Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:28-30
I am the proud father of my son,
Riely Wilson Sonnier.
When I was a young boy, about three or four,
My mother’s father gave me a chore.
"Do you see this barn and the color?
We need to paint one coat, and another."
"What color, what color?!?"
"Red, of course."
My mother hollered for a change of clothes.
"Grandpa why is the paint the same that you chose?"
"Well lad, you see, red is what’s proper, just like the grass is green."
"Oh, I see."
"Well this is a full day’s work for you and me.
Lets grab our brushes and the pails.
We’ll stop for lunch and I’ll tell you tales.
But just remember pleasure comes after the work of the master,
And sleep comes after the sun."
I started to paint what looked like a disaster,
And he covered all of what I had done.
I remember getting angry and questioning him,
"Why’d you ask for help if you’d cover it again?"
"Am I too young to paint, am I not a man?"
He never really explained, he kept his brush in his hand.
And as I grew older I began to understand.
Love is letting someone help, even when it slows you down.
The young will learn that work is best, standing with four feet on the ground.
An extra hand, even the small helps the big to do it all.
I look ahead to my son being born.
I think of what I learned that day.
For all my life I’ll remember that barn, and ask my son paint.
I have an amazing partner.
Heather
I will die loving her.
Lets take a mind altering journey with our hands burning to touch, our lips waiting to feel, and our souls ready to knit. I want to keep some distance because my passion is not to be quenched. Is it not better to want with all your heart, and never be satisfied; then to have what you want only to realize that its not what you want? I want imagination, the thrill of the chase, and never the satisfaction of victory. I want to constantly be on the search for my satisfaction. The satisfaction that doesn’t come from winning the heart, keeping it for a bit, saving a piece of it forever, and moving on to a new one. I want the uncertainty of how things could of been, I don’t want to know. What I know so far, just goes to show, I don’t want to know. I just want to want, to look for what I’m missing and find it, but not take it... I just want to remember the feeling of being so close to completion, that I could see it, taste it, even have the chance to, but I don’t. I turned it down, so if ever I lost it, it wouldn’t matter because it was never there in the first place. If you never taste an apple, then how can you crave an apple. You can’t. I’ve lost love enough, I know how it feels to love, be loved, and lose love. Now all I ask for is the spark, nothing more. Just the smile, the un-awkward silence, that’s all. I want the innocence. True love. Agape love. No empty promises to make you feel good. Just truth. True love. No physical attachment, purely mental, maybe even spiritual. Relationships have two outcomes, good and bad. I just want good. I just want her. The one in my dreams. The one who’s face I cant make out. The one that when I’m with her one second in a dream, it make a thousand days more bearable. She’s all I want and I wont settle for less. Show me someone who is willing to merely talk and never touch, and I’ll hold a mirror and show them a rare treasure. It’s about connection, not perfection. I want an anchor to keep me in touch without a touch. I want her.
I am blessed abundantly by:
The Lord, Jesus Christ.
I am but a blade,
Risen from the ground,
And my dirt filled story spans the page,
Somewhere between shaky and sound,
But my glory will soon fade like a flower dying down.
For I am a man formed with dirt from foot to crown.
You must awake o' sleeper and rise from the dead,
For He that's above will shine light upon your head.
Be careful how you walk, not as unwise men,
Because the One who loves us is the beginning and the end.
He will judge us according to our hearts.
He has loved us right from the very start.
Live with purpose and leave the dark.
Everlasting life with Him is the promised best part.
These three are the reason I live.
They make up my everything.
