My name is Jessica Chavez. I'm 18 years old and I'm a proud mommy of my baby gurl Estelle. She is 10 months old. I just graduated from Cibola High School, and I go to AWC. Yes, Yes, I'am a very busy person, but I like it, because its like being a rolemodel to others. Just because I'm a mommy, it doesn't mean I don't have to give up school, stop putting on make up, and dressing nice, I just don't understand why some moms are like that. It's like they give up on themselves, it sux. But I'm not like that, I still like to do things for myself like I use to. I even work out again! But anyways , ever since I had my baby all my world has changed...and in such a positive way! I actually don't think I would be here today if she didn't exist. She's my whole entire world! I would listen to other mothers say that there's this little chemistry magic kinda feeling when you look at your baby. Like you can communicate with them somehow. I thought it was all bogus...until Estelle came along. It is so weird because I'll be at work and I can feel her crying! So I call to check up on her, and sure enough she wants a bottle. Or when I'm holding her and I get goosebumps...she'll move around like a little worm,lol. Even when I'm scared or sad she'll want to cry. But most recently...and most of you are going to think I'm crazy, but I think I can feel her dad's feelings coming in through her to me. It's just some kind of vibe that I get, it is sooo wierd! Well anyways....I just thought I would let everyone know that,lol. And that I love my baby Estelle with all of my heart, she's the best thing ever!
Another great part of my life is my wonderful fiance Mr.Ramon Ojeda. The best guy ever! I met him the summer after 8th grade. We talked for a while and got together September 10, 2002. The date that I will, of course, never forget. He means everything to me. We have been to hell and back, but we've managed to keep things going very well. I just love him with all of my heart, and no matter what happens, I know that we will always love each other. He's everything to me! And I just want to let him know that these 3 years and 10 months has been the best experience of my life, and I would not change one bit of it. We all need to learn from each other to be better, right daddy? I love you with all my heart! muahs!
This is beautiful..........................
When times seem hard or tough just remember
Mommys don't always know what to do
Just do your best and show your love
It's part of this job that's so new
If I cry when you put me down
It's only because I love being held by you
When I get older and bump my knee
I'm sure you'll know what to do
Because you make me feel safe
And happy when I'm blue
Mommy I just want you to know
When I cry I'm not mad
I might not look too happy
But don't get so sad
And when you see me smile
I know you begin to understand
Cus I have a little secret
My mommy is the best a boy ever had
If I could talk I'd let you know
That no matter what times aren't that bad
When I was in your tummy I dreamed of my mommy
And you're exactly the mommy I dreamt I had
So smile when you see me
Talk to me when I cry
Know that I'll always love you
And forever be the twinke in your eye
I love you Mommy
