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I am here for Friends

About Me

I am not 17 ,I've never ever sang a love song. Quiet, Please! lucky number 34.
Victoria Anne Derickson is without
a doubt my best friend. I love her
with all my heart <333

....and then what?
when i was younger i stood against any injustice. any reason to fight, to stand up, i took. but i knew then and i know now it was just a test to make sure i really did exist. i really did matter. that it matters when someone speaks up rather than hides.and then for years i avoided all that sort of confrontation. you cant change anyone. nothing makes a lasting difference. no one knows anyone.but this place is falling apart. and people just walk all over other people. and apathy is getting to everybody. and i'm so tired of it.i am drinking alone.and my friends i can count on one hand. and lately i just think that i'd rather that hand be a fist. always be a fist.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

but that's what wishing is for ; things you don't expect, but hope for, and sometimes get.

My Blog

i am myself now.

i made the decision about 2 minutes ago that i hate all of my friends. i hate all of you.go fuck off and die. i am my own friend.ive changed  so fuck you if you ever doubted me.fuck you if you ever hu...
Posted by on Sun, 18 Jan 2009 15:49:00 GMT

so...

i want someone.   someone who understands me.   someone who loves me.   someone i can share a ciggarette with.   someone. find her
Posted by on Tue, 06 Jan 2009 19:52:00 GMT

why am i here?

ive been thinking alot lately,   just about everything,  i hate this place so much.   i just hate it. i wanna be alone. everyone around me makes me feel this way.   they dont unde...
Posted by on Tue, 06 Jan 2009 05:17:00 GMT

Another blog about being alone on christmas.

Everyones out for christmas but its the last place i wanna be,
Posted by on Thu, 25 Dec 2008 04:11:00 GMT

friends

HA ive been complaining about my friends alot lately. so i decided..   well actually i decided this a while ago but im actually going to practice this now. i dont have many friends.   m...
Posted by on Wed, 17 Dec 2008 02:56:00 GMT

little bites

i think im bipolaror whatever you doctors want to call it.haa "mental illness"that term makes  me so angry when i hear it.why do i have to be labeled because i think differentl.y?ya im weird, but i ac...
Posted by on Tue, 09 Dec 2008 19:34:00 GMT

time

time doesnt exist.its something we humans made up as a safe guard.we cant live without order.i can.i will.i have.i am."all good things must come to end"thats the dumbest fucking statement I've ever he...
Posted by on Tue, 18 Nov 2008 04:03:00 GMT

change

Ive been realizing over the past few weeks i don't have as many friends as i thought i did,i could tell you exactly when it started, but what would that accomplish?but you know what?the feeling that i...
Posted by on Thu, 13 Nov 2008 04:10:00 GMT

lucid thought

sometimes,  when im on the verge of falling asleep i  realize how alone i am,   then i start to hallucinate. i imagine that there are people around me talking, and i talk back even thou...
Posted by on Sun, 02 Nov 2008 06:10:00 GMT

religion

Ive spent most of my life being herded like a sheep to believe what my parents tell me. Both my father and my Mother are born again Christians. I made the decision about a year ago to quit calling mys...
Posted by on Mon, 06 Oct 2008 02:42:00 GMT