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Suicide watch

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About Me

To all you MySpies... if your boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, wife, lover or favorite band is here, I have already slept with them... several times... at least twice of which we were drunk and I was wearing a costume... and it was fucking great... as matter of fact he/she/they said it was the best they ever had.Between Insane and InsecureIm a quiet till you get to know me kind of person. I guess I have always felt a need to care for those in need at the same time as I cant forget the ones I've had, the ones I've loved. And love i have. I also have two beautiful kids they are 6 and 4 years old my daughter's name is Anastacia and my son's name is Jayden.They are my life my whole world is them. I'm a very unusal person. Easy to get to know. But hard to get close too.You have to be able to know that my family is small but everyone in my friends groups are my family.And each of them know that.i don't know what else to say on here.If you know me you will see what kind of person that I am.Thats all I can say about myself."Take this razor, sign your name across my wrist. So everyone will know...who left me like this""All around me are familiar faces, Worn out places, worn out faces, Bright and early for their daily races, Going nowhere, going nowhere, Hide my head i want to drown my sorrow, No tomorrow, no tomorrow"
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

People I would luv to meet are superman.......and and a famous porn star any 1.........AND MY ALL TIME BAND LINKIN PARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. I MISS U SO FUCKING MUCH I STILL WISH U WERE HERE WITH ME TO HELP ME THRU ALL MY BAD AND GOOD TIMES HELP ME WITH MY KIDS AND ALL THE HEARTACHE I HAVE BEEN GOING THRU BUT I DO KNOW THAT U R HERE IN MY HEART AND ALWAYS WILL BE (I DO LIVE U AND U WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART)

My Blog

wondering

WONDERING The words of many, Pierce the hearts of few, Floods carry their fledgling bodies away, I think I know who I am now, Dismembered by pain and rage, But you dont pierce me, As my eyes rise t...
Posted by Suicide watch on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 10:14:00 PST

control

control isnt easy for me . its a privilege for me. demanding aspects in my life. people always there never leaving me. always hard to control my emotions. never wanting others to see my pain within. m...
Posted by Suicide watch on Thu, 31 May 2007 04:12:00 PST

hurting

How do you stop reliving a moment,that happened ten years ago.Scars you've hid for so long,now they're starting to show.How do you stop the burning inside,hide bruises that won't go awayIf you know th...
Posted by Suicide watch on Thu, 24 May 2007 12:20:00 PST

my drug of choice

  I'm hookedno curecan't detoxjust euphoricwhen I take a hitofyoutastin youneedin youohand I want youfeenincravintremblincause I can'thave youalwaysand sometimes is neverenoughI thinkthis is abou...
Posted by Suicide watch on Fri, 26 Jan 2007 08:30:00 PST

FUCKED UP WHAT HAPPENED TO ME

CAN U BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED TO ME . YESTERDAY I WENT TO GO PICK UP MY POTS AND PANS FROM MY SISTERS HOUSE. AND WE ENDED UP GETTING IF TO A FIGHT IN OF OUR KIDS. SO THEY WERE CRYING AND SCREAMING AND ...
Posted by Suicide watch on Sat, 25 Nov 2006 12:34:00 PST

PRISON WALLS [POEM]

  behind these prison walls lies drug dealers and killers u think u seen shit not compared to this everyday is the same wasted days of nothing bullshit and confusion how did this happen ...
Posted by Suicide watch on Wed, 27 Sep 2006 11:44:00 PST

BITCHOLOGY

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me...
Posted by Suicide watch on Mon, 18 Sep 2006 06:56:00 PST

song i love

Make me feel Yeah, oh you make me feel, you make me feel good inside You look into my eyes, I always try to hide my tears, But you alwayssee my cries, you always see my cries Just one kiss on my lips,...
Posted by Suicide watch on Mon, 31 Jul 2006 02:51:00 PST

thoughts

your like a drug that i thought i always wanted but never really needed your the demon inside my head thats telling me to go after my drug pain i feel that your pulling & shoving me around to g...
Posted by Suicide watch on Tue, 20 Jun 2006 07:24:00 PST

weakness

i can't believe that i have this ex of mine telling me he still love's me ....... i don't get it he already had his chance with me ....and just threw it all a way....... what else should i do.......
Posted by Suicide watch on Mon, 19 Jun 2006 11:09:00 PST