straight up - i'm a spaz. there was a point in time in my life that i was adoringly nick-named such, in fact. i've got no regrets. i live life to the fullest and try not to waste too much time on the small stuff ... i AM getting better at that, but it's a work in progress. i sometimes care too much about what people think, but i'm working on that, too. one day at a time .. no, i'm not an alcoholic, i just think its a good mantra.
i'm head over heels in love with my brian, the "master of the game", haha. we've been together for almost 4 years and there's no one else i would rather spend my life with. he's funny and caring and devilishly handsome. but most importantly he makes me happy. and if i learned anything at all from my mom it's that life is short and what's the point if you're not happy? we've got to make the most of our time on this rock, you never know when it might end. oh, and yes, for all of you who are wondering, you will be hearing wedding bells eventually! *giggles like an f'en schoolgirl*
i'm a true friend if it's earned ... i believe in kindness to those who deserve it, not love wasted on ingrates. and i've seen my share of ingrates. i'm usually the person who gets burned for giving people "one more chance", but i like to think that that makes me a pretty good person. fuck me twice, though, and you've uncovered a side of me that the world does NOT want to see. i can be a real bitch sometimes, but i am a woman, so i guess that's my right. feel the wrath of my inner ego and know what pain is. for SERIOUS.
i'm an artist, through and through. i love to draw, paint, take photos .. i really like to sculpt, too, but it's been awhile since i've played with that medium. my favorite thing to do is fx makeup, i like to think i'm pretty good at it. that would be my dream job, so when i hit the lottery i'll be taking sign-ups for whoever wants to work for my production company.
i'm a member of the "i lost a parent" club and while that sucks, i know she's always here with me. "and even if i need you here, i'll meet you there ..."
do not stand at my grave and weep
i am not there; i do not sleep.
i am a thousand winds that blow,
i am the diamond glints on snow,
i am the sun on ripened grain,
i am the gentle autumn rain.
when you awaken in the morning's hush
i am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
i am the soft stars that shine at night.
do not stand at my grave and cry,
i am not there; i did not die.
~mary elizabeth frye~
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