite Hair Color: dark
Short or Long Hair: both can be sexy
Height: preferrably a little shorter than me
Weight: beautiful women come in all shapes and sizes, but they at least have to have their natural curves intact. past that, i find girls with strong, thick athletic legs to be extremely sexy
Best Clothing Style: NOT URBAN...moderate gothic attire is sexy, earthy hippie relaxed look is appealing to my soul, but a girl in denim shorts and a white t-shirt is always a solid look
Number of Drugs I have taken: 3, including alcohol and tobacco, i always stay away from anything in powder or syringe form
Number of CDs I own: i'm not really sure, they aren't organized. 25-50 probably
Number of Piercings: none
Number of Tattoos: none, but soon i hope
Number of things in my Past I Regret: alot. i wouldn't be trying so hard to change who i am now if i didn't. and everybody regrets. we make mistakes, we're human. things rarely work out the way we want them to. missed opportunities, broken relationships, decisions that affected you for the worse, bad habits that got in the way, it doesn't matter what it is. if you claim you don't you're either a cold-hearted user who's never let yourself be vulnerable or a fucking liar.
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My Interests

i play guitar and some limited bass and drums, i like discussing philosophy, politics, poetry, and music...i spend alot of my down time playing computer games and looking up lyrics on the internet, and i think about everything. alot.

I'd like to meet:



Music:

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Your Life: The Soundtrack
Opening credits: the verve- bittersweet symphony
Waking up: counting crows- hangin around
Average day: Theory of a Deadman - I'm hating Hollywood
First date: van morrison - moondance
Falling in love: counting crows - accidentally in love
Love scene: norah jones - come away with me
Fight scene: Static-X - Start a War
Breaking up: Theory of a Deadman - No Surprise
Getting back together: James Taylor - Don't let me be lonely tonight
Secret love: counting crows - a murder of one
Life's okay: James Taylor - Carolina in my Mind
Mental breakdown: Mudvayne - Dig
Driving: ZZ top - Tush
Learning a lesson: Third Eye Blind - God of Wine
Deep thought: Tool - Reflection
Flashback: CCR - Fortunate Son
Partying: Led Zeppelin - Rock & Roll
Happy dance: Men Without Hats - The Safety Dance
Regreting: U2 - One
Long night alone: Roy Orbison - Only the Lonely
Death scene: Shinedown - .45
Closing credits: Oasis - Champagne Supernova
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Movies:

robin williams is my favorite actor and i like the majority of the movies he's been in, but as far as all time favorites:Punch drunk love, adaptation, braveheart, SPR, what dreams may come, dopamine, casablanca, LOTR movies, sin city, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, awakenings, passion of the christ (i'm no christian, but it's powerful stuff, only saw it once, that was enough), space balls, first three star wars movies, lost in translation, and much more...

Television:

family guy, american dad, futurama, the daily show, fuse, anytime i can watch bush make an ass of himself, the house of commons of c-span (good times, british politicians fricken throw down), stand-ups on comedy central

Books:

the dark elf trilogy will forever be ingrained in my brain, the original dragonlance novels, the Tao of Pooh, which has served as a guid to contentment for me in battered times, and lies: and the lying liars that tell them by Al franken. an inspirational look at the rhetoric of right wing politics, and how so many are led to believe so much that isn't true. left or right, facts are facts, and this book uses them in spades to show logical inconsistencies, fallacious arguments, and outright lies by faces on the right. while this is hardly the limit of my literary parlance, these are the few that stick out in my head currently.

Heroes:

robin williams for having the power to make me laugh and to make me cry, christopher walken for having the balls to make a living off being wierd and quietly disturbing but at the same time amusing, zakk wylde because he plays guitar like an animal, stevie ray vaughan beacuse he plays guitar like a god, zach de la rocha for having the courage and the motivation to speak out when so many choose to turn in, maynard james keenan for his ability to offer insight into the darker pieces of my soul as well as the shape of my most confusing emotions, and gene's mom, for having an inner strength that hides a lifetime of sorrows, and that fortifies a giving spirit, while at the same time being such that it can only be felt and experienced rather than seen by the naked eye. a true inspiration, and a loving human being.

My Blog

HAPPI NESS

hell i'm drunk and i know nobody reads this, so i'll copy and paste a rant on something i consider to be like a bowl of sunshine being poured over the heads of puppies and kittens playing gaily with b...
Posted by craig on Sat, 06 Oct 2007 10:12:00 PST

rofl poepwned.

it is ingram, mach 3emotional penitentiarythe door jams with body slamsand moisture running freei've cast a shell of private screamsand wound up ev...
Posted by craig on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 11:46:00 PST

meh.

inside the comfort of a bubbling feeldown the throat of my souli feel a comforting feari've been here so many times beforei've been here so many times, i knowbut it's always what i need,feelings insid...
Posted by craig on Sat, 08 Sep 2007 10:41:00 PST

i am/was controversial. apparently.

after getting particularly drunk with some friends teusday night at a bar, we had the usual joy-filled conversations involving reminiscence and camaraderie that tend to follow from a night of debauche...
Posted by craig on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 01:35:00 PST

jack2

May 8, 2003dear cassandra,i know that you feel like i'm avoiding you.  the truth is i might be a little bit, but it really has nothing at all to do with you.  the other night i was reading a...
Posted by craig on Wed, 30 May 2007 11:44:00 PST

jack

jack's body was vibrating involuntary, shaking, and he couldn't stop.  being around her felt like someone was running an electrical current through his body and stabbing him in the leg at the sam...
Posted by craig on Mon, 28 May 2007 12:55:00 PST

from a woman's pain

oh that feelthat awful terrible strangeness of iti was a lamb and you were a shepherdto the memory a stranger could not have rememberedyou were wanton blasphemeand it was i who was overbut the tell-ta...
Posted by craig on Fri, 18 May 2007 01:43:00 PST

in the siren song of midnight

bitch, i am pleasure bound to aggravate youi could rock you steady to the beat of a new wavebut the mood is prehensile and we're drawing strawsgirl, the inside is bound to terrify youi bounce ideas of...
Posted by craig on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 11:51:00 PST

existentialism and the theory of knowledge

the following is a conversatoin with one josh rimmer.  take from it what you will:Crmac50: i may sound like a hippie but i've always been aware, or at least observed emotionally, the subtle energ...
Posted by craig on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 01:04:00 PST

the male condition (a short)

I smash his head through the glass-plated windows of the front door to the store.  I can hear her sobbing in the background.  He pulls his head back and staggers out the door.  As he re...
Posted by craig on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 10:16:00 PST