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Nikki

About Me


Your boyfriend thinks about me naked...
She spends her time drawing, drinking coffee and working jobs she could do in her sleep.
She's the girl everyone wants to know and she has no idea..... Andrew Mcmahon
A VALEDICTION FORBIDDING MOURNING.
AS virtuous men pass mildly away,
And whisper to their souls to go,
Whilst some of their sad friends do say,
"Now his breath goes," and some say, "No."
So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move ;
'Twere profanation of our joys
To tell the laity our love.
Moving of th' earth brings harms and fears ;
Men reckon what it did, and meant ;
But trepidation of the spheres,
Though greater far, is innocent.
Dull sublunary lovers' love
—Whose soul is sense—cannot admit
Of absence, 'cause it doth remove
The thing which elemented it.
But we by a love so much refined,
That ourselves know not what it is,
Inter-assurèd of the mind,
Care less, eyes, lips and hands to miss.
Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to aery thinness beat.
If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two ;
Thy soul, the fix'd foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if th' other do.
And though it in the centre sit,
Yet, when the other far doth roam,
It leans, and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.
Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th' other foot, obliquely run ;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun. ...
"After a while you learn the subtle differences between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure....that you really are strong, and you really do have worth."
Veronica A. Shoffstall

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The first time I walked With a girl, I was twelve, Cold, and weighted down With two oranges in my jacket. December. Frost cracking Beneath my steps, my breath Before me, then gone, As I walked toward Her house, the one whose Porch light burned yellow Night and day, in any weather. A dog barked at me, until She came out pulling At her gloves, face bright With rouge. I smiled, Touched her shoulder, and led Her down the street, across A used car lot and a line Of newly planted trees

Until we were breathing Before a drugstore. We Entered, the tiny bell Bringing a saleslady Down a narrow aisle of goods. I turned to the candies Tiered like bleachers, And asked what she wanted - Light in her eyes, a smile Starting at the corners Of her mouth. I fingered A nickle in my pocket, And when she lifted a chocolate That cost a dime, I didn’t say anything. I took the nickle from My pocket, then an orange, And set them quietly on The counter. When I looked up, The lady’s eyes met mine, And held them, knowing Very well what it was all About.Outside, A few cars hissing past, Fog hanging like old Coats between the trees. I took my girl’s hand In mine for two blocks, Then released it to let Her unwrap the chocolate. I peeled my orange That was so bright against The gray of December That, from some distance, Someone might have thought I was making a fire in my hands.

My Blog

BLaH

 i hate stupid people good thing......... ................... life starts soon try not ....~~~~~~ to BEE..... late the end
Posted by on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 01:03:00 GMT

To anyone with a penis....

This will be an educational experience, I promise. I am extremely tired of smiling and nodding while listening to a man list reasons as to why he doesn't want a relationship.  How does one react...
Posted by on Mon, 28 Jul 2008 19:52:00 GMT

He had me at Deja Entendu

I've been up since 5am. I went into work today only to find that I don't have to be in until 7am tomorrow. Oh Darn. Fuck that job straight to hell. I wandered around a majority of the morning. I got a...
Posted by on Mon, 21 Jul 2008 12:34:00 GMT

Friendship on fire

It’s been pouring all day. Funny, that how I feel inside. Like a big fucking rainstorm. Truth is I’m really happy with my life right now. There are things about it that aren’t perfec...
Posted by on Mon, 31 Mar 2008 12:35:00 GMT

English

So recently I have unwillingly become everyone's punching bag. The recipient of a lot of misplaced anger and hurt feelings. It has just hit me from all angles and I've been so tired of it. Normally, t...
Posted by on Mon, 28 Jan 2008 20:26:00 GMT

Oh to be in love

and have that person love you back.   life wouldn't be as interesting if it were that easy.   don't bother i'll be busy........................................................ .../;SDKHcaioh...
Posted by on Tue, 25 Dec 2007 19:48:00 GMT

Lunch at work

Lunchtime and I'm on a computer... Shoot me! I'll be 25 in 5 days and I'm freaking out. Where did time go? Why do I feel like I'm only 16? I just feel old and behind on where I thought I would b...
Posted by on Thu, 18 Oct 2007 09:49:00 GMT

this blows

I wish that my life was a little less complicated then it has been. Today I just feel so completely drained and unhappy. Life at home is difficult, but then when has it been easy? I've always wondered...
Posted by on Mon, 08 Oct 2007 16:05:00 GMT

Another Miserable Experience

The other night this weird thing happened. I was talking to this person. Someone strong, handsome, smart, talented... and suddenly he became human. Telling me things I somehow already knew. Telling me...
Posted by on Sun, 07 Oct 2007 17:43:00 GMT

Reasons Why Stupid People Shouldn’t Drink

  First off, girls.... if you are going to get drunk and do the nasty with some stranger... Please refrain from doing so in the ONE bathroom everyone else is using. Second, try to keep your clot...
Posted by on Sat, 06 Oct 2007 00:23:00 GMT