TAYL0R[™]

im not the person you have me pin-pointed out to be, im not someone who is constantly looking to beat someones head in. deep down inside, im just a regular person...afraid of what my next mistake is going to be. if someone was to describe me, i think they'd say that i love to fight and that i dont have a soft side, well im here to tell you i do and im probably the most caring person you will ever meet. ive been hurt so many times before, all im trying to do now is protect myself. sometimes i wont talk to anyone for months, ill basically disappear and just ignore everyone because im afraid of getting hurt. and if ive done this to you, just know that its not you...its something i do and i dont know why. i have lost some of the most important people to me, and yet i still have room to love...while others, who have lost nothing, are cruel. i will not stand for someone treating me with disrespect, girls or boys. i dont ask for much, just one true friend. i had a best friend that i lost, and thats the main reason why i hide myself from people. a 10 year friendship, that went completely down the drain due to cruel intentions. i still havent recovered from it yet. i have a ton of "friends" but i dont consider them "best friends" because they will never compare to the relationship i had with that one best friend...we talk about twice a week now, and it's just not the same. sometimes i dont even know what to say to her, sometimes she makes me feel 3 ft tall. my family means nothing less than the world to me, and when i say i'd be lost without them....i really mean it. i feel so guilty for the way ive treated them throughout hardships, and i hope someday to make up for it. i hold guilt deep down inside, and it shatters me into a million little pieces. i will be your one and only faithful friend, and i will love you if you give me a chance to.
this song basically describes me.
I hate the world today
you're so good to me
I know but I can't change
tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I'm an angel
underneath
innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
you must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover I'm a child, I'm a mother I'm a sinner, I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your health, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
and I'm going to extremes
tomorrow I will change
and today won't mean a thing
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover I'm a child, I'm a mother I'm a sinner, I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your health, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between You know you wouldn't want it any other way
Just when you think you've got me figured out
the seasons already changing
I think it's cool you do what you do
and don't try to save me
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover I'm a child, I'm a mother I'm a sinner, I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your health, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between You know you wouldn't want it any other way
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease I'm a goddess on my knees when you hurt, when you suffer I'm your angel undercover I've been numbed, I'm revived can't say I'm not alive You know I wouldn't want it any other way.