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About Me

I'm a person that has many friends, but constantly lonely. I over-analyze life to much to the point that I am totally paralyzed to do any action. I'm scared, but I love to be pushed to my limits. I giggle when I face my fears, I smile when I conquer them. I'm brave, but a coward. I'm goal-oriented, but unmotivated. I'm a professional perfectionist, but I'm a total slob. I love to laugh with friends, but I have so few. I have major trust issues with people so I try to placate to their desires so that they can like me, but at the same time, I don't want to be liked, because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm a slut, but also a virgin. An angel that has horns holding my halo. I love to make inappropriate comments at the wrong time. I love to give people crap, but afraid to take it. I live inside of my head and I never let anyone in. I lie to make myself feel better, because the truth just isn't that interesting. I'm a work-a-holic, because it gives me joy. Very rarely, do I feel joy. I don't take drugs, but I couldn't live without caffeine. I'm afraid to drink alcohol, because I'm a non-drinking alcoholic. I love life, but I don't, or won't, do anything with mine.My favorite two quotes are:"Why am I fighting to live, when all I'm doing is living to die?"And"The price of a memory is the memory of the sorrow it brings."I'm shy, subverted and anxious. I want what I want, but I won't do anything to get it. I let life dictate to me instead of me telling it what I want. I'm scared to show people my true self, but I can't wait to let someone in. I'm a hopeless romantic that will try anything to save a bad relationship, but I'm also numb from from recent past.I'm a riddle wrapped around an enigma, wrapped around a Sudoku, but I can be read as easily as a book. I still love my wife, even though she doesnâ€™t want anything to do with me.I laugh to loud, I speak to loud, I sign very badly, but I enjoy doing all three so much. I have many flaws, but I usually use my blue eyes to overcome any shortcomings that I have.I will tell you the truth, when it isn't a lie. I will fall in love with a woman at first sight and be tramutized for months when I find out that she is already taken.I love kids, but i'm afraid to have any of my own. I live in a shell of my own making, just waiting to break out of it.

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Need some help

Crew,I need some help beta testing a new MySpace profile for my company. Can you please take a look and give me some feedback to let me know what works and what doesn't?www.myspace.com/redlionslcThan...
Posted by on Sat, 10 Jan 2009 15:42:00 GMT

Reflections

ReflectionsAs the snow falls, I tend to think back and reflect about the last year. (True, I am at St. Thomas as I am writing this, but that is just the details.) The winter time for many...
Posted by on Wed, 24 Dec 2008 14:16:00 GMT

Need Advice... Please Help

I am going to St. Thomas on December 23rd and I need your help. I need some advice on what my first drink I will have as I am sitting on the beach, with sand inbetween my toes, hearing the ocean lap ...
Posted by on Thu, 18 Dec 2008 09:57:00 GMT

My Immortal

Two years ago today, I was driving 13 hours straight to finally be with my wife after her duty in Iraq had ended. It was a LONG road trip. I had many thoughts, ideas, dreams and I was also...
Posted by on Sun, 09 Nov 2008 23:14:00 GMT

HOCKEY FUN

Hockey is BACK!!!! On Friday and Saturday, this weekend, they are having a great special. BUY 1, GET 1 FREE!!!! Come on, and let's cheer our Grizzlies to another great season of fighting.&...
Posted by on Mon, 20 Oct 2008 22:54:00 GMT

The Call

Yesterday, I did something that I wanted to do for the last four months, but didn't have the courage to do it. I called my ex. I'm not sure why I had. I mean, it has been a hard mont...
Posted by on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 06:03:00 GMT

Time

14 Years Ago... I met the most interesting, funny, and wittest person that I had ever met. She was young, full of life and made me laugh. I fell in love. 12 Years Ago... After hiding my tr...
Posted by on Mon, 08 Sep 2008 12:26:00 GMT

Memories

How is it that the most inanimate objects can cause the most emotional reactions? Last weekend, I was working and I was asked if someone can store there "stash" in my file cabinet. Now, I ...
Posted by on Mon, 11 Aug 2008 21:43:00 GMT

I need bail money and I need it NOW!!!

I have been arrested by the MDA and they need $2,400 before I am allowed to walk the streets again. Speaking of walking the streets, do you know how hard it is to walk with MS? Damn diffic...
Posted by on Thu, 07 Aug 2008 00:46:00 GMT

Why?

Why & do I still love someone that left me three years ago?Why& am I unable to move on?Why& am I still paralyzed against the feelings that I have for another when she no longer shares them with ...
Posted by on Mon, 28 Jul 2008 00:30:00 GMT