01.11.09
well, all of the text below was written quite along time ago, since then i have developed some more humility and spirituality, but aside from this much of my views remain the same.
Today, i do not hold my truths to be any more realistic than anyone elses.
Today, i accept that i cannot live life stuggling to scientifically explain all phenomenea our senses interpret. I would die with an unfufilled heart.
Today i understand the difference between futility of attempting control, and the benifits of co-existance.
Today i know one day i will die, and that ill get over it when im dead.
(some time mid-2005) Fuck Religious Views of life. Arnt you aware that religion was created BY HUMANS...at a time when humans were ultimately IGNORANT of NATURAL CASUALTY. whether we can explain things like weather or not does not matter. life goes on. that does not mean one may benifit from the philosophy of theology. Having a moral sense is different than social conditioning.
[Sept.28 2006] but i have a soft side for the unexplainable in the way i am now more accepting of religion because i understand it better than i did when i was younger.
Its hard to explain now, but....there is much important data interwoven in religious history and to complete my lifes work i must approach my problem from all angles.
Think about the mayans, they had calandars that tracked not only day and night (earth cycles) but other planets, and their moons, even stars and galaxies!! and the maya had religious based ideals.
It was rare of cultures of the ancients not to believe in supreme beings infenetly more powerful than us controling forces nad phenomana we could not fathom.
And so beides my numb state of mind, and constant busy schedual i am now taking time to cultivate thoughts once again and get them down on paper (or binary code).
I am Alexander. i have an imagination only to be matched in greatness by my curiosity for the duality between phisical and spiritual. in this life, i believe the only important thing is to be happy. Eastern philosophy greatly encourages self fufillment and strengthening the link between your conscious and unconscious.
I believe if we interacted positively with an understanding for history, individuality, and cause and effect we could get along with each other so much better.. we are all in such a hurry to do these things that humans living along time ago in much differnt conditions decided to do for themselves.
Why can't we than have that same freedom, to decide for ourselves. So many people have been denyed that because of how society evolved after we became cultivized.
Now to considering all the things that have happened in the last 5000 years, the things that made what today is our "reality". We shall try and create a new way of life for ourselves on this beautiful planet.
WHY??? because life, whether we can explain it or not, is the most significant and amazing gift we will ever know in this random existance. And life will go on...
Whether you are enjoying it or not.
Ever read Nietzsche?
you should.
I play guitar, 7 years now. Classical is what i was trained in, but i play everything. Ive been writting rock n roll/alternative/Metal since i was 13 and its become something that is such a part of me as my fingers and legs are. Essential.
Joshua Reeves, one of my 3 best friends on this planet and the one i am closest connected to has been a large part of shapping who i am today. But this is because we are like a soul split in 2 bodies, evolving on their own only to meet after 13 years of life. lol hahah something like that. I dont see him much, but i regard him higher now than the day he left. We inspire each other, provoce, teach and learn. We will be together again one day and nothing will stop us from what we intend to do.
I work at Taco Hell. Its awsome, my bosses Rachel, Tammy, Steve, Nicole, FATIMA!!!! and Nick J are all fucking awsome and work really hard and are fun to work with. I work really hard and alot of the people there dont appreciate how fucking hard i work. but thats ok, becuase knowing i did my best is good enough for me.
Research of Applied Sciences There are other names for this, i forget exactly what but ill update with them. I am writting a book, "The Great Journey." and i study everything, which is an interesting field because you could spend a life doing research and never fufill yourself. Life is filled with in infinite amount of miricles and and organisms. My influences are from Einstein, Nietzsche, Aristotle and Michio Kaku to name a few.
"have you ever had dead bodies in your hometown streets?"
the point is that now, in MODERN TIMES we have EXPERIMENTAL DATA ANALYSIS which allows us to understand that things like earth and weather and life are all part of some kind of (to us humans) a linear web of events that have led up to this point.
in our human head, in ANCIENT TIMES, as we were gaining civil skills, cultural skills and eventually literary skills we looked more to develop DOCUMENTED STANDARDS OF GOVERNING LAWS or "SCIENCES" to explain the PHENOMENONA inside and out of us in everyday life.
Thus, an ULTIMATE EXPLINATION was created through thousands of years of pondering and myth development for many different regional cultures. Once things like lightning are explained, life and death, right and wrong, it eases the human mind. some level of comfort is needed to develop a society of working individuals.
RELIGION ALSO COULD be USED FOR GOVERNING AND CONTROLLING systems for the publics.
BUT now people, in the 21 fucking century why dont you wake up and smell the bullets in your fucking brain. Whether god exists or not, whether life after death exists or not, persue your own truths.
This IS LIFE. THIS IS HEAVEN AND HELL. humans created these ideas from inside their minds that percieve the horrors and miricales of life. There are more important issues on the earth right now THAN TRYING TO APPEASE A GOD THAT DOES NOT EXIST.
You wanna know something about early religion?? why people build shrines? (well for besides the obvious reason of worshiping the like-ness or their god) some Ancients (sumerian time) believed that natural disasters (such as floods) were the result of gods angered by the prosperity of humans at this time (5000BC) they also believed the gods might be less apt to destroy a building with a nice shrine built for him. REDICULOUS!!! I COULD MAKE A SET OF ENCYCLOPIDIAS OF BULLSHIT ABOUT RELIGION!!!!!
Fuck bush, and fuck all those people that can tell people not to have websites against bush and people getting phone calls listened in on. fuck all that shit. I am a pacifist at most and i still would love to see BUSH GET HIS FUCKING BRAIN blown out the back of his head. I dont give a shit. ill say what ever the fuck i want.
Decleration says the PUBLIC CAN CHOOSE TO REDESIGN GOVERNMENT SYSTEMS if nessasary. YOU PEOPLE ARE PAWNS UNLESS YOU TAKE CHARGE OF YOUR LIFE> IT IS THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT YOU WILL EVER KNOW IN YOUR EXISTANCE. dont wast consciousness.
OUR GENERATION IS SOOOOOOOOO IMPORTANT! WE WILL DECIDE WHAT TOMMOROW WILL BE LIKE! WHAT THE FUTURE SHALL HOLD FOR OUR FUCKING CHILDREN!!! AND THEIR CHILDREN!!!! DONT WAIT UNTILL ITS TOO LATE!!! THERE IS MORE THAN ENOUGH OF US IN THE US/CANADA/MEXICO/EUROPE/JAPAN/CHINA/AFRICA to do this.
VIVA LA FUCKING REVOLUTION!!
